christmas-in-the-heart

i’m in my prime,
not withering and old.
but i refuse to play
your wicked games any longer.

i know this tether is unbreakable,
but you make me feel like i’m interchangeable.
you drew a target on my heart,
when did this become fatal attraction?

i don’t have the strength,
the energy,
nor the patience
to be held hostage by your love.

so baby please don’t despair
when i say that
i’ve found the courage to
let you go.

you were never meant to be tied down in the first place.

—  believing i could love you was my mistake, c.j.n.

if people were elements,
then we are ice and fire.

your touch is frost upon my burning skin,
my breath melts your frozen heart.
your kiss is cool against my lips,
and my heat warms you all the way down
to the tips of your toes.

and although we could complement each other,
beckon the other away from the end of polarity
to come and meet in the middle,
too much of one

will eliminate the other.

—  and i’d never forgive myself if i caused your destruction, c.j.n.
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Admin Sloth’s rant:
So after moving to my new place (nearer to the office) 6 months ago… I never knew this apartment had a hidden locker box behind the staircase (there is another postbox at everyone’s door). Was wondering why my bills always comes so late and usually it’s already a bright coloured warning letter by then. I just found out about the locker box after an online shop owner contacted the post office about a parcel that never reached me. They said ‘it might be hidden inside due to the post box downstairs being too full’ and I went: 'I have a post box… DOWNSTAIRS?!’

So today I went to open the pandora box that had been stealing my mails and OUT FLOWED A HUGE BUNCH OF EVERYTHING. I even needed a plastic bag to haul everything back into my apartment….

And within the mountain of envelopes… I FOUND THIS!!!! Christmas postcards from Zen and the RFA! Whyisn'tityoosungsob

No wonder Zen was asking if I received anything from Cheritz during the entire Christmas month last time… I’m so sorry for the late appreciation post, dear Zen and the team! Thank you so much for the postcard Cheritz, I love you guys to bits!!

P/S: Cheritz must have sent these postcards to all VIP members *v* Do support Cheritz by purchasing their goods when you are able to! I had to save up for it too ( ˃̶̤ ·̫ ˂̶̤ ) but totally worth it!!

-Admin Devlyn

Stoned love

Stop messing round with that fire,
Living like love is just a gun for hire,
Cos one moment its just messing round,
To your wiki saying she’s your spouse,
Oh but its not just girls,
Cos yeah one moment I was tearing off her blouse,
Now she says she’s living in my house,

Babe I know you said you’d never smoke pot,
Its just; that burned Like your first splif,
Now we just hanging around in the dark, you’re pale as a ghost.
Stop messing round now, cos am too stoned,
You’re know I can’t save you cos in this game am too gone,

She’s only seventeen, and thinks at sixteen am all there is,
But a degenerate kind, baby am definitely not what you need,
She wants to dance with devil, Mr brownstone is just grave,
Oh Y’know the drugs will drown her out, just too young,
Can’t believe this is my life, smoking and fucking in the back,

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