historically, the normative way of becoming Christian is through profession of the Apostolic Christian Faith, being united to Christ through baptism into Christ and the Apostolic Church, being sealed with the Holy Spirit(chrismation), and being united to Christ in Holy Communion according to Apostolic Teaching. That is the way people became Christians all through history. In this day and age, it is typical for many Christians in the evangelical world to only go through a profession of faith. Baptism is often neglected or seen only as a profession and not mystical union with Christ and the Apostolic Church. Teachings on the Holy Spirit are often neglected or vague to the point of confusion and Communion often is neglected and employed only as symbol and not a true union with Christ. Not only this, but the Apostolic teachings of the first 1000 years of the faith are often neglected almost entirely on these subjects and are replaced with views that have only arisen in recent centuries.
For these reasons, I think that for many Christians, they have never had a complete, biblical, normative Christian conversion. Unknowingly they have not been fully initiated into Christianity as it has always been taught from the beginning. I think for many people who are Christians and still searching for a home, they are undertaking this search because on some level there’s an intuitive awareness that their experience of Christianity is incomplete or lacking in authenticity. I think that is why so many people feel unsure about their conversion or about what the church is. They have never fully experienced these things and so are confused and unsure about both.
I say this from personal experience. I have been a Christian for most of my life but after years of searching and studying and much frustration, it was only after I came home to the historic One, Holy, Catholic, Apostolic, and Orthodox Church(Orthodoxy) that I experienced full initiation into the faith of Holy Scripture.
I think many of you who are searching are perhaps unknowingly searching for Orthodoxy. Come home to the Orthodox Church.
That quote from honeyandwormwood was pretty profound to me too. I swear I had an epiphany when she said it. I was like "This. This is why my vocation, my call, only showed up when I discovered The Episcopal Church. Because, for once in my life, I found a mess I didn't mind cleaning up."