i dont like this feeling. it hurts but it doesnt. its like when your foot goes numb while youre sitting on it weird and you stab something right in the heel. except its my heart. my heart is bent the wrong way and its been numb for a while and i just stabbed it with a dull knife.
so in traffic safety i told everyone that i was a lesbian (which is partially true, im bisexual), because there were these two boys that said they loved me and i didnt particularly want to deal with them (just wanted to mess with their heads a little). everyone completely believed me, too. except… i started dating one of the [really cute] guys in Traffic Safety and everyone found out gradually. well, i heard people talk about it and the guy who sits behind me found out from his buddies that i was not in fact lesbian and he completely flipped out and i almost died laughing
when you go to school, you’re pressured to do things you dont want to do. when you’re pressured to do things you dont wanna do, you dont do the things you dont wanna do. and when you dont do the things you dont wanna do, your grades drop horribly. and when your grades drop horribly, you become stressed. and when you become stressed, everything else with your social life makes you even more stressed. and when everything else with your social life makes you even more stressed, you stay up till 2 in the morning crying because you feel like a piece of shit.