with an eye on the little girl in front of her, olivia couldn’t help but smile at her as she swung her hips with the hula hoop. she’d never been very good at hula hooping, but when isabella had asked olivia to show her, she couldn’t refuse. she’d managed to keep it going for a bit longer than usual. until she felt it make contact with something behind her, the brunette immediately whirling around as the hula hoop hit the ground. “oh, no, i’m sorry, i didn’t just hit you, did i? i wasn’t really watching behind me!”
The woods enclose. You step between the first trees and then you are no longer in the open air; the wood swallows you up. There is no way through the wood any more, this wood has reverted to its original privacy. Once you are inside it, you must stay there until it lets you out again for there is no clue to guide you through in perfect safety; grass grew over the track years ago and now the rabbits and the foxes make their own runs in the subtle labyrinth and nobody comes. The trees stir with a noise like taffeta skirts of women who have lost themselves in the woods and hunt round hopelessly for the way out. Tumbling crows play tig in the branches of the elms they clotted with their nests, now and then raucously cawing. A little stream with soft margins of marsh runs through the wood but it has grown sullen with the time of the year; the silent, blackish water thickens, now, to ice. All will fall still, all lapse.
― Angela Carter, The Bloody Chamber and Other Stories
Sorry for all the gifs last night but I was unsuccessfully trying to get my mind off that 1st trailer for Logan with Laura Kinney Laura Kinney Laura Kinney and it looks actually pretty good and the feels 😂
I’m really good at this I don’t care about my mental illness weighing me down anymore act but in reality I literally curl myself up in a ball and stress the fuck out over the fact that I keep on relapsing and I keep on fucking things up, I’m no longer medicating and my prescriptions keep on coming but I have no desire to take them. I would rather be a train wreck than a zombie and quite frankly it terrifies me that things are like that? It’s black or white, there’s no shades of gray between. I’m not a harm to myself that’s not really what I’m trying to say what I’m trying to say is that I am fucking scared and confused and things start to go right then literally blow up in my face, I’m still dealing with all of these setbacks and on top of it my mental stability is plummeting and trying to hide myself behind an apathetic mask because no one really knows and everyone thinks it’s fine and thinks I’m losing weight because I’m working on it when I’ve really dropped like 20 pounds stressing and my hair is doing that thing where it literally comes out in clumps I wake up covered in bruises again and I’m literally so!! fucking!!! confused!!! I try so hard to fix this and not be the way but I’m pretty sure I’m stuck here and it’s so not lit :)
Tagged by @lolana07 – as always, thanks for the tag! :)
last movie you saw: Magnificent 7 – it was magnificent!
last song you listened to: Ugly Heart by G.R.L. (listening to right now tbh…)
last show you watched: oh geeze, uh… I watched an episode of Your Lie in April most recently, I guess?
last book you read: uhhhh… like finished? or am currently reading? I’m currently reading Crown of Swords by Robert Jordan
last thing you ate: I chewed some gum after lunch… and I had pork carnitas for lunch… mmm…. foooood…
if you could be anywhere right now where would you be: Hiking! I didn’t get to go hiking this week like I wanted to… there’s this gorgeous lake (I haven’t actually been there, I’m just assuming from pictures…) that I’ve been dying to go to and to photograph. I want to be there, with my camera… :)
where would you time travel to: Thanks to @lolana07’s answer, my mind is blown and I have no idea how to answer this question. But… no repercussions, I’d want to go to ancient Greece (‘cause art and history and such) or the 1940s-50s (ish) to experience black and white film photography at its best. Or the future to visit space and such, ‘cause that’d be cool.
first thing you would do with lottery money: Pay off my student loans, buy my mom a house in Hawaii and a cute house in Colorado so she can still visit me, donate, then I’d probably put anything else in savings/buy myself a fancy ass dinner…
fictional character you would hang out with for a day: *mumbles* but there are SO MANY… that’s difficult. All of my favorites are in alternate worlds (primarily post-apocalyptic) and I don’t think I’d want to hang out with the poor tortured souls that they are because I’d want them to smile and have fun… like Raven Reyes, I just want that girl to smile more.