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Travel

To explore the world is a dream of nearly everybody. Indeed there is so much out there that is simply a flight away. It can be overwhelming and quite breathtaking to understand the incredible diversity that exists. As such, let us make an effort to explore and discover what the world truly has in store for us.

March has been kicking my ass with school work and I think the weather has been screwing up my head. I feel better now, so I’m going to turn anon back on. If you want so send me anon hate, then you might not get a response. I just think people that send hate anonymously are cowards, because if you want to tell people your opinions you should at least own up to them.

Also, I’m behind on the Kate book, but I’m gonna make a list of what I have so far and ask people to remind me to include their edits.

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

one day i’ll have coffee with Jesus
ask Him all the questions swimming around in my head
like
“do you take cream and sugar too?”
and
“why did he hurt me?”
and
“are you proud of me?”
and
“do you see the good in everything or do you get sad sometimes too?”
and
“can i do both? because most days i do.”

i’ll hug Him
and
He’ll hug me
the father
the son
the holy spirit
all three