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All Along the Watchtower - 12x23 (and 12x22) and Circular Narrative Structure

An entity with yellow eyes enters a nursery:

1x01(Azaezel Prince of Hell over Sam’s crib)

and 12x23 (Jack the Nephilim, son of Lucifer and Kelly)

A woman dies in a nursery:

1x01 (Mary Winchester burns on the ceiling)

and 12x23 (Kelly Kline dies in a blaze of light giving birth to Jack)

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“Soft beds” is an acquired taste

My bed doesn’t have a mattress. It’s got cardboards and a blanket on top of wooden boards. I use to sleep on hard bunk in China, and I grew up sleeping on hard beds my entire life. 

When I sleep on a soft bed at hotels, I wake up sore all over, because my body is used to sleeping on a hard bed. 

So when fics describe some poor abused chlld or war-weary vegabond sleeping on soft bed for the first time and sleeping like a baby… THAT’S FAKE MAN, SO FAKE. 

Okay same with pizza. I can personally attest that pizza is an acquired taste. I have read a fic where characters tried pizza for the first time and thought it was the most amazing heavenly food and the narrative just instantly lost all credibility to me. Clearly the fic was written by someone who grew up eating pizza and cannot imagine it being an acquired taste. 

The first three times I tried pizza at the age of 9, I thought it was disgusting. My other Chinese-Canadian friends (who grew to like pizza) had the same experience. Because our Chinese-food palates weren’t prepared for the intensity of flavour or the heavy amount of cheese. 

Basically, what I’m saying is, yes, we live in a first world country, and a lot of common things we enjoy would be considered luxuries. That doesn’t mean they’re superior, or even desirable, to people that lived without them. 

Saturday night....

Hung out at Dante Culpepper’s old house today in Bear path…it was great :) i got to see my gals and play with some little girls…btw i miss playing imaginary…Things were so much easier when you could just imagine that things felt better…when we were younger..or at least when i was younger…your heart was incapable of being broken….and your family life didn’t touch you the way it does now..innocence guarded everything…it makes me not want to be 20 years old… i want to be the kid that would use side walk chalk to draw parking spots for mine and my little guys friends’ bikes. I want to run through the sprinklers without giving a damn who is watching or what i look like. I want to close my eyes and swing on a swing higher than i ever have before…i started feeling these things when i was in love…but then when my heart broke…it is like it sucked all of the innocence back out of me. I don’t need a man to make me happy…but the love i had made me feel secure. Safe…kind of like i did when i was a kid. Like no matter what happened i could still count on playing imaginary James Bond at the end of the day and going to sleep happy. This ONE love made me feel young at heart again…but now that i have lost it i have realized that what if i had gotten what i wanted? What if i was still with him? I have been playing a lot of solitaire lately and it has taught me something…nothing is worth having if it is easy to get. Why would people want to play solitaire if they could win easily? No…it is the challenges and the time that makes the reward worth the while. So as much as i think i deserve that happiness i felt now…maybe i need to work harder for it…maybe what i think i deserve is just an easy route….

Always Honest, 

Paige

pig-along  asked:

did i read correctly that you are trans? if so, or if your followers want to weigh in: do you wish your early childhood had been different and if so how? to assume that a child is cis cos they cant express anything else or even speak seems quite shitty and its what we always do. as a childcare worker i have many things to say on enforcing kids gender roles (it always sucks). like idk what pronouns to use about my future babies. i dont want to erase anyones identity.

I’m in the camp that says assign your babies a gender at birth but treat the gender assignment as a tentative assignment that is subject to change if your child decides to. Teach your kid(s) about trans people early on. Teach them gender expression and hobbies and other things do not equal gender that they can express themselves how they want and play with the toys they want and have the jobs/hobbies they want. Listen to them if they tell you they are trans/are a different gender than they were assigned. Learn about trans people and their experiences as children and some common signs your child may be trans, but understand that not all trans people have that experience and that if your child later asserts they are a different gender than they were assigned, do not disbelieve them if they don’t fit this model. Also do not discount the possibility that no matter how much you educate your child and support them, they may not come out as trans until much later in life for lots of different reasons (someone can reveal themselves to be trans at any time).

If they do tell you they are a different gender than assigned when they are a minor, get a gender therapist who is PRO-TRANS better yet trans themselves, and help your child work through this because the society they live in will likely make things difficult for them, ESPECIALLY if they are amab and trans. Although understand that being trans is not a bad thing that causes unhappiness, it’s society that can make being trans difficult. Also a therapist will know things you don’t and be able to help your child in ways you may not be able to (and will be able to give your child access to hormones/medication/surgery if they need it later). Whether or not your child comes out as trans, allow them to express their gender how they see fit. If they want to live as a different gender than the one they were assigned, support them in that. fight people who fight that, give your child support at their school which may be against this. Be vigilant when/if school faculty are complacent about bullying your child faces. Complain about transphobic/misogynist faculty. Educate yourself about transphobia and transmisogyny and trans identities. If your child was assigned male and identifies as a girl, for example, that’s who they are: a girl. Allow them to live as a girl. There is medication that can postpone puberty, a gender therapist will know about this and will know the appropriate age to use the medication. This medication is very important to many trans people who may become dysphoric if puberty sets in (it depends on the person). You should educate yourself more and more about trans people already, but it’s important to stay updated on trans issues, current events, laws, your child’s rights, and the proper language/terminology as these often change, and to give your child access to this information, especially if they have come out as trans. be supportive if they want hormone treatment/surgery once they hit their teenage years. I would also connect your child to trans community/organization/websites/other trans youth and people.

Expose your child to positive media and information about trans people from an early age. Talk to them about gender and sexual orientation from an early age. Tell them about nonbinary genders and about pronouns. When they are too young to choose a pronoun, use ones that correspond to their gender assignment. When they get older and you educate them about pronouns, use the pronouns they choose and, with the child’s permission, correct others to use the right pronouns.

Encourage and give positive affirmation to children under your care in your profession who express themselves in ways that are gender-nonconforming, because they will learn as they get older (or may have been told) what they’re doing is bad and wrong. If other children make fun of gender nonconforming children it’s important to educate those children and if necessary discipline them (if they continue to bully the child/ridicule the child). It’s important to show children that bullying and gender coercion are not acceptable and are hurtful. If possible, you might want to have activities around gender: tell kids about pronouns and ask what pronouns they prefer and encourage other children to use the right ones. Or do an exercise/game where you ask kids what clothes/jobs/hobbies/activities/etc are “girl” ones and which ones are “boy” ones and challenge those ideas or encourage children to and teach them there isn’t such a thing as “girl things” or “boy things” (giving examples of people you know and celebrities and famous characters who break these norms). Stuff like that. I wouldn’t push kids out of their comfort zone, like don’t force a child who was assigned male to wear a dress or do something they think girls do, if they don’t want to, for example, because this can be traumatic or negative for some people—and coercing gender expression in anyway is wrong (plus for all you know the child could be trans and for this reason be nervous or not ready to tell others or to realize it yet), but try to open up possibilities for kids regarding gender expression and free them up if they WANT to try these things.

It’s also important to, if you can, call out parents and teachers and other childcare professionals and adults if you see them punish, discourage, reprimand, mock or insult their children for being gender nonconforming (or talk about doing so, or speak to other adults about this or these attitudes). So many of these actions solidify sexism, cissexism, and transphobia. Their child may be trans and this is damaging. Their child may be cis, and it will help solidify negative ideas in the child’s mind about trans people. The child may be a boy and it will also solidify negative ideas about women/girls and feminine things, i.e. things associated with women and girls. Or if girls are present it will solidify the idea girl things are lesser. (Or if it’s done to a girl, that boy things are out of bounds or make them “unladylike”). It’s also important to call out anyone period for saying anything transphobic about anyone, but hopefully that goes without saying.

Those are the ideas that come to mind for me, if others want to make suggestions or think I got anything wrong, let me know