city & colour the girl

a playlist for those who try to find beauty in their sadness and for dreamers made of stardust; inspired by vincent van gogh and his artwork
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we existarcade fire // grew up at midnightthe maccabees // mythbeach house // where is my mind (cover)sunday girl // i hope time doesn’t change himthe drums // there is a light that never goes outthe smiths // riptidetaylor swift cover // earthsleeping at last // weightlesscity and colour // turn bluethe black keys // purple yellow red and blueportugal. the man // where is my mindpixies // followcrystal fighters // cigarette daydreamscage the elephant // ketteringthe antlers // compasszella day // the winner takes it allthe vaccines // between the barselliott smith // odysseydream koala // lazulibeach house // undothe 1975 // water mefka twigs // softly draining seasjamie isaac // washbon iver // i foundamber run // happymarina and the diamonds

rivers ‘til i reach you || a playlist for early morning breeze and long drives through the woods.

so may the sunrise bring hope where it once was forgotten (l i s t e n)

i. holland road - mumford & sons  ii. animal tracks - mountain man iii. the girl - city and colour iv. goodbye england (covered in snow) - laura marling v. rivers and roads - the head and the heart vi. flowers in your hair - the lumineers vii. marshmallow unicorn - rachel sermanni viii. lonely handed - emily and the woods ix. kathy’s song - simon & garfunkel x. dirty paws - of monsters and men xi. gypsy - suzanne vega xii. upward over the mountain - iron and wine xiii. fire - jesse thomas xiv. an interlude - the decemberists xv. gale song - the lumineers xvi. dancing barefoot - first aid kit xvii. king of spain - the tallest man on earth xviii. road - nick drake xix. part one - band of horses xx. wishing well - the oh hellos xxi. our own pretty ways - first aid kit xxii. down in the valley - the head and the heart xxiii. halcyon - the paper kites xxiv. digging shelters - neil halstead xxv. woman king - iron and wine

Music Series: The Girl by City and Colour

As I was looking through my requests, I pulled this song up on Spotify and I immediately smiled listening to it. This is one of those songs that, if you are a sucker for romance, have a tissue ready just in case…it’s that good. I felt my throat tightening and eyes about to water, and it has to be special to do that to me. My story isn’t the sweet tearjerker this song can be, but please make sure you hear this song if you haven’t.

I absolutely love this! “The Girl” by City and Colour. If you would like to listen, you can find this song on my Spotify playlist ‘I Love You Long Time’, HERE. Just make sure to listen to the entire song (lyrics repeated), as the second half increases the tempo and it is so good!

Thank you, Anon!




I wish I could do better by you,

‘cause that’s what you deserve

You sacrifice so much of your life

In order for this to work.

“My first flight leaves at 3 in the morning, then I connect at 7:30, and should be to you by…looks like 5:30, 11:30 your time…sooo…provided my taxi driver isn’t crazy, I should be at the hotel by midnight,” you explained to Harry over the phone. “Would you rather I get a room so I don’t wake you?” you teased. “Or I can sleep on the sofa.”

“Not funny,” he teasingly scolded. “Get your ass here! I miss you!” You giggled as you talked to him while packing your bags. “You’re amazing, you know that?”

“Why am I amazing?” you asked, not understanding. Booking flights isn’t rocket science, after all.

“Doing all that just to come spend some time with me,” he said, shaking his head. “Just because I was complaining about missing you. You’re amazing to me.”

“And you’re sweet to me,” you gushed. “And I love you, and you’re all that matters to me.”

“I love you, too,” he answered.

While I’m off chasing my own dreams

Sailing around the world

Please know that I’m yours to keep

My beautiful girl

Harry was nervous when your flight arrived and you weren’t on it. He had gone to the airport to surprise you by picking you up, but when you weren’t there, he panicked and begged the counter agent to find out what had happened. The voice on the recording when he tried calling you told him the number he had reached was unavailable.

“Please, have you found out anything?” he asked the airline agent.

“I’m sorry, Mr. Styles,” they repeated politely. “We see that the flight was delayed. Some of the passengers were placed on other flights while some were left to wait it out until another flight is available. Terrible storm there today.”

“Thank you,” he sighed heavily, nodding nervously. Not knowing where you were, or if you were okay, was a horrible feeling. The two of you had been together for awhile now, and fans and paps everywhere knew who you were. It was two more hours before Harry’s phone received a text from your number.

‘Finally here, different gate, had no mobile service, long story. Exhausted. On my way as soon as I find a taxi. Love you.’

Harry immediately dialed your number and breathed loudly when he heard your voice.

“Harry? I’m sorry. Did I wake you?” you asked.

“No, baby, I’m here, at the airport. Where’s your gate?”

Harry smiled, finally seeing your tired but beautiful face in front of him, and held you for a long moment, squeezing you so tightly you could have popped.

“Been a long day for both of us, love,” Harry said, kissing your face. “Let’s go.”

When you cry a piece of my heart dies

Knowing that I may have been the cause

If you were to leave

Fulfill someone else’s dreams

I think I might totally be lost

You were so proud of Harry. He was an amazing performer, only one of many talents. But you never tired of watching him on stage. You wiped a tear from your eye as you watched him blowing kisses to the cheering audience and offering a bow of thanks to them, before walking off stage, waving as he disappeared behind a curtain.

You managed to make your way through the back of the crowd of the small venue, only being detained a handful of times by fans of his telling you hi. As you found your way back to where the crew was, you looked around and saw Harry wiping sweat from his face with a towel, then smiling those dimples you could swim in.

You walked to him as he met you halfway, wrapping his arms around you, then pulling away.

“Oh, sorry, babe. I’m disgusting with sweat,” he said, as you grabbed him and pulled him against you tightly.

“I don’t mind,” you said, cuddling against him as you felt his lips press against your head. “You did so well, Harry. Just busting with pride.”

Harry smiled, loving to hear praise, but especially from you. It made it a little more worth the miserable times you spent apart.

Once back at the hotel, you waited while Harry showered and changed and prepared for the next morning’s flight, knowing that your time with him was approaching its end. As you got ready for bed, Harry heard you sniff in the washroom and peaked in, seeing you wiping your eyes with a tissue. He walked to you, seeing your red, slightly-puffy eyes in the mirror and wrapped his arms around you, knowing why you were upset.

“I don’t want you to go, either, love,” he said, flowering kisses along your cheekbone.

“Went by too quickly,” you sniffed, another tear leaving your eye.

“It did, yeah,” he said softly into your ear.

“I’m sorry,” you apologized. “I swore I wasn’t going to cry.”

You heard Harry sniff and looked at him, giggling at him wiping his tears from his face and laughing at himself.

“We’ll cry together,” he said, loving on you as long as you would let him.

Both of you walked back into the bedroom and climbed into bed, holding each other with sweet kisses and touches. As his kisses became more intimate, his hands wandering more stealthily, he kissed your neck as his mind began thinking about you leaving. He stopped kissing you and looked into your face, his hand on the side of your head, thumb caressing your cheek lightly, and staring as if he had something to say.

“What is it?” you asked.

Harry grinned slightly then kissed your lips softly. “Nothing, love.”

At the airport the next morning, Harry ushered you to a corner out of sight from most, so the two of you could have a moment of privacy before the first flight left. Your back to the corner, Harry’s arms around you, speaking into your ear quietly and leaving loving kisses to your face, he pulled back again and you noticed the same look on his face.

“Love,” he said quietly. “I want to ask you a favor.”

“Anything,” you said with a teary smile.

“You never ask for anything,” he said, caressing your hair. “Never ask me to buy you things, or take you places. You’re always content just to be with me.”

“Well, yeah, of course,” you said, a little confused and not sure where this was leading.

“But I want to ask you for something,” he started. “Come with me,” he said sweetly. “I don’t want us to be apart anymore. Please, come with me.”

You looked at him surprised. You had traveled with him before, but it was always meeting him somewhere for a short holiday.

“Quit your job,” he pleaded. “Not necessary, is it? And you don’t really like it much anyway. I want us to be together. Want to take care of you. Want you with me wherever I am. Please say you will.”

You lost another tear down your cheek, touched that he felt so strongly about wanting you with him.

“Okay,” you said with a smile. “Okay. Thank you.”

He kissed you softly, rubbing his nose against yours and holding your face to his.

“My beautiful girl…”

You don’t ask for no diamond rings no delicate string of pearls

That’s why I wrote this song to sing

My beautiful girl


While I’m off chasing my own dreams,
Sailing around the world,
Please know that I’m yours to keep,
My beautiful girl. 

(me singing)

20 songs that have helped me recently

1. Skinny Love- Bon Iver
2. People Help the People- Birdy
3. From Eden- Hozier
4. King and Lionheart- Of Monsters and Men
5. Hero- Regina Spektor
6. The Only Exception- Paramore
7. Litost- X Ambassadors
8. Pressure- Paramore
9. Use Somebody- Paramore cover
10. Tee Shirt- Birdy
11. Best Shot- Birdy
12. Not About Angels- Birdy
13. The Bakery- Arctic Monkeys
14. The Girl- City and Colour
15. Mess is Mine- Vance Joy
16. Like Real People Do- Hozier
17. Stat With Me- Sam Smith
18. All I Want- Kodaline
19. No One Ever Loved- Lykke Li
20. Ignorance- Paramore