If my lungs would motivate the words to come out, I’d probably say “I’m dying to leave.” It’s been a long time since I’ve felt right. I’ve been counting down the days. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt right. This home isn’t home to me. (I’ve never felt more alone. This town is not a home.) But I’ve never felt more at home.
Did you have any nervous feelings during the brexit? I'm pretty afraid right now.
Abso fucking lutely.
After brexit I remember having a few days of disassociating heavily because I struggled to deal with the concept. I don’t consider myself a smart person, especially when it comes to political discourse, so the idea that people would vote in favour of something that even I could see was a bad idea was… unbelievable. I felt my world view shift in a way that I still struggle to explain; it’s not like I had a moment of “I’m the only smart one!”, it was more like I spent days thinking “god… are there really so many people that don’t understand this?” It was alienating and surreal.
In the UK, our politics has been controlled by a small sect of the wealthy elite for so long, that the common citizen is completely detached from politics. I don’t mean we’re all early-johnen-vasquez-comic zombie sheeple, I mean that our policial discourse is designed to be impenetrable to anyone who hasn’t invested money or at least significant time into learning the lingo. Our politics is outright designed to be a confusing spectacle to anyone outside of office. The average citizen feels completely un-represented in politics, or feels too ignorant of how it works to be able to make a good decision, or both. And that’s a big part of why we have a huge problem with people just not bothering to vote.
In 2015 the voter turnout for the general election was the highest it had been since about 1997. And do you know what it was?
66.1%. Sad, right?
I won’t pretend that brexit was even on the same level as trump’s
campaign - though they share some tactics, Trump’s campaign has been so much
more extreme that it makes the election result even harder to
understand than the brexit one. Brexit was won through false information
and indifference as much as outright racism - I truly feel that if our politics were more accessible then it may not have played out the way it did. Brexit was a confusing mess that relied on the kneejerk reaction of ignorant (either by choice or by our political system’s insiduous conditioning) people, and nothing is more stark a testament to that than the regret that seeped through the country in the weeks that followed.
Anyway, leaving the topic of brexit; considering the stuff that has been said during Trump’s campaign, your fear is valid and justifiable. I don’t think anyone has a right to be telling others not to be afraid today. But I hope that you can at least find comfort in the words of others like you, and those who support you, and those who care for you. That’s something wonderful about the age we’re living in - our voices can reach each other in ways that would be impossible in the past. And while it’s not always something that is used for good, I hope that it can reassure you now to know that you’re not alone. No matter how betrayed you feel, or how scared, there is always at least one person in this world who cares for you, and wants you to be safe. I care about you and I want you to be safe.