Ryan O'Callaghan, a former NFL offensive tackle for the New England Patriots and Kansas City Chiefs, came out as gay in a powerful profile in Outsports, published Tuesday.
O'Callaghan, who said he used football as his “beard,” revealed to the publication that he had abused painkillers and planned his suicide after his career was ended by injury in 2011.
“I just didn’t worry about being gay when I took the Vicodin. I just didn’t worry,” O'Callaghan said. “I started spending all my money to put myself in a position where it would be impossible, or at least extremely difficult, to back out of killing myself.” Read more (6/20/17)
awoke rather abruptly in the middle of the night sensing her husband
Hesky’s connection to the Link as the Humans were calling it. She
looked around almost expecting to see him in the small room she had
acquired for herself in the city of Geeda. Since there were no
Benemar left the city’s rooms had been turned over to the troops.
Link was not a true connection, in a way that she could not send a
worded message instead they could send emotions and feelings to
certain people. She sent her joy at feeling his presence to him and
he clearly freaked out feeling all these sensations at once. Every
Human that now had a Gal symbiont could sense new additions but since
Cathy and Hesky were emotionally connected their Link was stronger.
Hesky’s friend Hopkins had simply stirred in his sleep noticing his
appearance in the Link but had quickly rolled back over. Hesky called
out to Cathy in the Link and she responded with an burst of joy that
he keenly felt. He was glad to feel her. She then sent a more
intimate feeling to him which he met with a mixture of confusion and
arousal, she sent thoughts to him of herself being naked and she felt
his rush to get back to their quarters so as to put their child to
bed. All of Hesky’s reservations suddenly vanished and Cathy laughed
to herself. The Link could be as open or as intimate as one wanted,
this way someone could send a signal of a more personal nature and
not everyone would receive it. This way the Human retained their
individuality while still remaining part of the whole. The Gal as
well began developing more individual traits, such thinking was not
in their genetics but as Cassion had said they are reacting to the
presence of their more natural genetic cousins. But as much as the
link was as private as one wanted, the Gal with their link were
always so open meant the Humans could sense they were worried, there
was something they wanted to tell the Humans but were frightened to
do so. The Humans tried to coax it out of them but the Nerve was
adamant that everything was fine. The Humans then backed off, the Gal
would tell them when they felt they were ready to tell them.
of High Chiefs sat in shock, their mouths gaping at what they had
just been told, Geeda, the pride unfailing city of the Black Plains,
promised us that Geeda could hold out for months or even
indefinitely” Seewol said calmly almost in shock to the chief who
bowed before them.
Humans and Gal are working together to compliment each others
strengths, exploiting either one’s weakness will expose us to the
other” Chief Hopoln replied bowing his head, he had taken over as
military advisor after the last one was shot and now he feared the
there is nothing between them and the city of Sorlontra” High Chief
Pepeel stated “And that is 50 miles away from Geeda and nowhere
near as heavily defended”
about the their second force that advanced east from their landing
zone?” asked Pepeel.
forced our forces into the sea and are now preparing a island hoping
campaign, I have ordered the islands be turned into fortresses to
slow their advance”
suddenly became angry, he had been pressured to bring them a victory
but these High Chiefs were so detached from reality it was
infuriating. He shot to his feet, an act of the greatest disrespect
to a High Chief if not permitted to by them,
is all I can do!” he shouted and the High Chiefs were stunned to
silence “If it was just the Humans or the Gal then maybe I could
turn them back but the fact they are working together throws any and
all of our standard tactics to the void. I have nothing, absolutely
nothing in our arsenal that I believe will shift the tide of this
one spoke, not even the High guards who by all rights should have
killed him the moment he rose from his knees.
is only one thing that will save us” Hopoln said “Karamora”
High Chiefs took a sudden intake of air in shock.
would have us burn our own world to save it? That is insanity”
have learned more about it, we may not be able to control it but
High Chiefs looked at each other silently talking with their eyes.
we do do this, we will need to begin now, the activation takes time
and if we wait the Humans will have discovered it and it will be too
late” Peepel said.
what if we do aim it at the Humans and Gal what then?” Seewol
threat at a time” Deeter said and stood up “Begin the activation
in the darkness of Bento Prime, a darkness that had been long
abandoned began to awake from it’s millennia long slumber.
Humans had not advanced from Geeda, instead they had held a party to
welcome the Gal into the fold and give the soldiers a rest and some
respite after a hard won victory. It also gave them a chance to mourn
the dead, Clerk in particular was given special attention.
body lay on a bed of wood they had gathered which was not really a
lot as trees were rare on Bento Prime so they used anything
flammable, Hundreds of thousands of soldiers and Gal came to pay
their respects. Even the rebels were present and curious to see how
Humans honour their dead.
stood on a small raised podium so he could be seen by everyone, the
Link was alive with feelings of sorrow and mourning. He sent a
feeling of happiness to try and raise their spirits.
Clerk was one of the best I have ever served under, he like so many
joined the army in hopes of seeing new worlds and to serve the Terran
people. But he did more than just serve, he lead, he was a leader
that many if not all could look to with pride for he was not the man
behind you but the man beside you. He faced all the trials and perils
alongside us and he faced them head on, he would never order a
soldier to an action he would not undertake himself. More than once
he turned down promotions so as to be always in field, with his
soldiers, he will be surly missed”
wave of sorrow flooded the Link so much even the Gal were moved by it
and those in the fleet who were watching via vidcom also felt it,
distance meant nothing to the Link but hearing the words and feeling
them in the Link amplified their effect. Even Depit who was not even
a year old and had no symbiont felt the mood and cried, reaching for
his father for comfort.
Karen took the podium to say a few words as was their custom.
first time I met Captain Clerk I was a new recruit and had no idea
who he was, I was sitting in the bar when this cocky guy came in
began chatting me up” she smiled and the mood lightened as the Link
began to feel humour.
made every sign that I was not interested but still he persisted and
when I finally told him I like girls he stop and pondered” she
smiled and laughed a bit “Before finally asking if he could sit in
of course I slapped him and the entire bar went silent and he looked
at me before finally showing his captain stripes. I could have died
there and then but he laughed. Apparently he liked to mess with new
recruits and I was his latest victim”
rebels watched all of this with a bit of confusion, they were telling
stories of the fallen comrade which they understood but also making
jokes, this was supposed to be a sombre affair but the Humans were
remember one time” Cho began taking his turn “We were bored after
the dull deployment of Somven asteroids we decided to play a joke on
the gunnery crew. Me, Clerk and Cathy all made these harmless but
loud bangers and threw them onto the gunnery deck and screamed about
soldiers laughed, many had been on that ship at that time and
remembered that time, the whole fleet was put on alert for thinking
that the flagship was about to suffer an accident and explode.
went on for some time with more and more people telling their stories
of Captain Clerk, to many he had been a farther figure and almost
everyone had some personal story to tell. Some stories were sombre
about times they lost loved ones and Clerk would lift their spirits
or simply sit with them as they talked about their lives or just sat
there with them in silence.
sun was low now and it was time, the soldiers then placed trinkets or
flowers made from paper on his body or by the raised wooden bed. Some
would just rest their hands on his chest and say a few private words
before moving on. Then, finally Jenkins approached with a small
the earth we come” he said.
the earth we return” the soldier responded in unison.
put the flame to Clerks body and the flames slowly consumed his body,
this was one of many such funerals they performed, some were done in
bulk but Clerk held a special place in their hearts so had his own.
His ashes would be collected after and transported back to Terra to
be scattered by his relatives, many now held their heads and wept
unashamedly. To many the light of a great man had now passed and the
day was a darker place for it.
↳ Of old the chief city and haven of Númenor was in the midst of its western coasts, and it was called Andúnië because it faced the sunset. But in the midst of the land was a mountain tall and steep, and it was named the Meneltarma, the Pillar of Heaven, and upon it was a high place that was hallowed to Eru Ilúvatar, and it was open and unroofed, and no other temple or fane was there in the land of the Númenóreans. At the feet of the mountain were built the tombs of the Kings, and hard by upon a hill was Armenelos, fairest of cities, and there stood the tower and the citadel that was raised by Elros son of Eärendil, whom the Valar appointed to be the first King of the Dúnedain.