ch: the lonely god

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Parting Words from an “Unfit Parent”

Seeing that he was on his last legs, Levi tries to get a few more answers from his former guardian before he can pass on, starting with whether he knew anything about the former King before Rod, and his reason for not wanting mankind to survive by caging them in these walls.


Unfortunately he really wasn’t able to acquire such knowledge from Uri, even though they had a fairly close relationship as friends. However he did know that that reason was the cause of the bad blood between the Royal Family and the Ackermans; which is probably the closest clue that they will have until they manage to find something on their next quest that will give them more introspective answers to the truth.


And before he could let him slip away for good, Levi ((possibly for the first time)) gets into more personal questions with Kenny as he asks what kind of relationship he shared with his mother, Kuchel, and in finding out that he was in fact his Uncle follows this with a doleful and lonely question of why he had abandoned him back then if their blood ties ran that deep between them.


While he may not show it since he knew how to keep a good poker face, I bet Kenny felt sadden at the idea of deserting Levi that day, especially since he was his kid sister’s only child and his last living blood relative that he knew of.
But being filled with the insecurity that he was not worthy of ever being a parent with the kind of life he led, he thought that what he was doing for him was in his best interest so that he could pursue his own life without being burden with the reputation of scum like him.


Yet despite having abandoned him and claiming to be someone unfit to be a parent, when it comes down to it Kenny didn’t completely desert him to a despairing fate when he could have, and even took it upon himself to at least teach him what he knew to survive this brutal and unforgiving world.


And if that wasn’t already enough, he even leaves to him the serum that he had stolen from Rod as a form of both redemption and an inheritance of his will in the hopes that Levi will be able to create the future that he desires for mankind.


He may have lived all his life thinking he was scum, but Kenny ended up dying a real man in the eyes of his nephew. 

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The Old Revolution by Leonard Cohen

I finally broke into the prison,
I found my place in the chain.
Even damnation is poisoned with rainbows.
All the brave young men,
they’re waiting out to see a signal
that some killer will be lighting for pay.
Into this furnace I ask you now to venture,
you whom I cannot betray.

I fought in the old revolution
on the side of the ghost and the kings.
Of course I was very young
and I thought we were winning;
I can’t pretend I still feel very much like singing
as they carry the bodies away.
Into this furnace I ask you now to venture,
you whom I cannot betray.

Lately you’ve started to stutter
as though you had nothing to say.
To all of my architects: let me be traitor.
Now let me say I myself gave the order
to sleep and to search and destroy.

Into this furnace I ask you now to venture,
you whom I cannot betray.

Yes, you who are broken by power,
you who are absent all day,
you who are kings for the sake of your children’s story,
the hand of your beggar is burdened down with money,
the hand of your lover is clay.
Into this furnace I ask you now to venture, 
you whom I cannot betray.

“Can you hear them? All these people who lived in terror of you, and your judgement. All these people whose ancestors devoted themselves, sacrificed themselves, to you. Can you hear them singing?

"Oh, you like to think you’re a god. Well you’re not a god, you’re just a parasite, eat now with jelousy and envy and longing for the lives of others, you feed on them! On the memory of love and lost and birth and death and joy and sorrow! So… so… Come on then. Take mine. Take my memories. And I hope you’ve got a big appetite, because I’ve lived a long and I’ve seen a few things.

"I walked away from the last great time war, I mark the passing of the time lords, I saw the birth of the universe and I watched as time ran out, moment by moment until nothing remaind, NO TIME, NO SPACE, JUST ME! I walked in universes where the laws of physics were devised by the minds of a mad man, and I watched universes breeze and creations burn! I have seen things you wouldn’t believe and I’ve lost things you will never understand and I know things, secrets that must never be told, knowledge that must never be spoken, knowledge that will make parasite god blaze! SO COME THEN! TAKE IT ALL, BABY! HAVE IT! YOU HAVE IT ALL!

I really like the 11th’s speech. Saw it on TV yesterday and couldn’t stop crying, even though I’ve seen it already for like a million times. 
I’m just gonna cry in the corner now.