circling the drain of life

Reminiscence (Calum imagine)

Summary: You spend Valentine’s Day reminiscing

Word Count: 1.6k

A/N: This has to be one of my favourite things that I’ve ever written :) Please pay attention to the dates and times! It begins in the present, and then there are a series of flashbacks. They’re all in chronological order for ease of reading, but please pay attention to the timings if you’re unsure!

This is for @calumsbicth and @calsdream‘s Valentines!5sos blurb night!

Originally posted by hemmoxhood96

Present day, Valentine’s Day

With a cream envelope held between your fingers, you can’t prevent the smile from spreading across your lips. A greying memory slips into your mind, your eyes fluttering to a close as you let yourself get taken away to the land of fantasies.

Valentine’s day, two years ago, 1pm


At the sound of your name, you looked up.  You were in a park, sitting on a picnic blanket. Surrounding you were hundreds of tiny daisies, scattered amongst the green grass like a sprinkling of icing sugar.

“Hmm?” You looked across the blanket to see Calum, your boyfriend, with a wide smile spread across his face.

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Take it Out on Me

Originally posted by forassgard

(Steve Rogers x Reader) 

After everything he went back to them, leaving Steve broken and you to try and pick up the pieces.

Words: 2021 Warnings: Angst, sad Steve, language

An: Just a little something, got a new part to Bad Habit on tuesday and Mischief on thursday. :) x

Tags: @lexbugz, @goal-mine

(Let me know if you want to be added/removed to Steve fics or anything else!)

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Losing Bucky to Hydra had broken him, you saw him slip away more and more each day. He would deny it, tell everyone he was fine, but you knew, beneath the facade he put up, behind the false smiles and empty words he was losing himself to his depression. Every bit of news about Bucky made things worse, every act he committed for Hydra was another weight on Steve’s shoulders, another reminder he had failed his friend.

It was another damage control mission, the latest in an endless list since the Winter Soldier had returned to Hydra. Fury had intel Bucky was due to raid the SHIELD base for files on a new serum and you were there to stop him killing everyone to get them. By the time you arrived, half the base was dead or injured and the files had been uploaded to Hydra.

Steve’s hands were shaking as he aimed the gun at Bucky, his shield discarded beside him. Bucky was mirroring Steve’s stance, but he didn’t waver, didn’t show any signs of emotion.

“Please Buck, don’t make me do this,” Steve pleaded, getting no reaction from his friend, “you have to stop killing people, this isn’t you.”

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anonymous asked:

What do you think of Snape's character arc as a whole? Were you satisfied with how it culminated?

Errr, I’m relatively happy with it.

From a ‘I’m a Snape fan’ stance, I would’ve liked it had he lived; I think he gave a significant amount to the cause, and essentially put his life on hold to serve.  I am also extremely interested in any story that deals with the thorny issue of Severus Snape - and he is a thorny issue; he was outwardly a Death Eater, and a murderer, and a git of a teacher…dealing with any sort of punishment or absolution is extremely intriguing, I feel.  However, given the books ended at the point they did, and that wasn’t a story that was on the cards to be explored, I appreciate why it was thematically correct to have him die.

As a modern day series, I think I’d have either made it more plain that his and Lily’s relationship was platonic or I’d have added a few years to the war - I’d have had him and Lily date, and them break up over his move to becoming a Death Eater.  I think one of the major problems that people have with the series is that they think Snape’s feelings are out of proportion for the relationship we see - but perhaps their relationship being presented as their first intense love, and ‘the one that got away’…that might be more palatable to the majority, and would stop the ‘friendzoned loser’ readings that some are obsessed with attempting to force him into.

But my biggest lament isn’t so much that Snape died, but that he didn’t live up to the promise he made in his initial speech - this was a man who can supposedly put a stopper in death.  I have written this out much more fully before, but given the huge weight put upon the Unforgivables, I am always saddened that Harry’s use of an Unforgivable is after McGonagall was insulted and not, y’know, when he fights Voldemort.

I also think it’s a shame that Harry and Severus draw conclusions about each other whilst they don’t have to face each other; I really wanted to see them understanding each other.

Personally, I think there’s a really powerful story to be told if Snape is attacked by Nagini but he manages to ‘stopper death’ and talks to Harry.  (At this point, I’d have had Harry view Snape’s memories in the Headmaster’s office at the instruction of Dumbledore.)  Harry is devastated; he has a powerful wizard on his side, but he’s circling the drain of life…and worse still, Snape reveals that if he is left to die, it will count as being Voldemort’s murder and he will gain the wand.  It leaves Harry with no option but to murder Snape - he has to master the Unforgivable at this stage, else all is lost.

…and how powerful, that Harry has to murder Snape just as Snape had to murder Dumbledore…how ironic that Harry spent 7 years hating Snape, and the last year wishing to kill him…and now he gets his chance, right when he doesn’t want to have to do it.

That is a coming of age story.

                          KYLO X READER || Soul Mate 14

“The voice you hear your thoughts in is your soulmate’s but you don’t know who they are until you hear them speak for the first time.”

A/N: Enough with the angst! (JK, can’t promise you that) BUT, this part…well, just see for yourself and let me know how/what you feel/think! Also, thank you so so much for the support, it truly makes me happy knowing you all love/like reading this–especially that you love/like my writing! Means a whole lot and I love you all so much :) [GIF NOT MINE]

Word Count: 2.7K+

Warning: Mentions of blood and death.



Let’s think this through: you were having a pretty decent night, only to have a fire erupt in your house that lead you to realizing your parents had left you alone. Then there was the fact that Kylo Ren had saved you from the catastrophe only to wake up amongst the First Order on their new base. Following that, you found out your soulmate was no other than Kylo Ren–that scared the shit out of you. Of course, you then found out he was Ben Solo, only to soon find out you had loved him once–him taking your memories away for your own good. Then you ran off to Hux’s room, stayed locked up for nearly four days, got out, got kidnapped, nearly died from a list of things…then saw Kylo die before your eyes. How fucked up was your life now? Did you deserve this because the life you had before was actually normal and stable, was life that evil to make things circle the drain in the span of ten days to get a taste of just how unpleasant it can be?

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anonymous asked:

14 and 15 with xiumin, please! Love you

You couldn’t remember a time when you had gotten more than five hours of sleep. Hell, sleeping just three hours straight seemed like a sweet, distant, and unreachable memory to you. For the last eight months it seemed as though you were a machine: waking up, tending to the kids, getting a light nap around 11pm, waking up, and starting the whole cycle again.

You hadn’t seen much of your husband, Xiumin, as he was keeping a rather busy schedule to provide enough income for the household while you couldn’t work. He woke up at 6am and came home at 6pm, spending a few hours with you and the toddler twins before heading into the bedroom and crashing.

It was a monotonous cycle for you.

But it was a cycle made out of commitment and affection. You wouldn’t let yourself take any of it for granted.

The moments you spent with Xiumin help to alleviate the mental stress and pressure that is expected of a new mother. Although your husband didn’t have the time or solitude to act as passionately towards you as he liked, he showed his love through the small, tender things that eventually piled up and became an emotional pillar to you.

On this particular evening, however, your mental resolution was walking on thin ice.

Xiumin had to work late today, and you didn’t hear the door unlock until 12:30 that night.

He walked in, and you noticed how physically exhausted he looked.

“Jagi, what are you still doing up?” He took of his shoes and long winter coat and quickly sauntered over to your side at the kitchen table. “You told me you were getting enough sleep.”

“I am,” You said hesitantly, drawing out your words.

“Well then your idea of enough and mine are two completely different things.” Xiumin pulled out the chair beside you and sat down.

“The girls are doing alright, though,” You sighed, running your hand through your hair. “They finally wore themselves out and are unconscious in their room.”

You turned your gaze from the table to Xiumin’s face, giving him a weak smile. “They’re so cute when they’re asleep, y’know?”

“That’s all well and good, but-” Your husband halted in his words as he turned to examine your face.

Your skin had gone pale. Dark circles seemed to drain the life out of your eyes. The spark had seemed to die out of your expression.

“Jagi…” Xiumin reached his hands out and cupped your face, forcing you to look at him in the eye. “When was the last time you got some actual rest?”

A tear rolled down your cheek, expression faltering and fragile.

“I haven’t slept in 48 hours, Xiu… I just couldn’t stop myself from watching over the kids… I’ve been so worried about them-”

Xiumin cut you off, pulling you into a tight, warm embrace. He nestled your head into his shoulder, the silky texture of his white dress shirt soothing your cracked skin.

“I’d kill for a coffee right now.” You mumbled pathetically, barely intelligible underneath your husband’s embrace.

“There you go again, cracking a joke when the moment gets too serious.” Xiumin smiled and kissed your forehead. “I’ll go put a new pot on the stove.”

Before you could stop him, Xiumin got up and skittered off to the opposite side of the kitchen.

“Xiu, no,” You whined groggily, “Go get some sleep, you have work early tomorrow.”

He ignored you, tending solely to the hot mugs of coffee he had conjured up within a few minutes time. You squinted and saw him fix your cup just how you liked it, adding way to much sugar to his own mug, just how he liked it.

He walked back over to the table, steaming cups in hand.

“What kind of husband would I be if I abandoned my wife, who is very obviously ignoring her own exhaustion, and left her to her own repressed solitude?” He gave you his signature smirk.

“And I have absolutely no reason to get any more sleep than you do, Jagi, and besides-” He sat the mug down on the table in front of you, turning the handle towards you before taking a seat. “-Tomorrow’s Saturday.”

You groaned and slammed your head against the table in inner irritation.

“Just let me take some of the weight, alright (y/n)?” You felt the warmth of his hand as he gently rubbed your back. “You’re working a full-time job as it is, taking care of our little princesses.”

“I love them so much…” You whimpered. “I love you so much. I just can’t imagine a minute where I take my eyes off of them and something…”

You suppressed the sob that threatened to escape your sore throat.


Xiumin continued to rub your back, remaining silent and attentive as he listened to you.

There was a long pause. Without another word being spoken, Xiumin pulled you up from your seat and scooped up your weakened frame into his arms

He walked slowly across the apartment floor, gently and quietly kicking the bedroom door open before entering. You felt the soft dip of the mattress against your back, a feeling that was now foreign to you.

“But- but the twins-” You protested against your husband’s movements as he began to tuck you in.

“Don’t worry, I’ll look after them for a little while longer while you get some sleep.” He bent down and kissed your forehead. “And when I get back, I’ll be the first one up if there are any problems, alright?”

You gave him another worried glance.

“I promise, (y/n), as long as I am here by your side, nothing is going to ‘happen’.” You looked up at him with hopeful eyes as he spoke. “And I am always, always going to be by your side.”

You slept that night in more peace and comfort than you can describe, only waking up once as Xiumin nestled himself into bed beside you around 2am.

Your anxiety was laid to rest once he whispered that the girls were asleep once again, the protective warmth and comfort of his arms lulling you back to sleep as he spooned you.

Originally posted by drawien

I couldn’t fall asleep one night and decided against my better judgement to try and knock out the last of these drabble requests from forever ago. I feel so terrible for making you guys wait x_x I hope this floofy hubby!Xiumin can hold you guys over until I can properly devote time for updates… (Thank you for requesting anon, I hope you liked it~)


Summer Week 2: An Emotional Rollercoaster

This week’s lineup features an impressive debut with Magic Circle Guru-Guru, a soul-draining experience with A Centaur’s Life, a slow, but yummy recovery with Restaurant to Another World, and cute robots (of course) with Made in Abyss. I discuss Week 2 of the summer season under the cut!

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In Dreams 5

Y'all ready to go AU??

Rating: Gen


The Chicago field office is newer than the Hoover, but at it’s most basic level, is still government building. The whole place is builder-grade, with cracked ceramic tiles and low pile carpet in the bullpens. The forensics dept is basically the same as any in a standard police department or CSI office. It is essentially glorified a teacher’s lounge with high tech lab equipment and five-year-old computers.

Thankfully, a morgue doesn’t require much flash. As long as she has her equipment, she’s happy.

Well, not happy, in the month and a half since her arrival, she’s been making a pretty good show of it though.

She’s able to work with a certain level of anonymity here. The field agents are focused on organized crime and gangs, not her spooky reputation, which seems to have blown away in the windy midwest. She can be whoever she wants here. Maybe she likes the corny jokes the guy in fingerprints regales her with everyday. Perhaps she’s the kind of person who joins the forensics department book club. She could be the kind of woman who wants a cashmere sweater because Oprah recommended it. Couldn’t she?

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The RIP List of 2015

The RIP List of 2015

League of Legends can often feel like a living creature that evolves right before our eyes. With each change comes new champions, new item combinations to try out, and new strategies to win the game. But change also means saying goodbye (or good riddance!).

Join us in remembrance of the parts of LoL that are no longer with us.

RIP Minion Models - Updated with SRU

Animation by Xenitaph

In honor of their service, let’s raise a glass to those who’ve been our faithful gold generators for six years.

RIP Baron Nashor Model - Updated with SRU

Animation by yeamarc1

Here he is enjoying retirement as the centerpiece to the time-honored “Circle of Life Drain”.

RIP Revive - Removed from the Game

Now even Zombie Karthus can’t worm his way out of this many ultimates.

RIP Deathfire Grasp - Removed from the game

Video Source

It will be missed.

RIP Runeglaive Ezreal - Item changed

Video Source

So much poke…so much damage…

RIP Fiora’s Hydra Blade Waltz - Gameplay and Visual Update

Video Source

RIP Gangplank - Gameplay and Visual Update

RIP Old Mordekaiser - Gameplay and visual update

Now he haunts the occasional bot lane in search of AD carries and Dragons to enslave.

RIP Indestructible Poppy - Gameplay and Visual Update

Nothing inspired terror quite like a fed Poppy waddling toward your team.

Now that we’ve said goodbye to 2015, what are you looking forward to the most in 2016? Let us know in the comments below!

Before The Storm- Sehun

Hope you guys enjoy this scenario! This is based on the song by Miley Cyrus and Nick Jonas (don’t judge).

I know this isn’t what I wanted,
Never thought it’d come this far,
Just thinking back to where we started
& how we lost all that we are

“It was just a screen kiss It didn’t mean anything,” you exclaimed for the hundredth time that day. You had come home after a busy day, shooting for a new movie.  You stood in the living room, of your studio apartment that you shared with Sehun. The walls were decorated cream with black furniture around the room that as Sehun called it “tied the room together”. When you two had first moved in together, it was one of the best moments of your life, you still remember the day you moved in and how proud you had felt to live in an apartment that you had brought with your own money, you still remember how blessed you had felt to meet Sehun , that he had come into your life. Tears were stinging your eyes but you focused on the vase in the far left corner, willing yourself not to cry. This argument had been going on for a few weeks now, you thought he would be more professional about it but clearly you were wrong.  It was not just this argument though lately you had felt him growing distant and whenever he would come home he would say something but the next day he would apologise and you were tired of it.

“Well the next thing I know I will read the papers and find out you are cheating on me,” he scoffed he turned away and walked into the bedroom. Anger flared inside of you and you marched into the bedroom, he was changing his shirt, you noticed how his brown hair was messy; how red his eyes were, and the dark circles around them that drained the life from his beautiful face.  You knew that he was having a hard time but whenever you tried to talk about it with him but he would only get angrier.  

We were young & times were easy,
But I could see it’s not the same.
I’m standing here but you don’t see me,
I’d give it all for that to change.
And I don’t want to lose her,
I don’t want to let her go.

You stood next to him still not believing that he had said that, that he had thought this lowly of you.

“Is that what you think of me?” you retorted. You saw Sehun rolling his eyes, he ignored you and sat on the bed.  “Sehun?” you exclaimed

“I don’t know.” He shouted.

“I DON’T KNOW! What is that supposed to mean?” you cried. You didn’t know how it had come to this. Was it possible to fall out of love? “Sehun you don’t trust me.” You said more to yourself than him, he didn’t say anything. You thought he knew where this was going too. Then an uncomfortable silence settled between you two, it was like both of you were waiting for the moment. With a sigh you sat next to him on the bed once you two had shared.  You took his hand in yours, he stiffened, and you promised yourself that this was for the better.

Not a word is left unspoken as the thunder starts to crash

“Sehun-“you begin

“___ don’t” he whispers and your hands start to shake.

“We both know Sehun that we are holding on to something that isn’t there anymore. If you don’t trust me then Sehun, what is the point in this relationship?” you continue but he yanks his hands away from yours and stands up furiously.

“I knew you would break up with me. I knew that kiss meant something to you,” he shouts.

Flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I’ll never hold her,
Like I did before the storm

“Sehun don’t do that, don’t make this about him. This is about us,”you reply as you move towards him.

“There is no us,” he spits out. You hear the sound of your whole world crashing down, you feel numb and broken. Hearing those words from him like that, is what wounded you the most. You shakily fall to floor, and as the door slams shut,Sehun walks into the rain and you know it’s over.

Standing out in the rain, knowing that it’s really over- please don’t leave me alone
Flooded with all this pain, knowing that I’ll never hold you, like I did before the storm

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anonymous asked:

Hi Sasha, I'm sorry if you have expressed your opinion on this before. Do you think payzer 1.0 was a set up or was there something real? I wasn't here back then and don't really know about their history. Would really appreciate it if you could share your thoughts. ❤️

It’s possible it was always a set up. But I lean towards thinking it was once a real relationship and then a fake one. I honestly don’t think it was ever really as serious as it was played in the press.

From what we’re able to piece together, it seems like there was a real relationship at one point that Zayn resented very much.

Look at this forced smile.

Poor baby. Love hurts.

Occasionally, we’d see him get in his feelings about her. Some of his lovelorn tweets came around the time Danielle would tweet about Liam. He was annoyed when Liam spent his bday with Danielle and didn’t answer his calls. The comment about being a curly haired bimbo if he was a girl is widely thought to be Danielle shade. Compare that with his typically cool demeanor when the topic of Sophia came up in interviews. Part of it was probably just growing up and maturing. But I think part of it was that his relationship with Liam was on very solid ground by the time Sophiam happened.

Then there was Vegas 2012 which I think may have been the big her-or-me ultimatum. I think Liam was probably cheating on Danielle with Zayn by this point (and Payzer 1.0 was circling the drain). I know that’s a touchy subject. But life is messy and complicated and your faves aren’t perfect.

Fast forward to the present and we have even more “evidence” of Payzer 1.0 being a thing. I Won’t Mind seems about Zayn being willing to be Liam’s sidepiece (that still blows me away). So that would fit the Payzer 1.0 era.

So my best guess is that there was some degree of realness to Payzer 1.0 but that Payzer 2.0 was a bearding situation brought about by 1DHQ finding out that Ziam was official. Danielle was a temporary placeholder while they auditioned  potential beards (the job Sophia got). That seems in line with 1DHQ’s typical pattern of panicked homophobic overreacting.