you came into my life and I told you something no one else knew. that I was going to end my life the week you started talking to me. you saved my life. I handed you my heart and it feels like you ripped it out of my chest and threw it on the ground. it feels like you punched me in the stomach as hard as you could. i have not ate in days. you saved me but now you’re just killing me all over again. when you found me I wish you would’ve kept going. because now I’m not alive. I’m just simply breathing. you knew I was broken when you picked me up so why did you take time to fix me and then throw me back on the ground and break me again. a toy that’s all I am. all I was and all I ever will be.
—  all I was to you.