citadal

02x06

- can i just say how much i love the fact that magnus keeps his magic ingredients right next to jam etc.? i mean, how iconic

- sending alec a fire message because alec was ignoring him? but magnus needed to see him because he was so worried about him
I’M NOT OKAY BECAUSE YOU’RE NOT OKAY this is so important? alec always refuses to think about himself, he doesn’t want to think about his feelings, he prefers pretending that the pain isn’t real. like it’s not important because other people have it worse and he should be there helping them instead of thinking about himself
but then there’s magnus being worried, reminding him that he’s there for him, that he can’t always think about others. that he needs to be happy too because he deserves to be happy

- i will be forever in love with alec’s reactions when he’s drinking any kind of alcohol. he really is innocent in SOME WAYS, isn’t he?

- will i ever get over the fact that alec missed ON PURPOSE because magnus was pouting and alec just wanted him to smile again? of course i won’t. he got played so good but it was still the most adorable thing. but when magnus finally showed him he’s totally slaying, alec was turned on. like, not even trying to hide how turned on he was. i’m living

- ahhh, the worst thing that can happen on first date? talking about how many exes you’ve got. especially when two people starting to date are literally the opposite of each other
and i gotta say, i was very unsure how i felt about alec asking magnus how many people he’s been with. but in the end, he realised that this really didn’t matter. that he wanted to be with magnus more. that he wouldn’t give up just because of his insecurities. it was never about magnus being with many people, it was about the fact that alec was just scared. he’s so inexperienced. that’s exactly the reason why magnus was scared too. afraid to do anything because what if he broke alec? he called him innocent… like magnus is not and that being with him would break alec
this showed just how healthy their relationship is and could be. yes, they will always face some difficulties but they know they like (love?) each other too much and it is possible to go through any problems. together.

- i always knew i couldn’t have what i wanted until you came along
i have so much to say about this? alec always thought he would end up alone or try to please his parents and marry some shadowhunter woman. he thought he would never be truly happy. but magnus came into his life and showed him that it’s possible? i know alec came out on his own terms and for himself but magnus had such a huge role in this and when alec tells him just how much that means to him, magnus is so surprised? he was freaking out about not wanting to destroy that ‘innocent boy’ but here’s alec… telling him how important it is to him to have magnus in his life

- when alec says 'magnus…’, it’s like magnus already knows what alec is trying to say. the pain on his face absolutely kills me. his past is in the way of his happiness and he can’t stop it. when alec almost leaves, magnus doesn’t say anything. it’s like he’s given up but alec taking a deep breath and trying to deal with his insecurities… this is so important and beautiful.

- i don’t care how many people you’ve been with
i don’t care how many people you haven’t been with
they both struggle, this isn’t an easy situation. but they both know that what they have is something special and they want to make this work because it’s worth it and they both deserve to be happy

- and a whispered 'i’m all for effort’? i’m a real mess. magnus lets himself have this, to try because he sees that alec truly wants this, even if he’s scared

- also, one date and they’re already talking about having a real relationship. they’re so #married and i’m living

- malec being the softest boyfriends saved my life. it was so pure and i’ll be crying forever

- MAGNUS’ HANDS ON ALEC’S WAIST, ALEC’S HAND ON MAGNUS’ ARM I’M FINE THIS IS FINE

- and magnus is adopting his first shadowhunters, interesting
jace feels like magnus is his only option. jace feels that magnus is a good person because of the way that he’s with alec and because of that quick moment they shared when jace came to bring alec back

- i still feel seriously weird about the pack stopping looking for luke after a what… day? two? seriously? luke is their alpha and they give up on him just like that? especially when they know very well what he’s going through? if maia knew that, everyone did. but she was the only one willing to go find him

- i was so worried about luke. going through random transformations, not being able to control himself because he was hurting so much. he loved jocelyn his whole life, she was the love of his life and then he lost her, just like that. i can’t even imagine how painful it must have been for him

- that scene where luke saved maia? i am absolutely speechless. she had nobody but luke was there for her, trying to calm her down, trying to help her. luke is just too good for this world and we don’t deserve him
and alisha and isaiah were amazing? i was genuinly in tears

- luke’s transformation was made so realistic? it was like i could almost feel his pain? i honestly i can’t begin to imagine what he must felt in that moment… turning into a wolf, ready to attack some mundanes
but simon talking about clary stopped him? i was in tears because luke loves clary so much that he is able to control his emotions. clary is now the most important person to him. and he would do anything for her

- it’s good seeing clary and jace acting more like siblings and jace trying to help clary figure out things connected to that rune or warning her about the clave. at least it’s not creepy incest so i’m seriously happy

- clary seriously matured so much? she could still be angry or blame alec for what happened to jocelyn (even though it wasn’t his fault at all) but she’s just worried about him because he feels guilty? i’m really proud of her

- clary walking out of the water in her wet dress… what is air???? this was so hot? like, obvs amazing body but she was so confident walking out of it? finally proving to everyone that yeah, she might be valentine’s daughter but she’s nothing like him at all

- do you always talk this much?
i absolutely LOVED maia and simon’s first meeting. simon talking way too much as always and maia just being so casual. let’s go find luke together

- that moment when maia tells simon she tried to kill jace and suddenly he’s so impressed with her and basically human heart eyes emoji. this is so pure and beautiful

- maia and simon exchanging their downworlder stories were so amazing? like, nobody will understand you like the other downworlder will. even if maia and simon are like the opposites, they still go through a lot of similar things and feelings. and i’m really glad simon found her because she just gets him?

- i love how soft izzy is always with clary? always thinking about her, always explaining things to her.
but i’m so worried about her… her hand is already shaking because of lack of yin fen?

- my heart is absolutely in pieces after that scene where izzy almost drowned in the water and then she has to give up on one of her biggest dreams to go into the citadel
i really hoped she would think about it before asking for more from victor. but i guess that’s just too addictive, isn’t it?

- raphael doing encanto on simon’s mum? yeah… why do i have a feeling it’s not gonna work anyway? cause she’s gonna be freaked out about this somehow . like she knows she remembers SOMETHING but just can’t figure out what it is?

- i am absolutely in love with irons sisters, they’re SO badass??? i mean, who can get an intro like this? making weapon and fighting? they are AMAZING. i’m not surprised at all izzy wanted to become an iron sister when she was younger

- the citadel looks absolutely AMAZING and i am literally izzy when she looks at it for the first time

- i can’t believe cleophas is a member of the circle? she spent so many years with the iron sisters just to betray them like this? and this shows just how much she hates her own brother? she wants all downworlders to be gone… including luke

- victor is the shadiest guy… he’s literally acting like a drug dealer. i’ll give you this stuff but you gotta spy on clary WHAT THE FUCK (i’m seriously beliving in that theory of him being actually sebastian more and more)

-  and victor making jace clean the weapons? what even…???? that was so fucked up?
and then he just kicked him out??? jace saved his life and now he’s doing this? yeah, that makes sense (seriously believing more and more in that theory)

- that smile when izzy says 'wait’? that was so creepy?


(see, i’m not just Malec Mess™ i can write other things too)