It's Just Not Me
Request: Heyyy 💜🙉 I love your writing! I don’t know if you’re taking requests or not but If you are itd be nice if you wrote something about you NOT wanting to have babies and how he would react, any guy is ok ☺️ Thank you!
Calum and I were watching a movie on a Saturday night, we didn’t feel like going out tonight. I had lost interest in the movie a few minutes ago so I was on my phone, looking at the tv every now and then just so that I still knew what was going on.
It was a movie about a couple having a baby and that was pretty much what I knew of the movie. It surprised me that Calum was so much into it, it was definitely more of a girl movie.
“Aw,” Calum murmured after a few minutes, causing me to lift my gaze from my phone. “The baby and the dog,” he smiled at me and I rolled my eyes.
“Can we watch something else?” I asked with pouted lips. “The movie’s pretty bad,” I stated as I locked my phone before I moved closer to him on the couch.
“I know,” he laughed, “But look at the baby, he’s so cute,” he said as he glanced at the television screen. My eyebrows raised in confusion as I watched my boyfriend. His arm wrapped around my shoulders and draw me closer, his eyes glued to the tv.
“Cal,” I mumbled as he turned his head to look at me. “Do you want a baby?” I asked, uncertain and scared of his answer.
“Do you?” He replied and somehow the look on his face was the answer to my question. He did want a baby, but now he wasn’t so sure about my answer.
I slowly shook my head no, a weird feeling in my stomach appearing. I felt bad for disappointing him, the look on his face made it even harder for me.
He sighed deeply before he replied, “But I don’t understand,” he said, “You’re always the first to take a baby in your arms and you love babysitting.”
“Yeah, I do like it. I like babies and kids, I just don’t think I’d be a good mom. I like to be around babies for a short amount of time. I couldn’t spend an entire week with a small children,” I replied with an heavy chest. “It’s just not me,” I whispered, “I’m sorry.”
He stared at me in silence, making me feel worse every single second.
“Say something,” I begged as I leaned my forehead against his chest. “I’m still young, I have time to change my mind and-”
“You don’t need to change, Y/N,” he replied.
“I’m sorry,” I sighed.
“It’s not because the majority of people wants to have kids that you’re wrong. You can want anything you want,” he replied as I slowly pulled away from him so that I could look into his eyes. I gave him a small smile, glad he wasn’t too mad at me.
“I still have time to change my mind,” I reminded him, only because I didn’t want to hurt him. And it was true though, I was still young and there were chances that I’d want kids in the future.
“I’ll just buy more dogs and we’ll go spend time with the boys’ babies,” he smiled, making me laugh. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his lips, hoping he would understand that my choice wasn’t meant to hurt him. I wanted to apologize another time, but I knew it wouldn’t help anything.
“Thanks,” I muttered against his lips.