I hate this.

I hate that we can’t hold hands, that was can’t kiss, that I can’t call you “babe.” I love you so, so much. Can’t you see that? I’ve been trying so hard to get over you, & I just feel so pathetic.. I know you said you’ll take me back on that one condition.. But I just can’t help thinking that you don’t know how I feel about you.. & my worst fear is thinking about how you might never be mine again. It hasn’t been long since we’ve been apart, but to me, it seems like decades. I just want you, all of you, your heart, your love, to just be mine again. I promise I’ll never hurt you like that again, if you promise to not hurt me either. I can honestly say, I’m in love with you. You’re my first real love. I’ve been in love with you ever since the first time we kissed. Maybe even before that. When I was just so happy to even be calling you mine. I’m still in love with you. I feel so pathetic.