-giant kid with a bunch of tiny kids
-shizuo isn’t allowed to smoke around them so good 4 his health too
-shizuo trying to explain to these little 7 year olds what taxes are and how to do them only to end up with a screaming/crying child and its him
-shizuo with tiny bows in his hair
-shizuo having lipstick hearts and too much eye shadow on his face bc the kids wanted to do his make up
-shizuo making the children healthy but yummy snacks
-shizuo pretending he adopted one of them and he is just babysitting their classmates to scare the shit out of Izaya
-shizuo laughing and explaining its a side job
-shizuo referring to these kids as his tiny army
-shizuo setting his tiny army’s wrath upon a sleeping izaya
-izaya having bows and make up like shizuo when he wakes up
-all of these tiny children calling him their big brother
-shizuo having glitter in his hair and clothes from doing arts and crafts
-just babysitter Shizuo
Is it the HERO and TWO PLAYER series? If it is then I love it lol even though I got a bit confused at the child Shizuo and Izaya ahahaha.
I really like it because even though it’s not exactly how I see Shizuo and Izaya, it has like meaning? It’s not like just one event and then sex or them already together in a relationship. It’s them in an ambiguous sexual relationship and it’s been so long since I touched it but I really like how Izaya wasn’t girly and was actually pretty masculine just - as I said Shizuo is too manly xD And yes the character design of Izaya is…manlier than I expected (but yes, muscles from parkour!) but better than blushing uke xD
Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy doujin with blushing uke Izaya (who doesn’t? he’s cute) but I do want to see IC Izaya being his sly and manipulative self too you know? I really liked how the series focused more on their characters and the ending was perfect, how it reflected their first meeting.
And how Izaya came to accept his attraction and love for Shizuo - it was kinda psychological? It wasn’t sudden, it was tied to his character of controlling and manipulating others and then he gradually realized how he was fine with being tied to Shizuo and how he’s the one who ‘lost’. So yeah, it was gradual and served as character development, to how Izaya doesn’t want to see Shizuo because he’s realized he loves him, “If asked now whether I would live my life alone or with another person, I don’t know which I would choose”. Or something like that but I felt this line really captured it - because Izaya is all about independence and freedom but his feelings for Shizuo affect him so greatly he wouldn’t mind sacrificing his solitude to be together with him.
And he’s scared of that, which is why he has that expression near the end where Shizuo thinks, “So this is the real Izaya.” Because he’s seeing Izaya with all his feelings and fragile heart exposed and is seeing Izaya as a human (and with Shizuo’s recent interview, we now know he never, refused to consider Izaya as a human) And my theory is that he doesn’t want to admit he could love Izaya (a human whom he would have hurt). So reflecting on that him seeing Izaya at that moment as a human would mean he accepts Izaya is human and could have loved him all along. I mean Shizuo’s expression when he broke Izaya’s knife and kissed him? It was just so emotional I don’t know how to describe it in words lol and I’m just speaking from memory but it was like a mix of desperation and longing and love at finally seeing Izaya.
And of course the ending yes go Shizuo show Izaya who’s boss! Lol seriously though it was a nice touch for Shizuo to bring up their first meeting because well, Izaya pissed him off then and he’s pissing Izaya off now. And because to him Izaya was taunting him and being amused at his reaction (leaving a scar on his physical body too) but this time years later Shizuo turns the tables on Izaya. Like for Izaya, his, “See? Isn’t this fun?” - is towards a relationship of hatred which Izaya prefers because of the pain of Shizuo’s rejection. But Shizuo’s “See? Isn’t this fun?” in counter to Izaya’s years later - is towards a relationship of love which Shizuo prefers because he’s finally seeing Izaya - and which Izaya doesn’t, because it binds him to Shizuo in a way that makes him need Shizuo and god forbid Orihara Izaya ever need anyone.
Anyway as you can see I’m just rambling now lol but yes, I loved it! Besides that series though, I really liked Cuteness is Violence, it’s super cute (or was it Violence is Cuteness?). Izaya was Izaya the bastard Izaya and manly and not pretty when crying (which is honestly more realistic) and of course I”m all for Shizuo turning the tables on Izaya lol. And his observation of how Izaya doesn’t play with others, I liked that psychological bit. I also liked one which was like a sequel of TWO PLAYER? (I think) I think it was called UFO LINE or something? But I don’t really know if there’s a continuation because it ended on a cliffhanger
So yeah DUDE doujinshi is one of my favorites (the other is by Sinba I think? Stopline and Guardline or something, I liked it because Izaya there was like Makio from Kuchizuke wa uso no aji, uke but still himself after sex) because Shizuo and Izaya are Shizuo and Izaya there, maybe a different interpretation of their character but you can see they’re Shizuo and Izaya, the ‘bastard and the beast’ (not beauty and the beast lol) and to see them and their complex relationship in doujinshi form with them being themselves is pretty amazing.
because can you imagine shizuo as a single father. premise is that the mother passed away or left them and this is au because canon shizuo would never trust izaya with his kid
shizuo’s running late one day and it’s been almost two hours since he was supposed to pick up his kid. so he sprints to the daycare center, is totally freaked out because what if his kid is sad and thinks his papa abandoned him or if someone else kidnapped him? but he gets there and sees someone sitting by him and keeping him happy, even having draped his fur trim coat around him. “jesus–thanks for looking after him.” “ahh, that’s no problem. many single parents are juggling too many things,” the stranger says and gives a coy smirk. “my name is orihara izaya. ”…heiwajima shizuo. nice to meet you.“
shizuo continuing to run into izaya, especially at the daycare. he soon realizes it’s because izaya works nearby and his kid keeps hugging his leg because he’s so attached and izaya spends some of his free time keeping his company because shizuo’s kid is so shy that he has a hard time making friends and spends most recesses alone
izaya basically living with shizuo and his kid to help them out. because shizuo works a minimum wage job and can’t be late because he could so easily be fired and izaya has a comfortable salary job, is at no risk of losing it. and also because izaya can cook better than shizuo can
izaya not liking kids but shizuo’s kid is this brilliant ray of sunshine and even izaya likes him
shizuo coming home occasionally and seeing izaya napping on the couch, his kid curled up against him and blanket draped over them both
shizuo falling in love with izaya slowly but resisting it because he doesn’t feel like he has time for a relationship. and he tells izaya this when izaya mentions the idea of a relationship and izaya’s very good at brushing it off like it doesn’t hurt
izaya staying away because shizuo isn’t as good as keeping the hurt from his expression and shizuo’s kid looking sad and asking where izaya-san is and that they never finished reading a book together
the kid one day getting so sad and not liking his new babysitter so he runs away and somehow finds his way to izaya’s apartment and izaya is so surprised to see him but he can’t turn him away so invites him in and tells his clients that the meeting is pushed back
"but orihara-san–” “these are not matters to be discussed in front of a child.”
izaya texting shizuo to tell him that his kid is safe and shizuo is so alarmed that the babysitter lost his child that he fires them and goes over to izaya’s
izaya seeing, once again, that shizuo’s kid is his priority and the most important person in his life the way he hugs him and looks so immensely relieved that he’s okay
izaya tugging on shizuo’s shirt before he leaves and kisses him very quickly and very briefly and murmurs ‘you’re a good father, shizu-chan’ before letting him leave
shizuo trusting celty to look after his kid a few days later and he shows up at izaya’s with a planner and he’s blushing and he shoves it in izaya’s face
“write down when you’re free and then i’m going to see if that overlaps with when i’m free and when celty can watch [kid’s name] and then we’re going to go on fucking dates”