You’ll feel so homesick that you’ll want to die, and there’s nothing you can do about it apart from endure it. But you will, and it won’t kill you. And one day the sun will come out - you might not even notice straight away, it’ll be that faint. And then you’ll catch yourself thinking about something or someone who has no connection with the past. Someone who’s only yours. And you’ll realise… that this is where your life is.
— Brooklyn (2015) dir. John Crowley
To have to completely rely on yourself and be self-dependent is
the only way you’ll ever truly let go of childhood. It’s scary and it
feels like shit and I hate being a grown-up most days, but it’s almost
like your body needs to go into shock for a while in order for you to
overcome it and change from it.