Haven’t worn a bathing suit in almost 10 years because I was scared of what people would think of me if they saw me and all my bumps and rolls. I’m changing that this summer and I don’t care if people don’t like it or if they think my body’s “gross” because my dog’s opinion of me is the only one that matters and he thinks I’m pretty great (at least I hope so)
My boyfriend doesn’t know that I posted this. To be honest, I doubt he even remembers me taking it. But I wanted to post this because of how much it means to me. He’s kissing my tummy… It doesn’t seem like much of a big deal, but it is. I’ve lived my entire life feeling uncomfortable with my weight and this is the only man thats ever made me feel like my body isn’t just something to work around. He makes every inch of me feel loved and cared for. When he tells me he thinks I’m beautiful, I believe him.
“Love is a temporary madness, it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any fool can do. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Those that truly love, have roots that grow towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom have fallen from their branches, they find that they are one tree and not two.”
It’s been a little over a year since I last submitted to Chubby Bunnies, but I haven’t stopped my road to body positivity. Last summer I decided to finally take the plunge and start uploading plus size OOTDs (outfit of the day) to my blog, something I had been wanting to do for quite a long time but never felt confident enough to follow through on. At first I was hit with a pretty big blow when my first photoset was put on a fat shaming website, but I kept going and the response since then has been amazing. Doing something that makes me so happy and seeing it help others simultaneously is such a rewarding feeling. Even though I still have my rough body posi days, I’m in a really good place now, and I guess I just wanted to share this accomplishment with you all.
This blog was a huge contributor to me being able to overcome all of my self hatred. Seeing pictures of beautiful people who’s bodies looked like mine gave me the confidence I needed to pursue this goal. So thanks bunnies. <3
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