character: kate austen


Fangirl Challenge:

(4/10 TV shows) Lost

“The most important part of your life was the time that you spent with these people. That’s why all of you are here. Nobody does it alone, Jack”


You don’t seem afraid at all. I don’t understand that. Well, fear’s sort of an odd thing. When I was in residency, my first solo procedure was a spinal surgery on a 16-year-old kid. A girl. And at the end, after thirteen hours, I was closing her up, and I – I accidentally ripped her dural sac. Shredded the base of the spine where all the nerves come together. Membrane, stenos tissue and … So it ripped open. Nerves just spilled out of her like angel hair pasta. Spinal fluid flowing out of her, and I … And the terror was just so … crazy, so real. And I knew I had to deal with it. So I just made a choice. I’d let the fear in. Let it take over. Let it do its thing. But only for five seconds. That’s all I was gonna give it. So I started to count. One, two, three, four, five. And it was gone. I went back to work, sewed her up, and she was fine.