I know it’s a bit late (and I’m not just talking about today) but here it is, as I promised. I know I have a lot to learn, but I’m really proud of what I’ve made here, especially since it is the first time I’ve used photoshop, and a tablet, and painted digitally.
Also please ignore the weird perspective just shhhhhh
(So I know at least one of my followers knows what this is. They were able to guess off the sneak peek I posted a few weeks ago.) I’ve absolutely loved all the art and the fics that @caustic-synishade has done for their circus au, and what better way to show this love than through fanart :D
Anyway. Here it is, finally, I hope everyone likes it c: I also hope you all have an amazing day/night, and thank you for any likes or reblogs or comments (seriously they make my day). Remember to smile today, love you all!
Remember forever ago when @gettzi posted that great art of Nursey and his ballerina sister and I said I also headcanoned him with a ballerina sister because I had a whole thing about him and the concept of sprezzatura, which I learned in ballet class and therefore so did he? I finally wrote it.
There was a period of about two years, back when Derek was just starting middle school, when he spent two afternoons a week, every week, doing his homework in the corner of his sister’s ballet studio. At first it was because their nanny didn’t have time to drop him off before Naimah had to be at her class, and once they were at the studio, it made far more sense to just stay until her class was over and then head back home together. Derek didn’t mind, did he? He totally minded. It was lame and stupid and… actually kind of beautiful…
Maybe he didn’t mind. Maybe, even after the drop off scheduling conflict cleared up, he still found a reason it would be more convenient for him to go.
He soaked up a a lot of random stuff in those two years. A bunch of ballet French. An instinctive need to count things in eights. An affinity for waltz timing that would serve him well in later ballroom dance situations. An automatic need to correct his posture anytime he thought about a puppet string extending through his core and out the top of his head. And the concept of sprezzatura.
One thing he loved about sitting in the corner was that it was kind of like getting to look behind the curtain. Or at the inner workings of a clock. Ballet took work. And then it all came together.
“Girls,” called the teacher, clapping her hands twice for attention. “Girls, ballet is about grace. We are about to go into the annual performance. We are to give to the audience sprezzatura. I want the appearance of effortless beauty. You are there to present art. The choreography, the music, it should flow through you. The audience is not interested in how many times you had to practice that phrase across the floor. They are only interested in the final result. Your goal is to make it look both flawless and easy.”
He looked it up later and discovered it wasn’t really a ballet term at all. The dictionary just defined it as “studied carelessness,” but Wikipedia gave more background:
Sprezzatura[sprettsaˈtuːra] is an Italian word originating from Baldassare Castiglione’s The Book of the Courtier,
where it is defined by the author as “a certain nonchalance, so as to
conceal all art and make whatever one does or says appear to be without
effort and almost without any thought about it”. It is the ability of the courtier to display “an easy facility in accomplishing difficult actions which hides the conscious effort that went into them”.
(Of course, it might have been helpful if he’d also noticed and remembered the following line as well:
Sprezzatura has also been described “as a form of defensive irony:
the ability to disguise what one really desires, feels, thinks, and
means or intends behind a mask of apparent reticence and nonchalance”.
So I did more art of @caustic-synishade’s Freakshow AU because these designs are so fun to draw it’s ridiculous. These are just the practice sketches I did to prepare for the finished Beastiplier thing I drew, but I actually prefer these more than that one, so I colored them. I really need to draw Strongman Tyler and Contortionist Ethan but I’m avoiding it because I think I’ll mess them up. XD