ceasing to exist

The thing people don’t realize about drug addiction is that we aren’t addicted to the drugs, we aren’t addicted to the foggy mind or the intense emotions and thoughts that cone with it although sometimes we believe we are addicted to those things….we are addicted to the moment right before the high hits, we are addicted to that moment when we feel like the world can’t hurt us because we can feel everything all at once and in that moment the world ceases to exist and we are faced with the intense reality that we exist within everything and in that split second we realize that everything is perfect and fucked up but it can never truly hurt us because we are the world…. and we chase that feeling to the end of time. We aren’t addicted to drugs. We are addicted to existence
—  1:01am and I hate being sober in this deafening silence that reminds me how alone I am

anonymous asked:

but danielle was our queen! at least if we're going down, you immoral larries are going down with us. we'll be living but you all will be rotting in hell for pushing a vile thing on such two innocent boys, you ruined their friendship. now is time for you to cease to exist bitches.


i wish you to find peace, my dude

Starlight and Solitude

beautiful dark hours
dripped in dipped
in starlight and solitude
quietness takes center stage
alone in a moonlit room
with nothing but a blank canvas
and thoughts that spring
from fingertips into words

here I write
here I delve
here I escape…
I breathe and live countless lives
I cherish dreams and make believe
two of my many muses
here I aspire
here I pretend
here I create
I act and behave like I’m a poet
funny how real it all feels
in these blackish, magical hours
where reality ceases to exist
we can become anything

FollowCB | Copyright 2017

leoqueen082  asked:

So, Buzzkill, perfect in every way, I cry because it spawned all of my Chlonath love. But I was wondering: how far is Nathanael willing to go for Hawkmoth (or the miraculous)? I don't know if you've already addressed this in your fix (I've been unable to read it yet), but I was wondering if Nathanael would be okay with the more murderous akumas (where people die, disappear, cease to exist) instead of being brainwashed or captured.

omg, sorry this has been sitting in my askbox for SO LONG! i think i just got so excited to see someone sending me asks about my fic/headcanons that i just wanted to cherish the moment (and the moment stretched out for way too long! my apologies! ps to everyone im always open for asks…im very needy and want ALL THE ATTENTION XD) 

first off XD ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh im so happy to drag you into the chlonath love!

and awesome question! 

I think its something that’s alluded to in the fic, as nathanael is not willingly wanting to follow through with hawk moths orders. their dynamic is definitely rocky at best and we can see that in most instances that being le paon was not Nathanael’s choice….but in terms of how far he’ll go for the miraculous, thats a different story

as for nath’s thoughts on akumas in general, he hates them. he can still feel the shadow of evillustrator and the scars its left on him, and hawk moth and his akumas are just a constant reminder of that. he hates it and he hates hawk moth all the more for it. these are definitely all points that will hopefully be further answered and addressed in future chapters!!! 

Thanks for the ask!! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 

you asked, “what is it like to fall in love?”
and i replied, “it’s a lot like dying. when you fall in love, you see yourself in their eyes and everything you believed about yourself begins to disappear. the things you once hated about yourself don’t seem so bad because you realize someone has found fondness in your flaws. and those things you hated about yourself that you defined yourself by, they begin to cease to exist. and you allow yourself to become reborn into the person they see: the real you. when you fall in love, you watch yourself die and it’s beautiful.
—  that deathless death
(cc, 2017)

Theism: belief in and worship of god(s).

Monotheism: belief in and worship of only one god.

Polytheism: belief in and worship of many gods.

Megatheism: belief that there are multiple gods, but that yours is superior to all others and only They are worthy of worship.

Henotheism: worship of only one god while acknowledging (the possibility of) the existence of others.

Kethenotheism: the worship of only one god at a time.

Monolatrism: the worship of only one god while believing in multiple gods.

Pantheism: belief that the divine is in everything.

Panentheism: belief that the divine is in everything, while also being beyond everything.

Apatheism: being neutral towards the possibility of the existence of god(s).

Atheism: neither believing in nor worshiping god(s).

Antitheism: being actively opposed to the belief in and/or worship of god(s).

Transtheism: a belief system that cannot be easily categorised as either theistic or atheistic. (Sadly, not the belief that god(s) is/are trans or that trans people are god(s)).

Autotheism: belief that divinity is inherently within oneself (may or may not exclude external divinity).

Agnosticism: belief/philosophical position that the divine (and/or whether or not it exists) is unknowable.

Ignosticism: belief/philosophical position that knowledge regarding whether or not god(s) exist is unprofitable.

Deism: belief/philosophical position that God does not interfere directly with the world.

Pandeism: belief that the creator deity became the universe and then ceased to exist as a separate and conscious entity.

Monism: a philosophical position that attributes oneness or singleness to existence.

Dualism: a philosophical doctrine that attributes co-eternal binary opposition to existence.

Omnism: the recognition and respect of all religions.

Panpsychism: belief/philosophical position that consciousness, mind or soul is an intrinsic universal attribute within all things.

Ietism: unspecified belief in an undetermined transcendent force.

Omnibenevolence/eutheism: belief that (a) god is wholly good.

Dystheism: belief that (a) god is not wholly good and may be evil.

Maltheism: belief that (a) god is wholly evil.

(Please correct any false definitions or add new ones to the list.)

JULY 23: Ruth Ellis (1899-2000)

Ruth Ellis, the LGBT rights activist and oldest lesbian to ever live, was born on this day in 1899 and would have turned 118-years-old today!

Ruth Ellis poses for the camera as she leans against a car in 1951 (x). 

Ruth was born on July 23, 1899 in Springfield, Illinois as her parents fourth child and first daughter. Her mother and father, Charles and Carrie Ellis, were former slaves from Tennessee but the abolition of slavery allowed them to move north and build a prosperous life for themselves and their family. Ruth’s mother died when she was young, but her father became the first black mail carrier in the state of Illinois and managed to put three of his children, Ruth included, through high school. Ruth would graduate from Springfield High School in 1919.

Ruth came out to her family as a lesbian when she was just 16-years-old, which was an unheard-of admittance in 1915! She would also recall meeting her partner, Babe, just five years later in 1920. For the next 30 years, Ruth and Babe would live together in Detroit, Michigan, where their home eventually became a major hub for the city’s black gay and lesbian community. Ruth also became the first black woman to ever operate her own printing company in the whole city of Detroit; the business specialized in printing stationary, fliers, and posters, and was operated out of her and Babe’s home.

Ruth is photographed hard at work operating the printing press that fueled her successful small business (x). 

Ruth and Babe eventually separated because, as Ruth said, “We were just two opposite people.” Although the refuge of Ruth and Babe’s home ceased to exist, Ruth remained incredibly involved in the LGBT community and reached somewhat of a celebrity status in the 1970s. She became noticed as a frequent attendee of the Michigan Womyn’s Music Festival and eventually began being asked to speak at different universities around the country about her experience as an out lesbian in the pre-Stonewall days. Her 100th birthday was celebrated with the release of the documentary Living with Pride: Ruth C. Ellis @ 100 and that same year Ruth was the honorary leader of the San Francisco Dyke March.

A special photo shoot to celebrate Ruth’s 100th birthday shows her smiling sweetly and holding a bouquet of flowers (x). 

Ruth passed away peacefully in her sleep on October 6, 2000 when she was 101-years-old. The Ruth Ellis Center in Detroit continues to be operated in her memory and is one of only four American organizations specifically dedicated to housing LGBT youth.


seriously people on this site are absolutely ridiculous instead of celebrating whatever ship/character you love in that wonderful clip you’re tearing down other users for enjoying what they have very right to enjoy and spreading negativity about characters and ships that don’t need to concern you let people live 2k17

deal | pt 2 (m)

Originally posted by sugamysavagebaby

summary: the years spent working hard had really paid off and was it so wrong to want to rub that in a few faces? The cliché mean girls that often teased you for not doing anything with your hair or clothing, wouldn’t it be great to show off someone like Jungkook? High school reunion au + ceo!jeon

word count: 6,848 

warning: pure filth you’re welcome

part one | part three

Jungkook is no longer tender, his lips ravish your body in such a way that it has you believing that the powerful kiss you had shared earlier that evening was nothing but a mere brush of flesh upon flesh.  Hands don’t hold you like priceless porcelain, instead it’s with a vice like grip that he clings to the skin of your hips almost as if he’d cease to exist if he let go.

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Artist Alley Gothic

(co-authored by @kytri and @spazzbot)

- You’re not sure what time it is. There are no windows. It is both noon and midnight. Time does not exist.

- The florescent lights do not change. They are eternal, they blaze upon you like stars. You saw the sun once, though you don’t really remember.

- There is food somewhere. The table next to you has food. It’s chicken nuggets and fries. You go to get food. It’s nuggets and fries. It's​ the only food for miles. You’ve never eaten anything else. You are so hungry.

- You saw a print you liked. You go to find it, but you can’t. There are so many tables, so many prints. The table is gone, the artist is nowhere to be seen. Maybe they were never there.

- You try to find table F6. You’ve been through the alley ten times. You’ve seen the same prints and plushies over and over. Table F6 is nowhere. You are growing old.

- There is a sound echoing from somewhere. It is loud and shakes the floor. You cannot find the source.

- You have no cell signal. You stand on the chair, but get nothing. The outside world ceases to exist. Your face is on a milk carton somewhere.