chasingshhadows

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It doesn’t happen the way Derek expects it to.

Not that he spends a lot of time daydreaming about what his and Stiles’ first kiss is going to be like, because he doesn’t. He probably would if it hadn’t been for how he keeps denying himself that train of thought like a plague.

He knows how Stiles feels; has known for a while now. The way his heart skips a beat even at the simplest touch, the way his eyes linger whenever they spot each other from across the room. It’s not just attraction, because if it was Derek would’ve been scared. Well, more scared than he already is, because the fact that Stiles’ heart pounds with something as warm and soft as affection for him is downright terrifying.

And he knows how he feels. He feels vulnerable.

But the few times when he does think about it – those lonely nights when he’s on the brink of sleep and can’t keep himself from going down that road no matter how hard he tries not to – he pictures it being desperate. On the edge of a battlefield, after they’ve survived another fight, when he’s too exhausted and relieved to keep his guard up. He pictures himself hauling Stiles in by the collar of his shredded shirt and slamming their lips together. Because they can, because they’re alive, and because it’s what they want.

Derek expects their first kiss to taste of blood, because that’s who they are.

That’s not how it happens.

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It’s a little over a year later when the Sheriff finds out. He’s just pulled into the driveway and is stepping out of his cruiser when the front door swings open, revealing Stiles and Derek, laughing and entirely engrossed in one another. The laughter quiets and the looks soften, and a kiss goodbye is shared. A kiss that’s the likes of which the Sheriff remembers sharing with his wife, once upon a time. It makes his heart ache a little, but it’s more of the good ache than the bad.

Derek turns, and that’s when he’s noticed, leaning against his car with a lifted brow.

“Oh, fuck,” Stiles blurts out, and then claps a hand over his mouth awkwardly. The Sheriff can’t help but snort at that.

“Sir, I -” Derek starts, and he cuts him off abruptly with a lifted hand.

“Son, if you think I haven’t known about this for…oh, the past few months, you must think I’m a complete idiot,” he says evenly.

“Wait, you've known?” Stiles cuts back in, and his dad rolls his eyes.

“Go inside, Stiles,” he returns pointedly. Stiles hesitates, and he levels him with a looks. “Now.” He grits his teeth; does what he’s told, but he peeks out the front window worriedly.

Derek looks tense and wary, and the Sheriff smiles slightly. “At ease,” he tells him, and his light tone makes Derek relax, if only a little, and he takes a step forward as the Sheriff shuts the car door and meets him the rest of the way.

“You two have never been subtle,” he starts out. “Never. Not even when you both were oblivious, and not even when you were trying to be.” He hooks his thumbs in his belt loops as a crease forms between Derek’s brows.

“Just over a year ago, I asked for your help because I knew my son would be on the verge of giving up and destroying himself. I knew you’d be able to relate to it. And yes, it was selfish, asking you relive all of your horrors to save my son when you weren’t even quite past them yourself. But you did it anyway. You kept a promise to me." 

Derek swallows thickly and remains silent, waiting for him to finish, and he steps forward, placing a firm and reassuring hand on Derek’s shoulder. He instantly feels more tension drain away from him. His eyes are sharp and serious as they bore into Derek’s.

"You saved my son. You pieced him back together and got him closer to being whole again than I ever could have done on my own, and I knew - I knew that it would go down one inevitable road or another. I’m not naive to these sorts of things, Derek. And quite frankly, I’m offended you two thought I was.” His smile is crooked and fond, and Derek smiles slightly himself, huffing and looking down sheepishly.

“I was hoping you two would tell me on your own, but I guess this is as good as it gets. Either way, Derek, I need you to hear this and know this - you’ve earned my trust and respect. You earned that a while ago, honestly. Stiles is all I have left, and I trust you with him. I know how much you care about him. You’ve got to know how much that means to me.”

Derek exhales shakily, looking back up to meet his eyes and nod. “I know.”

“Good,” the Sheriff nods back, the corners of his eyes crinkling a little. “Now. I suppose I don’t need to go in on the whole ‘if you hurt him, I’ll kill you, yadda yadda yadda’, do I.”

Derek snorts and smiles wider, and shakes his head. “Not really, considering if I ever did, I’d hand myself right over, anyway.”

“Good answer,” he grins, squeezing Derek’s shoulder and releasing him. 

“No more sneaking around behind my back,” he continues, pointing at Derek with lifted brows as he walks up to his front door. “I know he’s eighteen now, but this is still my house, kid. Let’s keep that respect a mutual thing, got it?”

“Got it,” Derek nods, relief making his knees a little shaky. His fear of being judged unfairly has never really gone away, no matter how kind Stiles’ dad has been for a long time now.

“Come over for dinner tomorrow night,” the Sheriff adds as he opens the door. “Seven 'o clock sharp. You like Italian?”

Derek smiles. “I love it.”

Welcome to the master list of links to my In the Flesh meta. I’ll try to keep it updated but if I’ve missed something or a link doesn’t work, feel free to let me know. Additionally, if there’s something you would like to see discussed, my askbox and submit are always open.

Please note that everything here is my opinion and thoughts only. It’s 100% okay to disagree. I encourage you to have your own thoughts and open discussion about any and all of these topics.

Meta I’ve Written

Is In the Flesh a show I should invest in?” (Spoiler: the answer is yes)

Kieren Walker

On Kieren” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 1)

Why did Kieren decide to stop wearing cover-up/contacts?

Kieren talking about wanting to have been cremated” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 7)

On Kieren asking Simon where he went

How would Kieren react to knowing Amy was his feral hunting partner?

Why did the scene where Kieren attacks Gary get cut?

On Kieren taking Blue Oblivion

On Kieren’s sexuality

Simon Monroe

On Simon’s character

On Simon at the Walker lunch(Related Tags)(Related Ask)(Related Ask/Meta)
On Simon at the Walker Lunch (part 2)

On Simon having/not having feeling in his fingertips

On Simon going home after rising as a rabid + The Feral Undead

On Simon leading Amy on

How will Simon acquire neurotriptyline now that his ties to the ULA are severed?“ (submission by allthoselostsocks + response)(Related Ask)

Simon and childhood depression

Will Simon be worried about relapse into depression/destructive behaviors as he rehumanizes/becomes a “normal” human?

What happens if the Living take blue oblivion? Re: Simon’s depression returning“ (Related Ask)(Related Meta/Response)

Will Simon stay at Amy’s post series 2?“ (Related Ask)(Related Meta - re: Julian waiting at the bungalow for Simon in script)

Response to Simon’s manipulation techniques with Amy/Kieren

Will Simon’s father return in series 3?“ (Related Ask)

Siren/Simren

What I like about Kieren and Simon together“ (spoiler: it’s everything)

What are the flaws in Kieren and Simon’s relationship?
What are the flaws in Kieren and Simon’s relationship? (part 2)

Is Simon in love with Kieren (and vice versa) at the end of S2?

On Simon wearing cover up for Kieren“ (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 2)

Is Simon putting pressure on Kieren to save him?“ (earlier related ask)(later related reply)

Will Simon tell Kieren what his mission was?
Will Simon tell Kieren what his mission was (part 2)

Do Kieren’s parents know Simon is part of the ULA?

On Kieren requesting help from Simon to leave Roarton

On where Kieren and Simon’s relationship is headed
Where do you WANT to see Kieren and Simon’s relationship go?

Will Kieren ever leave Simon [how will their relationship change])
Will Kieren leave Simon to handle the ULA backlash alone?

How old is Simon and how does it impact his relationship with Kieren?” - (with added commentary from greenbergsays)(also the answer is Simon is 27 according to a graphic BBC3 released via Twitter)(related ask - redeemed-from-the-earth

How the Kieren/Simon relationship affects Kieren” (Related Ask)

Will Kieren move in with Simon + Consequences of Simon’s betrayal

How will Simon feel about Kieren not being The First Risen?

What happened the night Kieren kissed Simon the first time?

On the way Simon positions himself to protect Kieren at the GP surgery

Was Simon manipulating Kieren?

Why didn’t Simon intervene when he saw Gary kidnapping Kieren?

Did Simon change his mind about killing Kieren because Gary stopped him?

Kieren/Simon - who is the top and who is the bottom?” (spoiler: the answer is yes)

Kieren/Simon - who is more affected by jealousy?” (spoiler: they aren’t)

What Simon does with the bullet

Amy Dyer

Was Amy the First Risen?” (Related Ask)(Related Ask - Re: Simon’s perception)

On the music at Amy’s funeral” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 6)

On Amy and Neurotriptyline” (Related Reply - Re: Amy as First Risen)

Why does Amy have bruising/injuries on her belly?

What would Kieren have told Amy about him and Simon?

Amy and Philip

On Amy and Philip’s storylines in S2

Oh Philip admitting he likes Amy” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 5)

The Walkers

On Jem” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 3)

On Jem and Kieren
On Jem and Kieren (part 2)
On Jem and Kieren (part 3)” (ITF Appreciation Week Entry Day 4)

On the Walker family in series 2
On the Walker family in series 2 (part 2)

Why did Sue and Steve name their children Jemima and Kieren?

On the awkward pause after Simon asked how Sue and Steve met” (Related Ask)

Rick | Rick/Kieren

Why I do not like/am uncomfortable about Rick” (Response by fiveyearmission)

On Kieren and Rick never kissing”(Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask [+Siren])(Related Ask)
On Kieren and Rick never kissing (part 2: Kieren’s first kiss is Simon?)” (Related Ask/Meta - re: Simon’s first serious relationship)(Related Ask)

On Rick returning | On Siren

Kieren in the truck with Rick” (reblog response)

Who wrote ‘Ren + Rick 4ever’ on the cave wall?

If Rick had lived, would Gary be different?

Minor Characters

On Maxine Martin
On Maxine Martin (part 2)” (Addition by bluspero (missing account))

On Dr. Russo

Let’s talk about Gary Kendal

Let’s talk about Shirley Wilson

Let’s talk about Charlotte

Why did Maxine say 'You are the first and the last’ to Amy?” (reblogged response +did Maxine know Amy was Living again)

—General—

If the undead are in danger of becoming rabid and thus actually dangerous, does it negate the message of treating the minority groups the PDS suffers represent well?” (Addition by greenbergsays)

Diversity/minorities on In the Flesh

On names

Shirley’s gloves

Where are the local police? Why are the HVF/RPS policing the town?

Cross-Fandom Meta

Cross-show discussion and why to have it

We Aren’t Replacing Sterek; We’re Leaving a Shitty Show for a Better One: the novel

Undead Boner Discussion (and other undead biology)

Can undead with penises have erections?” - the beginning
Response by kittyisnotahappybunny (Related [to response] Ask)(Related Ask)

Biology of the Undead + The Rising Results

Were there males at the undead brothel?

On Amy and Philip having sex

Are the undead unfeeling?
Are the undead unfeeling (part 2)”(Related Ask re: sedation of rabids)(Related Ask - re: taste/smell)

On the biology of the feral undead re:Simon going home/Kieren recognizing Jem

Do the undead need to breathe?

Can the undead cry?

Why does undead eye appearance vary?

On the ages of characters and undead aging

If the undead become living, will they retain their injuries/cause of death?” (Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask - re: Simon’s back wound)(Related Ask - re: Mental States)

Will PDS children develop mentally or remain the same age?” (Related Reply)

On Kieren’s walk” (Related Ask - re: Rigor Mortis)(Related Interview with Luke Newberry)

(Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask)(Related Ask - Re: The solution)

Tags Meta/Headcanon

Simon at the Legion

Simon awaiting the Prophet’s private message to him

Simon staying

Simon’s face at Amy’s wake

Kieren realizing his father is scared of him

Gary and Kieren in the future

Praise for In the Flesh and its characters

Timeline bullshit I’m still sorting out

Meta I Like Written By Others

Should I watch In The Flesh? - by ChucknRaleigh

On Rick’s military uniform/decorations meanings - by theundeadsiren

Interview Masterlist - by theundeadsiren (It’s not meta, but if you want “behind the scenes” information, this is a great place to look. I linked to the reblog on my own blog, since I know I won’t take it down or change URL, but here is the [Original Post] link as well, hopefully with updates)

Why Teen Wolf fans are switching to In the Flesh” by greenbergsays

On Simon loving Kieren - by hellasterek

On Kieren being called a monster - by mercuryphoenix

On Simon still having feeling in his fingertips - by fuckdatveiltho (missing account)

On how Simon reacts to Kieren’s kisses - by alsowizardry

On Simon looking at Kieren - by poesyy

Undead Sex Ed - by greenbergsays

On Amy’s change in epitaphs - by theundeadsiren

On Gary Kendal - by theundeadsiren

Why do you like Jem and not Gary? - by autisticsimon

On Kieren’s reaction to Rick’s second death - by billybr0wn

On the rabid undead - by keiirenwalkr

Isolation and Otherness in ITF - by rise-excalibur

On Teddy Bears in ITF - by garykendal 

On Symbolism in Scenery - by punk-kieren-walker

On Rick and Kieren - by punk-kieren-walker

On Kieren and Anxiety - by punk-kieren-walker

Dominic Mitchell on Maxine Martine (via Twitter) - by witchcloak

Dominic Mitchell on Janet Macy S2 (via Twitter) - by pieofthelord

On the way Simon says Kieren’s name just before they kiss - By chasingshhadows (ok it’s not really meta but you need to read it)

Other References

Season 1 Character Ages (script) - by @theundeadsiren

theanchoralwaysholds  asked:

Hi. I'm wondering if you have any fluffy pack fics to help me get over what Ty Posey said about the Sterek fandom... I would really enjoy it!

Aww honey bunch, don’t let things like that get you down! Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but I know some people were upset by what he said. Never let anyone tear you down because of something you like. You should be shipping the ships you want to ship because they make you happy and you should not stop doing so just because of other people!

I did a post a while back {here} that contained videos and stuff, since then people have asked for more so here’s another list!

First read this/ this / this / this & this (especially the last one) about why shipping Sterek is the best and why you aren’t weird or twisted. There is also {this}.

Here’s more Teen Wolf blogs that you should follow (along with the list from the last ask) because every time they post something it’s GLORIOUS.

Read these amazing fics. Even if you’ve already read them, do it again because that is how awesome they are.

Grab you popcorn and watch these amazing videos.

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“I want you to be honest with me. Totally and completely honest. Have you been time traveling?”

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“It wants irony. It wants to play a trick. It wants a joke. All we need to do is come up with a new punchline." 

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galvanize [gal-vuh-nahyz] verb.

2. to startle into sudden activity;

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“I care. I care to the point where impaling you with my claws would hurt me as well.”