frecklesthecosplayer  asked:

Hey there! This blog gives me life, especially since y'all work so hard to do all this for $0.00. I was wondering if you had any docs with chronic illness? I'm a spoonie and I'd love to read some Derek as a spoonie fics

here’s what i was able to find!

Stiles’ Ultimate Gift by LillianDeLooney (14/14 | 44,529 | NC17)

Stiles is a spoiled brat who’s sent away to the Hale Family Farm to learn a lesson in respect and hard work. Naturally, he isn’t happy about it, but that changes when he meets a very special little girl and her amazing father …

“What about you Stiles?” Derek’s daughter, Kenny, asks innocently. “Are you gay?”

He chokes on his own spit and quickly downs the remainder of his coke, ignoring the blush stretching from his head all the way to his chest.

“I ah,” he clears his throat awkwardly and rubs a hand over his neck. “I might be?”

She sends him a knowing little smile and nods. “Good.”

~ A story about how to live life, not how to spend it.

New Ways to Fall Apart by mrsbeas (1/1 | 2,062| NR)

Stiles gets hurt and finds out more than he bargained for from the doctor. Which sucks, because running with a pack of wolves should be a lot more dangerous than a trip to the doctor’s office.

Two Minutes for Holding by captaintinymite (augopher) (17/18 | 117,988 | NC17)

There were three things college hockey players Derek Hale and Stiles Stilinski knew for certain. 1) Their lives revolved around hockey, 2) They were madly in love, and 3) Derek was so far in the closet he might never find his way out.

They’d been together for two years now, and for two years they’d been a secret with only a few people knowing about them. Yet Derek’s fear kept them from moving forward: fear of his family’s rejection, fear of his sexuality tanking his father’s career, fear of the rampant homophobia in professional sports. The ruse was growing thin.

Something had to give.

Or: The story of how one epic NCAA Championship run and college, served as the backdrop for some of life’s great hardships.

anonymous asked:

So, uh, I'm kinda awkward asking this, but since you have chronic fatigue (right? I'm not sure..) I was wondering if you could give your opinion on something about it? Jacksepticeye on youtube played a game called 'Robin' which deals with CFS. It's not that long a video and I was wondering if you could say something about how well it's dealt with in the game? I just really wanna know so I can understand better and you're the only one I know who I could ask this... Anyway, hope you have a gr8 day

Hi! Yes, I do have CFS, as does my mom, so I’m decently knowledgeable about it, I suppose. I’ve never watched Jacksepticeyes’s videos before and I’m really not a video game person, but I just went and watched it, and I have to say I was pretty pleasantly surprised.

The game is pretty rudimentary and simplistic, but if you’ve heard of the Spoon Theory before - this is what it is. The game forces you to choose which tasks to accomplish with your extremely limited energy, then tells you how it feels to have not accomplished important things - to have not showered that day, or not have done the dishes, because you spent your energy on making food or working online.

Then you try again, showering and doing the dishes the next day, but then you haven’t done those other things you needed to do, and you feel bad about that. No matter what, you can’t accomplish all the things you need to do with the energy you have, and that’s exactly what CFS is like. You can take a shower, but you can’t do laundry. You can make dinner, but you can’t do the dishes. You can take care of a pet, but you can’t read a book. You have to constantly make these choices, and deal with the frustration of never being able to do all the things you HAVE to do. 

Obviously, Jack doesn’t know much about CFS, but I appreciated his attitude, especially his open-mindedness to how other people can be constantly exhausted when he isn’t, and his simple acceptance that CFS is a real illness, when even that is still rare. Like he said, lots of people just go “Well I’m tired, but since I can just try harder, so can you,” and that just really sucks. 

CFS is not ‘normal’ tired. CFS is a fatigue so overwhelming and so unrelenting that people who’ve had it for a long time have described it as “having the flu for twenty years”. I’ve described it as fatigue so unbearable that it feels as if my bones ache. And it just doesn’t go away. You wake up more tired than when you went to bed. You drag yourself from the bed to the couch, and sit there feeling like a load of bricks is weighing you down. Those few tasks you accomplish feel like they take every bit of your strength. But people still say it’s not real, you’re faking, you’re lazy, and sometimes you internalize it, beating yourself up for not being able to do more, not being able to try harder.

So anyway, this is a pretty simple and short overview of CFS, but I really appreciate that it exists, and that a popular YouTuber talked about it to spread awareness. And I appreciate that you wanted to know more!

Here’s the video for anyone who wants to see it:

Reminder

Don’t lie or hide your illness/health problems/mental illness from your doctor’s, Thay need to know what to pay attention to wen/if you go on hormones/get surgery to keep you safe.

Don't​ forget that if you feel your mental illness is from not having hormones/surgery, communicate that with your doctor. For me personally hormones helped my mental health alot with out any other medications.

( Remember I can not give medical advice, and what works for one​ person might not for another, know your own body/mind and talk to your doctor.)

Confession #2,252

I know this sounds awful, but sometimes I wish I had cancer instead. People understand cancer. My condition is rare and no one knows about it before I tell them. Every time I admit I’m ill I need to spend the energy explaining it. Cancer can potentiality be removed, but I’ll be on medicine for life no matter what. Cancer is a killer but so is my illness if I forget to take my meds, and I so often forget… I feel bad for even admitting this, but at least if I had cancer people would get it.

Confession #2,251

My condition has been improving slightly over the last few months with medication changes, but now I’m starting to feel guilty that I’m sick but… not as sick as before? I still don’t know what my limits are and I feel like I don’t deserve the money I get to help me live now because there are days where I’m almost normal. I don’t want to get sicker but getting healthier is almost as scary now. I don’t want people to expect me to be 100% when I know I won’t ever be full recovered.

I can’t remember if I shared this here or not but last year I got to go see one of my favorite bands with one of my very best friends. We sang and danced and hung out with the band and it’s still one of the best nights of my life. I’m going to Denver again this year and I’ve already got a feeling that it’s going to be another trip of a lifetime. It’s the people in your life that make it amazing folks. ❤️

able-bodied people don’t seem to realise the nuances of disability, they look at it as such a black and white issue when it’s really not. like, i don’t need a wheelchair in the sense that i can’t physically use my legs and i don’t need a walking stick in the sense that i would fall over without one. but i do need a wheelchair in the sense that it could make the difference between my being bed-bound for a day and being bed-bound for a week and i do need a walking stick in the sense that using one today might enable me to do more tomorrow. disability and chronic illness aren’t black and white; using things out of necessity can mean a lot of different things for a lot of different people.

Some mornings you wake up and feel in control of your life. On others we all need a little spark, something to light the way, a tip to remind us it can be done. What are your “I’ve got this” moments when dealing with your daily care routine? Share with us on our submission page to help other CFers take on the day.