Oh baby, do I. All personal opinions about Hel will be in italics.
Hel is one of Loki’s many children, her brothers being Fenrir The Wolf, and Jörmungand, the serpent encircling Midgard.
Hel and her siblings were taken from their father and mother (Loki and Angrboða), separated, and exiled
Her rune is Hagalaz.
Some things you can do to start honoring her are; set up an altar with pictures of deceased loved ones, dried flowers, mementos of death, like skulls or black candles.
Leave fruit offerings until they totally rot and you can also bury the offerings.
She also likes baked goods involving, chocolate, hazelnut/walnut, and dried berries or apples. Ale is always a wonderful offering, she resonates with Moonflowers, red roses, lillies, and birch wood.
Dogs, she has a dog, her brother is a dog.Or a snake for her brother.
Some writings state that she is not interested in food but would prefer you take action in her honor by feeding the hungry, whether in a soup kitchen or volunteering at a food bank. Hel feeds her dead. With her apple orchards and feasts, she brings her charges comfort and keeps their bellies full.
Hel is also a wonderful deity for ancestor worship, spirit communication, astral traveling, seeking answers, divination, protection, judgement and guidance.
Moonstone, Obsidian, Onyx, Clear Quartz, Smoky Quartz, Petrified Wood, or Hematite are stones to represent her.
Owls have been mentioned in worshipping her because they are both birds associated with crossing the veil, moving between the realms of the living and the dead.
She’s a kind soul, if you’re concerned or curious about something go talk to her!
“Can you do
it for me?”, me and all of my friends were sitting at the cafeteria when I
basically threw my Spanish book in front of Montgomery.
homework and it’s fucking stupid”, I said taking a bite of my lunch.
that”, he sighed and took my pen.
been struggling with for last fifteen minutes for Monty what easy peasy and
took him like five.
welcome”, he smiled back.
Justin said. “What is going on between you two?”, he asked pointing at me and
smile for each other, mumbles under the breaths that only you two understand,
looks you to give each other… What is it about?”
took a deep breath. I was prepared for it for a very long time. “We’re fuck
buddies”, I said looking Justin straight in the eyes.
snorted, Monty started coughing, everyone else were looking at me and Justin.
Montgomery? About him I’d believe that. But you? School’s sweetheart? Yeah,
right”, Justin chuckled and nodded his head.
“If you don’t
want to get stupid answers, don’t ask stupid questions. There is nothing
between me and Monty other than those fucking chemistry projects”, I said and
looked down at my book to read whatever Montgomery wrote.
have an idea”, he said when we were leaving chemistry. “I’ve been thinking
about that for whole class.”
taking notes”, I interrupted. “What’s the idea?”
to get rid of suspicious Justin.”
I looked at
him waiting for him to continue.
“One of us
has to go on a date with someone”, he said clearly proud of himself. “It can be
me, I can do it.”
pretty sure I can go on a date too.”
pretty sure it takes a while before someone grow balls to ask you out”.
I stopped in place. “I can be nice or friendly or whatever… And I can go on a
date”, I said and walked past him.
of a date showed up sooner than I thought. Next day I was walking down the
hall, looking at my phone and, of course, I walked into someone. Causing our
books to fall on the ground.
sorry”, I said and looked up to see who I actually bumped into. “Hi, Marcus”, I
smiled at him and I reached down to grab my books.
he helped me picking up my things. “So, umm, how is it going?”
thanks”, I smiled when he handed me my books. “And how are you?”
he sighed. “Trying to keep up with this C average or above bullshit.”
nodded my head. “Speaking of that, I have Math, so I have to go. See you around”,
I waved at him and went towards class.
listen”, he ran up to me. “So, umm… Would you like to go to Monet’s or Rosie’s
sometime? Or Cresmont I don’t know?”
there a little shocked.
talking to Monty?”, I asked. Now Marcus was shocked and confused. “Look, sorry,
he just told me this week on chemistry I was undateable, whatever”, I shrugged
stupid”, he laughed a little.
I would like to go to Monet’s. Or Rosie’s. Or Cresmont.”
say Rosie’s tomorrow at 7?”
I went to the Math thinking about this whole situation. It was kinda weird but dates were unusual for me in general ans suddenly after months and months of nothing Marcus asked me out right after I tried to convince Monty (and me) that I can actually get asked for a date.
Whatever, I’m not marrying him, I’m going for a free shake, I thought to myself.
“So you’re going out with Marcus?”, next day I jumped when I heard Monty talking to me because he showed up from nowhere.
“Jeez, you scared me. He already told all the jocks?”, I asked looking for a book in my locker.
“No, his friend did. So you are going out with him?”
“What are you, jealous?”, I shut locker’s door.
“You wish. I mean… Marcus?”
“Well, he’s kinda dumb and thinks world spins around him, but…” I shrugged. “I don’t even have to listen to him if it turn out he’s dumber than I think.”
“Wow, you set your standards high”, he said with sarcasm in his voice.
“Look who’s talking”, I literally looked at him. “You think girls don’t
talk? Really Monty, freshman that just got in to cheerleaders team?
Could you even try any less?”
“Big boobs”, he said shortly.
“Wow, you set your standards high”, I mimic his voice.
“Whatever”, Monty rolled his eyes. “Where are you and Marcus going?”
“Oh, you want me to tell you so you can show up there with your Ms big boobs? No way”, I shook my head.
“You’re afraid I’m gonna have better time?”
“You’re ridiculous. Good talk, Monty”, I patted his chest and walked into class.
came to Rosie’s fashionable five minutes late. Marcus however was more
fashionable than me - he arrived twenty five minutes late.
“Wow, you’re a classy date”, I said crossing my arms when he sat in front of me.
“I’m so sorry something stopped me”, he said. “But I’m so glad you
didn’t just leave”, he gave me a little smile. “So chocolate-walnut
shake? It’s the best, I swear.”
“I’m allergic to nuts. Strawberry will be okay.”
Marcus ordered our shakes, I took a deep breath. Just be nice, I told
myself. Maybe he really got stopped by something important, you still
can have a nice talk. Maybe it could still be nice if bunch of the jocks
didn’t come in before we even got our drinks. Bryce, Troy, Zach and few
“Really, Dempsey?”, I mouthed at Zach. “Seriously? They came to keep an eye on your date?”, I asked Marcus.
“I swear I didn’t know they are coming. But I mean, it’s Rosie’s, everyone sits here all the time.”
“Yeah, you probably right, sorry”, I sighed.
with Marcus was off, felt pushed most of the times. Every few minutes
there was either awkward silence or me having logorrhea in order to
avoid that silence. He tried to do some little, subtle moves but I was
so done that I successfully ignored them.
After two long hours I decided it’s time to go home. I told Marcus I had
bus, he didn’t offer to walk me home and I was actually relieved,
because I really didn’t know what else I could talk about. He walked off
with his army od assholes I sat on the bus stop. Suddenly red Mustang
“Hi, Tony”, I smiled when he opened window.
“Why are you here at this time alone?”, he asked.
“Ugh.. You know…”, I shrugged.
“Date went bad?”
“Something like that”, I nodded.
“Come in, I’ll drive you home”, Tony leaned and open passenger’s door for me.
“It’s okay, I don’t wanna be a problem, I have bus in like… Twenty minutes.”
“In twenty minutes you’ll be home, come in”, he insisted.
“Okay”, I agreed and got inside.
“So Marcus wasn’t the perfect date?”, Tony asked while driving.
“How do you…”
“It’s Liberty, please”, he rolled his eyes.
“Right”, I nodded. “Good thing I wasn’t really into it in the first place, so whatever”.
“Why did you go then?”
I thought about seriously for a second and decided to be honest not only with Tony but also with myself.
“I guess… I wanted to piss someone off… Or something”, I shrugged.
That was the truth. I wanted to make Monty jealous. It was stupid and
naive because feelings were needed to cause jealousy and Montgomery had
no feelings towards me.
“Wouldn’t it be easier to just talk to that person instead of that?”
“Nooo”, I shook my head. “Not with… Not with him.”
“Communication is the key, you’ll remember my words”, Tony said and stopped his car in front of my house.
“Thank you”, I smiled. “For the drive and wisdom of the day even though I’m probably not gonna use it.”
“I’m aware of that”, he nodded.
“Bye, Tony”, I said and left his car.
He waited until I got inside and drove away.
I talked to my parents, went to my room to leave my bag and took pyjamas
and went to the bathroom. I came back from the shower and saw one new
message and missed call from Zach.
Zach:U got home safe?
Y/N: Wow, now you care
Zach: ??? I separated from guys, went to my car and drove to the bus stop but you weren’t there
Y/N: well, Tony Padilla was faster and drove me home
Y/N: and after today you’re definitely my fav out of all my friends.
and Zach were never super close as friends but until today if I thought
about it I’d say me and him were closer than him and Marcus.
Next day I met Monty at the
parking, we arrived at the same time.
“How was your date?”, he
“Very good. Marcus is
actually super nice and funny”, I lied. “How was yours?”
“Good, we were at
Cresmont”, he said looking down at the ground. “So are you going out with him
“Maybe… Probably yes”, I
will definitely go to hell for all those lies but seeing Monty’s jaw clenching
was definitely worth it.
We separated when we walked
inside. Montgomery went to talk to jocks, I went to my locker.
“Hi”, Marcus stood next to
me, it took a lot of inner strength to not roll my eyes at him. But Monty’s was
watching us, so I had to look as happy as I could.
“Hi”, I smiled.
“So, I know it’s probably
too fast, cause we’ve been out just yesterday but today there is a party after
“I don’t party on a week
days”, I interrupted.
“I know”, he touched my
arm. “But still I want to ask if maybe you’d like to go there… like with me.
I’ll drive you home and everything.”
Every cell of my body
wanted to tell “no”, but I quickly looked at Monty and saw his whole body
“I guess one party won’t
kill me”, I said with a fake smile.
“Great. It starts right
after game so I’ll just wait for you in my car after the game.”
“Okay, see ya”, I grabbed
my things and went for PE.
I was walking behind the
bleachers when I heard someone running towards me. I turned around and saw
“You really are going to
party with Marcus?”, he asked angrily.
“Well, you clearly
overheard everything, why are you asking?”
“This guy is an asshole!”
“So are you”, I crossed my
arms at my chest. “And why do you even care? Why do you care, Montgomery?!”, I
looked at him with my eyes wide open waiting for him to say something.
“ Because…”, he started
looking everywhere but not at me. “Because you deserved better than him!”
“Right”, I slowly nodded my
head looking down and bit my lower lip. “And I think that you’re afraid you’re
gonna lose your regular banging”, I said and moved a little toward him.
He was looking me straight
in the eyes, then grabbed my waist, pulled me closer and aggressively kissed my
lips. He dominated this kiss like if he wanted to show who’s in charge. I moved
away from him.
“I’m not you property”, I
said and walked to PE.
I quickly changed and
started warming up when Sheri stood next to me.
“I think you got something
to tell me about”, he said, clearly pissed.
“Oh, yeah, I was at Rosie’s
with Marcus, don’t ask”, I shook my head.
“I’m not talking about that”,
she quickly looked around to check if someone can hear us. “I saw you and Monty
behind the bleachers”, she said quietly.
I frozed for a moment. I
opened my mouth, but nothing came out, I just didn’t know what to say. Sheri
was my friend for so long and I was lying to her for months.
“PE is starting but then we’re
skipping Peer Communication and going for a talk”, she said and all I could do
was nodding my head.
“So?”, she asked when we
sat behind the bleachers. “He kissed you, I saw it”
“Yes, I’m not gonna deny it.
Okay, Sheri”, I took a deep breath. “You can’t tell anyone about that. Anyone.
I mean it.”
“Okay, okay. I swear. I won’t
even tell Jess.”
“Especially Jess! She would
run straight to Justin and then everyone would know…”
“Okay, just start talking”,
Sheri rushed me.
“Okay… I’ll just go
straight to the point”, once again I took a deep breath. “Me and Monty have
this kinda friends with benefits thing”, I said quickly.
She looked at me for a
“You… Monty… what?”
“Please, don’t make me say
that out loud again”, I rolled my eyes.
“I won’t… I’m just…
Processing…”, she mumbled. “How did it started?”
“Kind of at that pool party
at Bryce’s, kind of at Jessica’s party… I mean, he started at hot tub, I teased
him, then he teased me, then we hooked up and then we hooked up again and just”,
“I shocked. I mean I’d
never thought you’d ever be into hooking up. Especially with Monty”, she looked
at me with eyes wide open. “I thought you almost hate him.”
“I don’t hate him. I just
didn’t want people to connect me with him.”
“Past tense?”, she asked
with a smirk.
“Not the point, Sheri”, I
We spent whole period
hidden behind bleachers, I told her everything, maybe beside the fact that I
probably started having some feelings towards him, but I wasn’t ready to admit
that to myself not to mention admitting to someone else.
I spend the rest of the day
avoiding Montgomery, Marcus and Zach who suddenly felt like he needed to talk
to me, but he caught me warming up before opening basketball game.
“Y/N, listen”, he started.
“You have a game in ten
minutes, warm up”, I said.
“You are his friend, you
went to check how thing were going, fine”, I shrugged.
“You’re my friend too.”
“Then you’re closer with
him than with me, it’s fine”, I said and did double handspring to got away from
him and also because I knew Montgomery was watching and he was a sucker for
and Marcus got to the party, he brought me a beer, paid a lot of
attention to me, at least for first 45 minutes. After that time he was
mostly focused on putting his hand somewhere on me - my shoulder, my
back, my knee even though everytime I was gently moving his hand away.
I spotted Montgomery with his hands and jaw clenched while Zach was
whispering something to him and then stopped him from going somewhere.
As party for going Marcus and I were sitting on the couch and he was becoming more and more annoying.
“Marcus, can you stop?”, I asked when I smacked his hand of my knee again.
“Come on, why don’t we have some fun?”, he said, his hand went on my thigh and his head got closer to my neck.
“Marcus, stop”, I said through my clenched teeth, I didn’t really want to make a scene.
Suddenly Montgomery showed up in front of us. He pushed Marcus, took my hand and pulled me up from the couch.
“What the hell, man?”
“Sorry Marcus, you’re not winning your bet”, he said and left the room making me go with him as he was still holding my hand.
“Bet? What bet?”, I asked.
“He had a bet that he’ll have sex with you”, Monty said with rage in his
voice. “I should’ve come back there and beat the shit out of him.”
“No, you shouldn’t. Did you know about that? The bet?”
“Jeez, of course I didn’t. I got to know at the party. Get in the car”, he opened door for me.
“Don’t talk to me like that”, I said.
“Please, just get in the fucking car”, he said looking me angrily into eyes.
I got inside and slammed the door.
“I’m grateful you took me away from him but don’t you ever dare to talk
to me like this”, I repeated when he got into the car and start
“He was having his hands all over you and your biggest problem is the way I talk to you right now?!”
“You don’t own me, Montgomery”, I said looking him in the face but he
was looking straight on the road, avoiding meeting my eyes. “Where are
we going?”, I sighed. No response. “Monty, you’re scaring me”, I said
quietly. Still no response. “Fine”, I chuckled and crossed my arms on my
Few minutes later he stopped car in the area of old warehouses.
“What are we doing here?”, I asked.
“Marcus was the one who was trying to fuck you and I feel like you’re mad at me.”
“I am mad at you for treating me like I’m yours. I’m not”, I said not looking at him.
He put his fingers on my chin and turned my face towards him.
“I know you’re not. But I won’t let anyone treat you like a mattress”, he said with his face close to me.
“Right, I’m too busy being your mattress”, I said looking at his lips.
His lips crashed mine. Our tongues were fighting. I was so mad at him,
but he affected me in way I didn’t know before and I just didn’t want
him to stop. His hand started rubbing me through my jeans, a little moan
escaped my mouth.
“I’m still mad at you”, I mumbled under my breath when his lip moved down my neck leaving wet kisses.
“Backseat”, he ordered.
I crawled to the back, took of my shirt before Monty got on top of me. I
tangled me fingers into his hair when he kissed crook of my neck and
unzipped my jeans.
“Fucking skinny jeans”, he mumbled when moved away from me trying to slide them down my legs.
I reached his belt and started undoing it when without a word of warning he slided two fingers into me.
“Oh fuck”, I moaned.
„You may be
mad but you’re wetter than ever”, he said pumping in and out.
whispered palming him through his boxers, “I want you to fuck me.”
wish”, he said and leaned to give me a deep kiss.
later I felt him thrusting in and out fast and hard. Montgomery pinned my hips
down before I even lift them.
growled in the crook of my neck.
found mine and our fingers tangled together,
so good”, he groaned thrusting in me faster and faster.
Monty…”, I digged my nails in his shoulder.
baby, come on”, his hand went down and he started rubbing my clit with his
don’t stop…”, I moaned under my heavy breath and then I lost it.
full of our breathless moans, Monty rode out our high and rest his forehead on
mine, I played with his hair for a moment.
go home”, I said quietly.
drive or should I give you a ride home?”, he asked giving me my long lost
drive, that one beer I drunk got sweated out well”, I patted his shoulder. “My
car is at school so if you could… Shit”, I sighed as I was crawling back to the
“My bag is
going to Bryce and the to the school”, he said and give me kiss on a temple.
What the actual fuck, I thought.
even be mad at him for playing with my feelings because he didn’t know they
were any. I was mad at myself and I hated the way this kiss felt. And I hated
the way my heart skipped a bit when he rubbed my knee during drive.
it was clear to me that I was falling for him, even though it was the most
stupid thing any girl could do – fall for Montgomery de la Cruz and if there
was anything I knew I could do about this it was one thing – stop whatever was
going on between us.