*it seems like Changmin just stated his idea to Sam-san and Sam-san was reviewing his idea
CM: Yes. I gave an idea. Towards live shows I somewhat always think even until the smallest bit (details), so please don’t forget it (forget that Changmin had also have big concerns towards the live show). It’s not only Yunho that thinks about live performance. The 2 of you only talks to each other about a lot of things, I became lonely (feel outcasted)…. so please.
SAM-san: I took a note in my head already.
11:57 - 12:32
CM: Yunho has a huge interest in producing/directing shows, and he dances extremely well, so when the two of them started a conversation, to be honest it’s really hard to join in. I never meant to do this: but probably to other people it may seem like i didn’t involve myself proactively and it’s very frustrating for me (to be seen as someone like that).
YH: Back then, (Changmin’s) existence used to be like a brother, a member, uhm, like someone i got married to, but now i think he’s more like my other self. In him I saw someone I admire. well he’s totally different from me, in terms of character/personality and everything else. Recently, instead of saying that he’s a partner, i’d rather say that he’s a part of me (t/n: “jibun no mono” could mean “mine” but in the context of his speech it’s more like he’s saying that regarding changmin’s existence, instead of changmin being another person, it’s more like changmin is a part or one whole of yunho’s own self). and then, this is really hard to explain in words, but i do want to make him (his good points) mine, and I want it to be vice versa, changmin also make my good points his, so from the point of view of the everyone else, they could say “ah Tohoshinki is awesome, they have various characters”, not only cool character, but also humanly, like we do our best and reach our goals, I want to show it to everyone in that manner. So yes, i think Changmin is like my other self.
CM: In my eyes, I, a person named Changmin, in this state is still so far from enough (far from what he wants). It’s always that reflection that entered my eyes. But Yunho would do (a lot of) stuff for me, and help me as in he enabled me to go forward. whenever I start to think of why couldn’t i do this alone, it’s always feel really frustrating, but because the 2 of us could fill in each other’s gaps (weakness), and it’s because we can do this, a team called Tohoshinki are able to continue our activity until now. so i think from now and so on we will continue in the similar manner.
Changmin couldn’t ignore your quiet mood any longer. On a normal day, when you had free time, you’d blast music as loud as you could and dance around the apartment. You’d sing and have fun because that was your personality, fun-loving and bubbly. But not lately.
Lately, you’d been quiet and reserved, even distant. When Changmin put on your absolute favorite dancing song and did a silly dance for you, you simply looked up at him, smiled politely, and returned to the magazine you were flipping through. That was the final straw.
Changmin turned off the music and snatched the magazine from your hands. He was concerned because this was not the girl he fell in love with. “What’s going on, ____?”
With furrowed eyebrows and pursed lips, you stared down at your lap. That was your sad face. You were trying not to cry.
Changmin dropped to his knees and rested a hand on your thigh, the other on your cheek. “Who did it?” He was a protective boyfriend and he would handle anything, or anyone, that hurt you.
“No one did anything,” you whimpered. “I…I just…am I pretty enough for you, Changmin?”