chaos rants

They’re not just 2 dimensional men created by a software company. No. They’re my escape from reality. They’re my little forms of happiness. They’re the voices that tell me I’m good enough and that I don’t need to change so bad. They give me butterflies in my stomach when I’m too afraid to fall in love for real. They’re what I turn to whenever I wanna feel loved. They make me feel loved. Voltage Inc has done a tremendous job with creating their characters and they make me happy. They make millions of us happy. I’m happy to be part of the Voltage Inc fandom.

If anyone, literally anyone, tries to tell me that the TF2 Medic is/was a Nazi, I will fight you on the fucking streets. Word of God from Valve says HE IS NOT A NAZI. Initially, Robin Walker said it would have been “too easy” to make him one. Canon finally elaborated on this a bit, by explaining that Medic’s entire family is full of mad scientists, and has been for generations.

I hate the stereotype some people have that “all Germans are Nazis/Nazi supporters” (especially since I have German ancestry of my own) and it’s honestly VERY damaging to the German people who would prefer to forget about that chapter of their history altogether and move on. He may hail from Germany during the time period that Hitler was in power but can you honestly say with a straight face that everyone agreed with the regime during it all, or even that the current population of nearly 81 million people in the modern day agree with that? The actions of a government or military do not equal the sentiments of the entire population, who are you to judge an entire group of people for their homeland’s past actions?

Yes, the things that went on during the Nazi regime did happen, I can’t deny that, however every country on Earth has a terrible chapter in their history whether it’s a past one or an ongoing one.  You’re a US citizen? Well then that means you’re directly responsible for the tens of thousands of civilian atomic bomb deaths, the genocide of an entire people, responsible for years of slavery, oh and let’s not forget, you’re responsible for invading the Middle East strictly for oil. You’re English? Well I guess you’re responsible for the oppression, bloodshed, and forced colonization of multiple countries and territories. EVERY country is guilty of one atrocity or another. I can do this all day with every single country, but I hope I made my point.


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So. Even more meds.

Saw specialist doctor 2 of 4 today. And she couldn’t understand what had happened in my body either, but she was intrigued enough to tell me that she’d read up and see if she could find anything that matched all my symptoms, and in that case she’d get back to me.

Apparently my skin was in such shape that it needed more meds. Or; four times my current dosage of antihistamines. I will… be a lot of tired. For at least 6 months. Then we could slowly attempt to lower the dosage. And my veins looked like they had reumatism, apparently. Luckily enough they don’t.

*flops over in sofa Sherlock-style, sulking loudly over new state of pill organiser and my future level of wakefulness*

You know what sucks? Saying “ this thing that you want to do, is a thing that doesn’t interest me, so I’m not gonna do it but you go ahead and have fun” and then hearing “ yeah, but… this thing is really fun and everybody else enjoys it and you should too. I know you said that you don’t like this thing but that’s because you haven’t done this thing before and therefore you need to do this thing.” Like, really!? I just said, “ nah that’s not my thing, but it’s cool that it’s yours. So go have fun.” Don’t imply that there is something wrong with me because I don’t enjoy the same thing that you do.