[inside Blaine’s brain] did he just say? I can’t believe. The world is closing in. The sky is falling. My love has moved on without me. My love? But I’m still with Dave, I can’t possibly. Crap, I can. I do. I love him. I never stopped and I never will. He’s everything I’ve dreamt about since he came back home. Everything I’ve always dreamt about. But he caused me pain. He broke my heart without warning, without a chance for me to change his mind. I dropped out of school and he said nothing. I moved back to Ohio and he didn’t care. He was gone. It hasn’t stopped raining since that day. But he came back for me, right? Did I misinterpret that? I couldn’t let him back into my life so easily and crush Dave. I grew up, I matured, I got over Kurt, I thought. I went through therapy! I stopped playing music without his voice to sing the lyrics. I clawed my way out of a dark hole tooth and nail all by myself and I was proud of myself. I came back to Dalton, became a teacher, found music again, felt happy. Dave helped me out of my depression, but he was still Kurt’s high school tormentor. The pain in his eyes when I broke the news. I thought I would feel triumphant but he killed me to see him on the verge of breaking down, and it took everything in me not to run back into his arms. I should have taken him back instantly, the moment he changed his mind again. I should have broken it off with Dave in the bar right then and there. Because now Kurt moved on. He forgot. He has a boyfriend now, who I hate, whoever he is. He forgot about us. He forgot about Baby It’s Cold outside. He doesn’t love me anymore. I missed my chance. I love him and, I thought that kiss… Good God that kiss… I should have forgotten about the competition and punish him with my lips right then and there. We should have talked about what happened, but I was waiting for him to apologize but then there was the creature in the elevator… I screwed up again. I had a chance. This is the nail in the coffin… What am I going to [end of the longest second of his life] “I’m kidding!” oh. That’s good. Good thing I didn’t freak out.