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distancing

a/n: hi hello i’m back i hope you like this!!! my mind started wandering halfway through lmao

anonymous asked: Could you write one where y/n is distansing herself from Chris for some reason and Chris is getting worried she might leave him and confronts her like ‘Tell me what happened, tell me why everything changed’ Thank you if this is something you can write :)

pairing: reader x chris

word count: 1,2k 

warnings: angst i guess

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Christoffer’s biggest fear initially was committing into a relationship and letting someone in his life, letting someone know him on a more personal level. Nowadays, it was loosing you. The thought of you not being a part of his life was terrifying to him, as dumb as it might sound you were the best thing to have happened in his life so far. Even if it was really early in your relationship, he was pretty sure he was falling in love with you, fast. Too fast even. He never thought he’d feel the way he feels for you, but it was something he treasured.

It had taken him time to accept that his crush wasn’t only based on looks and that he liked you as a person and that he actually wanted to be with you, not only occasionally as a random hook up. You were understanding and gave him his time, never rushing him in anyway. He had appreciated a lot, so when he actually was ready you were both beaming with happiness. People had found it funny how happy you both were back then, the bravest ones tried to tease Chris about it, without success though.

But good thing don’t last, not for Chris at least. The universe probably had something against him or his happiness in general, because his worst fear was actually happening. You had become distant suddenly, Chris doing everything possible to stop it from happening in a way that he doesn’t look too clingy. As the whole relationship thing was new for him, he couldn’t help but wonder if he had fucked it up already. Had he said something to offend you? Did he do something wrong? In his mind, the options were endless.

Maybe Chris was a little dumb for not confronting you about it immediately and giving you some alone time, but as days went on he grew more and more worried. He was hung up on the idea of you leaving him, the less confident side of him completely taking over on the matter. Chris knew that he had to act quickly, before it’s too late.

Even with all of that, he was ready to save your relationship at all costs. That was exactly what he was doing currently, as he was walking around in the school in hopes of seeing you or your friends, so far it had been unsuccessful.

A sigh of relief got past his lips when he spotted your little group of friends, boldly walking up to them. They immediately noticed that Chris was walking towards them, growing quiet in matter of seconds. He examined each one of them, noticing Eva was there too. It probably wasn’t the greatest idea of his to hook up with Eva when he was interested in you, it was something he deeply regretted and often worried about. That of course was before you were dating or he was getting ready to do so.

”Where’s Y/N?” Chris asked calmly, tapping his foot against the floor of the cafeteria. They all seemed hesitant, contemplating whether they should tell him or not. Chris’ previous calmness was quickly fading away, replaced by annoyance. ”Look, you can dislike me all you want, but if you know where Y/N is I’d like to know.”

Vilde was the one to crack up and tell him that you had left to get your books for the next class, earning a glare from the others. Chris mumbled out a quick ’thank you’, before sprinting off towards your locker. And you were there, standing in front of it. He walked up

”We need to talk, preferably now.” he said, looking at you.

”Later, excuse me I have to go to class now.” you told him, not bothering to look at him as you tried to leave, only for him to grab your wrist, softly enough to not hurt you.

”Classes don’t start for another 15 minutes, you’re not in a hurry yet and I think it’s crucial that we talk right now,” Chris told you, briefly pausing before continuing. ”Even if I have a reputation of not caring about other peoples feelings, I’ve always taken yours into consideration and I think I at least deserve an explanation for your behavior.”

Your heart was pounding like crazy, you knew sooner or later Chris would confront you about it. You knew you could’ve handled the whole situation better, distancing yourself from him wasn’t smart either. It wasn’t that you didn’t like him anymore, because you did. A lot actually.

A small crowd was following the situation, already probably gossiping about it. Thankfully Chris noticed this, pulling you into a more quiet place where you could be alone. You stood there in silence, not sure of what to do. Chris ran his hand through his hair, a nervous habit he had had as long as you can remember.

”Do you still even like me?” Chris carefully asked, afraid of the answer. This was nerve-wracking for him, he didn’t want your relationship to end. In his mind it didn’t make sense to break up or even take a break, because everything had gone well before. You laughed together, you held hands in the hallways like every annoying new couple did and you respected each other.

”I still like you.” you managed to whisper out as you were on the verge of tears, doing your best to not. Every moment you spent in silence made you feel more and more guilty, regretting your actions. The last thing you wanted to ever do was hurt Chris in any way.

”Then please just tell me what happened, tell me why everything changed? I promise I’ll do my best to fix it.” Chris said, nervously chewing on the inside of his cheek.

Silence. You were struggling to find the right words to explain yourself. As you took a deep breath, you started explaining. ”Ultimately, I think I got jealous and insecure. I know this is dumb, but I heard that you had a thing with Eva and liked her and it just really made me feel insecure. I started overthinking, which ended up in me distancing myself from you. It was a way to protect myself from getting hurt, but in the process of this I hurt you. I’m sorry.”

Christoffer’s facial expression softened seemingly, he was relieved to say the least. ”I can understand that, I was actually worried about it earlier. You’re the only one I have ever liked, I don’t want you to worry about things concerning the matter.”

“I hate how you always know what to say to make me feel better.” you said with a small laugh, wiping some tears away. 

“I can’t help it, I’m pretty much a genius.” 

You smiled a little, pulling him in a much needed hug. It felt nice and cozy, like home. Chris pressed a kiss to your front, making you slightly blush. One of the many qualities of yours he loved was that he still managed to make you blush with the simplest things.

It was no mystery that you both sucked in this whole dating thing, you were the two newbies who messed things up constantly but no matter what happened did your best to get through it. Things get hard from time to time, but as long as you were both happy together it was worth it.

My Top 50 Songs of 2015

(These are merely based on personal opinion not merit although merit did help in the choosing process. If you do not know any songs on here go have a listen!)

1. Blank Space by Taylor Swift
2. Budapest by George Ezra
3. Sorry by Justin Bieber
4- War Paint by Fletcher
5- Lean On by Major Lazer & DJ Snake featuring
6- We Don’t Have To Take Out Clothes Off by Ella Eyre
7- Woke The Fuck Up by Jon Bellion
8- White Iverson by Post Malone
9- Stressed Out by twenty one pilots
10- America’s Sweetheart by Elle King
11- Stone Cold by Demi Lovato
12- 80s Mercedes by Maren Morris
13- Here by Alessia Cara
14- Gold by Kiiara
15- Kamikaze by 
16. Blasé by Ty Dolla Sign featuring Future and Rae Sremmurd
17. Roses by The Chainsmokers featuring ROZES
18. Ego by Bibi Bourelly
19. Girl Crush by Little Big Town
20. Post To Be by Omarion featuring Chris Brown and Jhené Aiko
21. Hello by Adele
22. Hair by Little Mix
23. Planes by Jeremih
24. Boyfriend Jeans by Grace
25. Octahate by Ryn Weaver
26. Player by Tinashe featuring Chris Brown
27. Run Away With Me by Carly Rae Jepsen
28. Only by Nicki Minaj featuring Drake, Lil Wayne and Chris Brown
29. Hide Away by Daya
30. Electric Love by BØRNS
31. Stitches by Shawn Mendes
32. The Hills by The Weeknd
33. Wherever You Go by Sublime With Rome 
34. Body On Me by Rita Ora featuring Chris Brown
35. When Love Hurts by JoJo
36. My Type by Saint Model
37. Love Me Like You by Little Mix
38. Love Yourself by Justin Bieber
39. Move That Dope by Future featuring Pharrell, Pusha T and Casino
40. How I Want Ya by Hudson Thames featuring Hailee Steinfeld
41. Rise Up by Andra Day
42. Jet Black Heart by 5 Seconds Of Summer
43. Alone by Hollyn featuring Tru
44. 679 by Fetty Wap featuring Remy Boyz
45. I’m Good by The Mowgil’s
46. Skin Tight by Niykee Heaton
47. Shut Up and Dance by Walk The Moon
48. Cool For the Summer by Demi Lovato
49. Honey I’m Good by Andy Grammer 
50. I Really Like You by Carly Rae Jepsen