cast your soul to the sea

I Finally Found You  (M) // Kim Taehyung, Werewolf!AU

Originally posted by myeong-su

Pairing: Taehyung x Reader

Genre: Werewolf!AU, Smut, Fluff

Summary: You and Taehyung have been searching your whole lives for each other. Being Werewolves, you both dreamed of the day you would finally be able to meet your other half. And finally, fate brings you both colliding into each others worlds.

This scenario is rated M for MATURE as it contains smut, spanking, biting and all that good stuff

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You are the pillar
that is the temple of your body,
Do not let them turn your bones to ash.
You are a phoenix,
A blazing life
The cruelest words can not snuff out.
They are fuel to your fire,
Let it forge your heart.
Do not build your walls around it,
Build them beneath it;
Let them lift you up.
And when someone worthy comes along,
Instead of knocking them down,
They’ll have to climb it,
They’ll risk that fall,
To stand beside you,
And on days the air is thin,
They’ll hold their breath,
Just to share that view.
You might feel cold,
And Crack like stone,
But you are Everest;
There are days you feel
You cast the largest shadow,
But at your highest you reach your peak;
The sun is always shining,
The stars are always out,
And you stand above the storm,
The hurricane of your life
Could never tear you down;
Render it to gusts,
Tear that tornado to pieces
Till it is a whisper in your ear.
Let it be the wind at your back.
Have it fill your sails
Propel you towards your dreams;
There is no ocean you cannot cross.
There are no waters deeper than your soul;
The sea is afraid of being lost in you.
And I know there are chasms,
Too far for anyone to reach,
Crevices you feel the light never touches,
But you never needed the sun;
There’s no light at the end of that tunnel,
You are bright enough to light it from within,
And it is through that darkness you will shine.
Just keep moving forward,
Put your hands out and embrace the day.
One foot in front of the other,
One step at a time;
And when you turn to look back
The miles of your life
Will look like no more then a path in the forest.
And even that one day will grow over,
And you’ll think of it,
But that scar in the earth will have rendered
To a footprint in your past.
And even that you may remember the shape
But forget the feel of it beneath your feet.
It will become an indent
In the sands of your hourglass.
Let them fall off your back like beaded water,
Let them cleanse you like rain,
Stand in the eye of your storm,
And know it’s stillness;
You are formidable.
Love yourself from the ground up,
Count every inch;
You need no one else to feel you’re worthy.
Know your Worth.

I would like to ask for your participation in something I feel is very important, and the reason I wrote this peice. This poem is about worth; self worth, Those worthy of being apart of our lives, being worthy of being apart of someone else’s. If there is someone in your life you want to let know is Worthy, or maybe needs a pick-me-up, I would like you to reblog it, tag them in the post so they see it. Read it over the phone, send it in a letter, just let them know. I wrote this for all the wonderful worthy people out there. Whatever is going on in your life; you are loved.

Kindest Regards, xo


A/N: I am 100% convinced that this is not as good as Firsts, but it’s all done now and I am not even sure if this whole thing even makes sense. I just wanted a small explanation for why George would marry Angelina.

This fic has overwhelmed me a lot and I hope I could get the feelings across, somehow. Leave a comment or just any form of critism, because I really need it.

Summary: It’s his eyes and his face,his laugh - the spitting image of Fred. Until you notice the small but evident differences. And it’s Fred’s girlfriend he was consoling, understanding your sadness like no other. Until he falls in love.

Pairing: George Weasley x Reader as main // Fred Weasley x Reader

Word Count: 10777

Warnings: it’s post Battle of Hogwarts, so there’s some angst present. Mentions of death, Fred’s death, symptoms of Post trauma but overall fluffy.

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Shakespeare Songs: 20. Winter’s Tale

All this time, all this time
When I was lost in sea fret
All this time, all this time
You were waiting yet

Frost eats the heart
Nature freezes art
Doubt hurts the soul
Love fails and falls

All this time, all this time
When I was buried in snow
All this time, all this time
You knew what you know

Paranoia lies like life
The sun is the moon’s wife
See better, see it clear
Only truth can defeat fear

All this time, all this time
When I was hurt in hail
All this time, all this time
Your loved never failed

Despair casts love out
Hurt is its own flouting
Anger furies at the mind
Selfish love is never kind

All this time, all this time
When I was beat by rain
All this time, all this time
You dared to remain

Fool myself with lying
Grow old lonely only crying
Deny the joy that was there
Grey your eyes, grey your hair

All this time, all this time
When I was hurled in storms
All this time, all this time
Your love stayed warm

Exit in the bear’s pursuit
Die before your love bears fruit
It may be now too late, too late
I wait for nothing, but I wait

All this time, all this time
When I was cased in ice
All this time, all this time
You were living twice

Of play and flowers I know naught
Whilst she Is dancing, I am fraught
I end, I end, whilst they begin
I lost it all. I cannot win

All this time, all this time
When I was deathly cold
All this time, all this time
You have not grown old

They teach us love it seems
I find they mimic my old dreams
It happens that they all return
And I can see what I once could not discern

All this time, all this time
When I was breathing frost
All this time, all this time
You were not truly lost

Is that you, your image now?
I wish you knew my deepest vow
Could you hear me, feel this kiss
You would know what I have missed

All this time, all this time
When I was in the dark
All this time, all this time
You were never far

And what is this, a stirring still?
May I believe in what I will?
I reach, I yearn, I touch, I find
All this time, I was truly blind

All this time, all this time
You were by the hearth
All this time, all this time
Winter was not hard
All this time, all this time
I dared not look to see
All this time, all this time
You awaited me


Life is chemical
compounds coinciding
the chemtrails
do not drift out of blue skies
are not dispersed
by strangely angular
flat black aircraft
they curl protectively
around your chromosomes
seep from protein chains
are produced in the 24/7 sweatshop
of unappreciated glands,

There is a lightning storm
hidden behind your eyes
in perpetual discharge
molecules hold your soul
as it envisions
impossibilities no mineral can dream of
raging seas and falling stars
through fluid cast inverted visions
upon organic canvases
until strange unseen worlds
form in the storm
take hold

We tell ourselves
we are special
even as in dark corners we know
we are little more
than a complex chemistry experiment

the last rays of sunlight catch your wind swept hair for a moment
waves crash with such violence against the shore beneath you
but you don’t hear them or see them
your eyes search in the dusky twilight, questing for the forever unseen
without fail you will watch that invisible horizon for any hope
patient like the sea, you stand in memoriam to what you have lost
a forgotten soul trapped in grief, casting salty tears into a salted ocean
the hours tick past, the cold biting into your skin without relief,
but then, the sky opens up with dazzling colors dancing endlessly
it comes alive, flaunting it’s vibrance to your tired eyes and you sigh
the briefest moment of relief is found, knowing that in all this nothing
there can be such beauty and life to guide lost souls home
—  a piece for Sigyn, l.h.

2014 is almost over so here’s a list of the songs I listened the most this year, in no particular order. Hope you enjoy it !

  • SIDE A

  1. Chrome Sparks - “The Meaning Of Love
  2. Ambassadeurs - “From You
  3. Populous feat. Cuushe - “Fall
  4. Odesza feat. Monsoonsiren - “Memories That You Call
  5. Slow Magic - “Waited 4 U
  6. Zhu - “Faded” (Odesza Remix)
  7. Yumi Zouma - “Alena
  8. Flight Facilities feat. Micky Green - “Stand Still” (Slow Magic Remix)
  9. Spazzkid - “Goodbye
  10. Rubblebucket - “Sound Of Erasing” (Chrome Sparks Remix)
  11. Moon Bounce - “Shake
  12. Beach Season - “Midnights <3
  13. Collarbones - “Burnout
  14. Bewilderbeast - “Another
  15. Scenic - “Ride The Thrill
  16. Kisses - “Up All Night” (Holy Models Remix)
  17. Welcome Back Sailors - “Best Friends
  18. Casa Del Mirto - “Pressure
  19. Yalls - “Finally
  20. Ennui - “Circles
  21. Com Truise - “Subsonic
  22. Home - “Resonance
  23. Tycho - “Awake” (Com Truise Remix)
  24. Summer Heart - “U Got All I’m Looking 4
  25. Duck House - “Crossing
  26. Goldroom - “Till Sunrise”
  27. Brothertiger - “Lovers” (Modern Rework)
  28. Reginald Garland - “Chillin Out” (Poolside Edit)
  29. Kasket Club - “Straight West
  30. Daoda - “Naipaul
  31. Flowers Or Razorwire feat. Hello Again - “Snow Tropics
  32. Box Of Wolves - “Let’s Start Again
  33. Aimes - “On Holiday
  34. Silverclub - “Back To The Start
  35. Andras Fox - “Rock On
  36. 5 Reasons feat. Patrick Baker - “Tales Of Love
  37. Anoraak - “Made Up” (Endless Summer Version)
  38. Zorbs feat. @iamemiil - “Me, You &
  39. Cannons - “Touch
  40. Millionyoung - “Fade Away
  41. Isaac Galvez - “Sable
  42. Chévere - “Jvst When
  43. Dominic Pierce - “Needs
  44. Pyxis - “Fireworks
  45. Capo Blanco - “A Promise Love
  46. Sazabio - “Minsane
  47. Nouveau Cliché - “Vanity
  48. Lipstick Elite - “I Will Satisfy”
  49. Mirror Kisses - “Bleed
  50. Blood Cultures - “Mercury Child
  51. Sloww Lyfe - “Direct Messages
  52. Secret Attraction - “After All
  53. Hawaii94 - “Apparition
  54. True Lust feat. Outlands - “Silk & Lace
  55. Juno - “Trust in Me
  56. The Police - “Darkness” (Two Thousand 808 Edit)
  57. Hello Again - “Gone
  58. A Copy for Collapse - “Lucid Dream” (Juno Remix)
  59. A Gap Between - “Ombré Haze
  60. Gangplans feat. Owenstone - “Summer Lane
  61. Morg - “Breath
  62. Crystl Melt - “Secrets
  63. Niva - “Change Of Weather
  64. Literature - “Romance” (Walkie Talkie Remix)
  65. Sleepy Dinosaur - “One Night Stand
  66. Airglow - “Far Apart
  67. Walkie Talkie - “Don’t Give Up
  68. Shy Wołve - “Coincé À Nouveau
  69. Sloslylove - “Can’t Let Go
  70. Glimpse - “Strain & Straw
  71. Benny Boi - “Slow Dance
  72. Tora Tora - “Skyline
  73. Topaz - “Up To You
  74. Mush - “41.9° N, 12.5° E
  75. Panther Martin - “Garden
  76. Surf Dad - “Honey
  77. Delta Club - “Valun
  78. Tycho - “Montana
  79. X3SR - “Melancholia
  80. Dream Koala - “Earth
  81. Djao - “Foreign Heart
  82. Bibio - “Down To The Sound
  83. Kavemura - “See The Dawn
  84. Earthquake Island feat. Mocca - “Naked Water
  85. Stumbleine feat. Violet Skies - “Her Touch” (Sun Glitters Remix)
  86. Machweo - “Tramonto
  87. Earthquake Island - “Fantastic” (Sun Glitters Remix)
  88. Populous feat. Giorgio Tuma - “Brasilia
  89. Caribou - “Can’t Do Without You
  90. Gold Panda - “Clarke’s Dream
  91. Blackbird Blackbird feat. Britt Warner - “Young
  92. Baths - “Ocean Death
  93. Reid - “Singapore
  94. Kaasi - “Work With Me
  95. Hounded - “Hearts
  96. Tyde - “Close
  97. Blackbird Blackbird - “Hold On
  98. Caribou - “Sun” (Teen Daze Remix)
  99. Bonobo - “Pelican
  100. Lone - “Aurora Northern Quarter
  101. Les Sins - “Talk About
  102. M+A - “When” (Fare Soldi Remix)
  103. Majid Jordan - “All I Do” (Telescope Thieves Edit)
  104. Darius - “Espoir
  105. - “Don’t Wanna Dance” (Darius Remix)
  106. Ben Macklin feat. Emma Brammer - “It’s Over
  107. Glen Check - “Paint It Gold” (Anoraak Remix)
  108. Glen Check - “I’ve Got This Feeling” (Kartell Remix)
  109. Zimmer feat. KLP - “Sensify Me
  110. Touch Sensitive - “Slowments
  111. Pomo feat. Andrea Cormier - “Start Again”
  112. Marlin - “Zebra
  113. Pomo - “Aerobix
  114. Wave Racer - “Streamers
  115. Panama - “Destroyers” (Cosmo’s Midnight Remix)
  116. Ryan Hemsworth - “Ryan Must Be Destroyed” (Wave Racer Remix)
  117. Cosmo’s Midnight feat. Polographia - “Goodnight
  118. NoRome - “I.Lost
  119. Fear Club - “No Mystery
  120. Tapes - “Voicemail
  121. Imprintafter - “This Time
  122. Redwood - “So Chi
  123. Phil Gerus - “Opposites Left Together
  • SIDE B

  1. Flying Lotus - “Coronus, The Terminator
  2. Teebs - “View Point
  3. Monster Rally - “Sunflower
  4. Rumtum - “Ruby Dime
  5. Submerse - “Snorlax
  6. Psymun - “Cold In Here
  7. Thrupence - “Don’t You Mind
  8. Mndsgn - “Eggs
  9. Matthewdavid - “In My World
  10. Abjo - “Saudade
  11. Flamingosis - “Going Up!
  12. Sango - “Me dê Amor
  13. Kaytranada feat. Shay Lia - “Leave Me Alone
  14. Evil Needle & Sivey - “Constructive Interference
  15. Giraffage - “Anxiety
  16. Saint Pepsi -Mr. Wonderful
  17. Eest Coast - “Never Change
  18. CYGN - “Tears in Wine
  19. Eest Coast - “My Luv” (Saint Pepsi Remix)
  20. Shagabond - “Tuna Melt
  21. Flourish Fill - “Tic Tac Toe
  22. Lakim - “A Pimp Named Slickback
  23. Zuper - “Let You Know
  24. Noocene O’Neal - ❝So High
  25. Sagevideos - “Lemonade Baths
  26. Shampoo God - “Chill トースト
  27. Yung Hentai - “Triforce
  28. Ultra ウルトラ - “人工N℈XUS
  29. Pixelord - “Portal (VHS Logos Remix)
  30. VHS Logos - “U-Matic
  31. Jacob 2-2 - “Riker’s Beard
  32. Navigateur - “Runnin’
  33. Drip Drop - “RX–78
  34. Eastghost - “Voyeur
  35. Beemo - “Cashed Out
  36. Luviia - “Sticky End
  37. Beatmachinearon - “Wind
  38. Luviia feat. Kaligraph E - “Wayshewalks
  39. Kodak Cameo - “Gamble
  40. Missing Hito - “You and Me, Baby (Side Walk Strut)
  41. Beatboxbandit - “Kart
  42. Deadxbeat - “Cookin’ It Up
  43. Marquinch Mogule x Miraa - “Diapason
  44. Lewpz - “Upright
  45. Aso. - “Mch Joy.
  46. Lapti - “Hawaiian
  47. Casting - “Luveasy
  48. Vector Graphics - “Destine
  49. Bbrainz feat. Casting - “Home Design
  50. Casting feat. Mane Mane - “40 oz
  51. Ritchrd - “Sea
  52. Onra - “Blast
  53. Timid Soul x Vice Point - “Purp
  54. Merlinda/Walls - “Departure
  55. Tails - “Your Side
  56. Flamingosis x A Sol Mechanic - “The Touch
  57. Maitro - “Art Vandelay
  58. Harris Cole - “Baby, I Love You
  59. Pier.Point - “What Can You Do
  60. Mtbrd - “Houdini
  61. Handbook - “From The Start
  62. Vanilla - “Girl
  63. Kev//Bot - “Miracles
  64. Ernst Jr. - Sunshine
  65. Libano - “Servicio Gómez
  66. Booty Thrill - “Stop N Look
  67. Basement Love - “A Slow Night
  68. Milos - “Hypnotize
  69. Knight One - “Swords Cry
  70. Vallès - “St. Lucia
  71. Wasted Nights - “Juiced
  72. Audiosynthes - “Body
  73. Eliot the French Kid - “Go On ダーリン
  74. Rollersaurus Rex - “I’m In Love
  75. Crowns - “Lips & Teeth
  76. Leo Luxxxus - “Never Give Up On You
  77. Fitzzgerald - “You
  78. Persona La Ave - “Cheers Big Ears
  79. Jolly Mare - “Giu
  80. Artie Desu - “失われた Alley Smoke
  81. Palinoia - “Apéritif
  82. Artie Desu x Crowns - Liberty Mutual
  83. Natvn - “Lookn 4 Loe
  84. Showdee - “Call Me
  85. Macross82-99 x Rollergirl - “Grandlife, Highlife
  86. Rollergirl - “U & I
  87. Beerlover - “Stereo Funk
  88. Tuuwa - “Dearest
  89. Lancaster - “Basement Dance
  90. Harrison - “Help Yourself To My Love
  91. StewRat - “Ever Since
  92. Ash Reynlods - “Into My Life
  93. Venturex - “Light Show
  94. Dainumo - “Console Disco
  95. Literature - “ファンク
  96. Luxury Elite x Macross 82-99 - “ウォーク·オン·バイ
  97. Flamingosis x Yung Bae - “Groovin’
  98. Parrot Jungle 95 - “Return Of The Parrot
  99. Bansheebeat x Yung Bae - “Summer
  100. Supersex420 x Moon Raid -“ダンスClub
  101. Tendencies - “そこにそれがある
  102. Architecture in Tokyo - “Forever
  103. Kyross - “At Last
  104. Mike Tenay - “Holy Smokes
  105. Supersex420 - “シュターツsashagreyでのパーティー
  106. Drew Treez - “どのように感じていますか
  107. ЛЕНЬ - “100 Ogahaus
  108. Tuuwa & Golden Living Room - “Double Crossed” (Dance edit)
  109. Esprit 空想 - “Slow 2014
  110. Donna Lewis - “I ♡ U, Always Forever” (Noocene O’Neal Edit)
  111. Dreamstar - “Golden Circuit
  112. Swim Good - “Sorority Squat
  113. Baby Sloth - “New Dance Show
  114. 猫 シ Corp. - “Luxury’s Fortune
  115. Phoenix #2772 - “Beautiful Situation
  116. Delta金Topco - “United Colors Of 金
  117. Beta Hi-Fi - “Midnight ラヴァーズ
  118. Abelard - “☆SEINWAVE☆2000☆ What’s the deal with airline food?
  119. 회사Auto - “The Dress / The Last Time
  120. Oneohtrix Point Never - “Rush
  121. Nmesh - “Dream Sequins®
  122. Dreams West - “Wet Paint

[ Artwork by Andrew Walker ]
The Signs as Twenty One Pilots Lyrics


And since we know that dreams are dead and life turns plans up on their head, I will plan to be a bum so I just might become someone.
- House Of Gold


Every time I feel selfish, ambition is taking my vision and my crime is my sentence. Repentance is taking commission, it’s taking a toll on my soul.
- Fall Away


I don’t know why I feed on emotion. There’s a stomach inside my brain. I don’t want to be heard. I want to be listened to. Does it bother anyone else that someone else has your name?

- Forest


I’m trying, I’m trying to sleep but I can’t, but I can’t when you all have guns for hands, yeah.

- Guns For Hands


Behind my eyelids are islands of violence. My mind shipwrecked, this is the only land my mind could find. I did not know it was such a violent island, full of tidal waves, suicidal-crazed lions. They’re trying to eat me, blood running down their chin. And I know that I can fight or I can let the lion win. I begin to assemble what weapons I can find ’cause sometimes to stay alive you got to kill your mind.

- Migraine


I’m never what I like, I’m double-sided. And I just can’t hide, I kinda like it when I make you cry. ‘Cause I’m twisted up, I’m twisted up inside.

- Semi-Automatic


Sometimes you’ve got to bleed to know,
That you’re alive and have a soul,
But it takes someone to come around to show you how.She’s the tear in my heart, I’m alive,
She’s the tear in my heart, I’m on fire,
She’s the tear in my heart, Take me higher,
Than I’ve ever been.

- Tear in My Heart


I’m taking over my body,
Back in control, no more shotty,
I bet a lot of me was lost,
Ts uncrossed and Is undotted,
I fought it a lot
And it seems a lot like flesh is all I got,
Not anymore, flesh out the door,


I must’ve forgot, you can’t trust me,

I’m open a moment and close when you show it,
Before you know it, I’m lost at sea,
And now that I write and think about it,
And the story unfolds,
You should take my life,
You should take my soul.

- Holding Onto You


You say things with your mouth, cobwebs and flies come out. I hear a second voice behind your tongue somehow. Luckily, I can read your mind; flies and cobwebs unwind. They will not take you down. They will not cast you out.

- Lovely


I’ve got a migraine and my pain will range from up down and sideways. Thank God, it’s Friday ’cause Fridays will always be better than Sundays, ’cause Sundays are my suicide days.

- Migraine


He thinks that faith might be dead. Nothing kills a man faster than his own head. He used to see dreams at night. But now, he’s just watching the backs of his eyes.

- Trapdoor

Sing Like No One (But Us) Can Hear You

Imagine you can’t sleep when the dwarves are snoring in the night. You sing a lullaby and all the guys get quiet, and you can sleep as well. 

Originally was supposed to be based on imagine singing in the night and getting embarrassed when you think one of the dwarves is listening, so you keep restarting, until one of them gets up and tells you to sing to your heart’s content. 

Hence the title. Ah, whatever, let’s just go with it. 

Also should probably mention that the song is titled… Skye Boat Song? That’s what they called it on the first result for Outlander theme song, so, yep. 

Word Count: 955

“Damn it all to the Valar,” you grumbled under your breath as another dwarf snore once again broke through the semi-quiet of the night. Rolling over onto your side to get as far away from the noise as you could, you tapped your finger against the rock beneath you, doing your best to ignore the snore. 

Heh. Ignore the snore. What a lovely rhyme.

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The Duel of the Gods

I have been thoroughly enjoying the Homestuck Mythos created by @khemi, @dirkar and @janestrider​ .   In that mythos, the Kids are in truth the Gods of the post-Sburb world.  Over time they lose their humanity and become Gods indeed, and then only legends.  I encourage you to go read the originals!  Dirkar created the mythos in this post;  Khemi wrote  two other Mythos fics (so far).  This is a tribute to the Mythos.

It was a warm afternoon in early autumn; the sun was sinking in the sky, and the dust sparkled golden in the slanting light.   Grandmother sat in her doorway and spun.   As she worked, she kept a watchful eye on the children who played in the dusty street, tumbling, fighting, and then making peace.   Her great-grandson Ulf picked up a rock and threw it at his father’s sister’s son Geir.  The rock missed Geir, but hit little Siv, who cried.  Grandmother set her distaff aside, then rose from her seat.   Little Siv had taken no great injury; Grandmother kissed the bump and set her down on her feet.   Then she stared down at Ulf, who tried to avoid her gaze, but then sulkily apologized to Siv.  

“And also to Geir!  You should not be throwing rocks, for eyes do not grow back in the head.” Even more sulkily, Ulf apologized to Geir. Grandmother shook her head, returned to her doorstep, then asked, “Who will listen to a story?”   The children ran to her feet and sat down.  After a pause to collect her thoughts, she began.

“Heed me now, for later you must tell the story yourselves.”

In these days the Gods have grown weary of mortals; they still send us wind and rain, love and death — for death is also a gift, bitter though it may be — but seldom do they speak to us, and more seldom still do they appear in their own flesh.

When the world was young, though, things were otherwise.  Then the Gods walked and swam and flew in the perfect bodies of which our own are but crude copies.   They drank and they ate and they healed and they slew  and they loved and they laughed.   Today I will tell you of the laughter of the Gods; a laughter more piercing than ours, for the Gods see through lies as we see through winter air.  

Long, long ago, the Gods sat upon their sacred hill, eating apples and looking down on the world they had made. The Lady of The Sharp Eyes and the Blind One spoke softly of what was and what might come to be. The Wolf-Sister tossed an amber ball between her hands until the Wind-Lord snatched it from her grasp. The Lady of Laughter sat with her brother’s head in her lap, combing out his red-gold hair and chiding him for his solemn face.  The Lord of Hope slept, weary from defeating the Winged Bull … but that is another story.   The Maiden said nothing, as was her wont, for she spoke little unless to the purpose.  

The Lord of Time, who had been listening to the crow that brought him news, sat up and flung it from his hand.  "I grow weary of idleness.“   His red-eyed lover rolled his eyes and opened his mouth to scold, but the Lord clapped his hand — the one that had held the crow — across his lover’s mouth.  "Let us have a rhyme-match.”

At that the Gods groaned as one.  The Lord of Time never lost a rhyme-match, not even to his sister the Lady of the Sharp Eyes.  Worse, his rhyme-matches could last for weeks, and sometimes longer.   Mortals who challenged the Lord of Time might spend their entire lives in the contest, or, living, return to the world and find that their great-grandchildren were ashes on the wind, and that none alive remembered their faces or their names.  

From his place in his sister’s lap, the Lord of Souls, he who makes and unmakes us all,  spoke up.  "I will wager a cask of unfermented cider that I can defeat you in combat, for my sword is whole and yours is broken.“

"Done!” cried the Lord of Time, for he loves cider above all things.  

The Lord of Souls sat up from his sister’s lap and stood, holding the sword that never dulls.   The Lord of Time also stood, the sword that changes naked in his hand.

And so they began to fight.  Back and forth the brothers flashed, faster than even the Sharp-Eyed Lady could follow.  Now and again they slowed, so that the other gods might behold their prowess.   The Deadly Ones were well matched, and they fought only in jest, for they knew that if they fought in truth, one or both of them must surely die.   The other Gods called out as the brothers fought; some offering praise, others mockery, and the Red-Eyed Lover denouncing the stupidity of a battle between kin.   The fight would have lasted long even as the gods count time, but the Lord of Souls stumbled on a hillock in the grass, and a blow that he should easily have parried passed within his guard and cut off his smallest finger.

The finger lay upon the hill, and the Gods gazed down on it.

“I can heal any creature but once, ” said the Maiden, “and you I have already healed.”

The Lord of Souls, the Deadly One, shrugged.  "What is a finger more or less?“  And he picked the finger up and made to cast it into the sky.

Seeing this, the Wolf-Sister twitched her ears.   "The stars are for heroes; you, cousin, lost this through carelessness.”   So saying, she picked up the finger and cast it into the sea.  There came a churning in the waves;  a rock sprang from the ocean, and grew and grew until it was a pillar four times the height of a man.  "Let this remind you of your folly.“   The pillar still stands; if you follow the coast north of  Cape Karkat, you will see the God’s Finger still, warning sailors of the leeward reefs.

The Lord of Time laughed, saying, "None now can doubt whose stone stands tallest.”  Then he swept his hand into the air, and his brother’s finger reappeared on his hand, as if it had never been severed.   The Wolf Lady was wroth, but then she laughed, for none could deny the Lord of Time when mirth was upon him and he spoke in shining words.

And so it happened, and so it ends, and so you must remember, and tell it again.

Finishing her story, Grandmother frowned at young Ulf.   “When the Lord of Time wounded the Lord of Souls, the Lord of Time could repair the hurt he had caused.  You, Ulf, are no Lord, and no Lord will heal your cousin if you are careless.   You must be wiser than the Deadly Brothers, and fight your kin with words, not weapons.  Save your swords  — and stones! — for the enemy.”

The Signs as Eyes

Aries: Bright blue// Their look can turn from warm to violent and cold in a split second.

Taurus: Emerald//They have a soft glaze over their eyes as they stare at the overwhelming amount of homework.

Gemini: Green & blue// You can never tell with them. Some have blue eyes that represent their love for adventures and others have these beautiful green ones that show their split personality.

Cancer: Hazel// They have nurturing eyes that always make you feel safe.

Leo: Brown with blue and gold specks// Power and a thirst for control shines through theur eyes, showing the world their soul.

Virgo: either the darkest of browns or brightest of blues there is no in between// They often wear glasses that hide their beautiful peepers.

Libra: blue// Their baby blues tend to glitter and glow in the sunlight. No one knows how but a Libra’s eyes get ten times more blue when they’re in love, which happens more often then not.

Scorpio: dark brown, black// Their deep eyes examine your soul, taking in every weakness and insecurity you’ve ever had.

Sagittarius: blue,green// Their ees are often the sky and the sea joining together to make something even more majestic. Everywhere they look, they cast a sense of independance and silent power.

Capricorn: grey with a blue ring// Simple but nothing short of amazing. Capricorns always look organized, calm, and in control of their emotions.

Aquarius: Deep brown// They show everyone else excitement and wonder but what about the stuff you can’t see? How much pain is hidden behind those big brown eyes darling?

Pisces: sea green// Their eyes hold so much love and empathy. Pisces make you feel special, like mire than you are and more than you deserve to be.

There’s a layer of words over all my scars– pieces of skin removed to spread the elasticity of a goodnight smile between the pockets I’ve hidden incomplete sentences. If whispers told about the inconsistencies night unfolds beween the letters that should make you, we would be a pillow without rest. I’ve folded secrets within the walls of my fingertips, begging the moon to write the love I never had. From barren valleys to scorched Autumns, red has never held hands with the drought of promise. I lost my voice when you said hello, but the only spine I needed was your hand. The only light– your smile.. but I’ve traced every reason to walk away with every fist fitted for a lesson, and the only thing that crumbles faster than December are your calculated kisses holding more continuous denial sleep can’t blink away. They tell us that everything has an answer, and maybe temporary was ours, but a quick fix never hid the cracks.. and my dear, we are just sinking deeper into the thorns we tied our hands with. My heart is lined with the carpet of your footsteps. One part echo, two parts disappear. One more goodbye so I know it’s real. This is how ghosts are made–

you thaw a numb heart, then let it go burn somewhere bridges can’t see. Sometimes when I sleep on this bed, I still see you. Sometimes when I breathe, I can still hear your whispers. Sometimes when I long for something that’s twisted, I’ve anchored myself into the seven seas made from your sweetest lies– I’ve been praying that this isn’t the truth, but it is.

Ghosts are made this way. I owe my heart to you, so I’ve been asking where we placed time– we’re lost without each other, but somehow we still found a way out of this maze crafted upon lips that cut me thin. I’m casting my soul off into the deepest parts of space, you once said we were born from the same star. Do you still believe that? I’ve created poetry from these veins, I’ve used your love to paint my roof, I’ve used your apologies to sew my lips shut. I’m going to try at this thing without you and if I ever come to be something you’ve never put any thought into– don’t worry, that line, this life, these feelings– you’ll know it’s for you. This counterfeit heart always pays its dues. This crystallized soul still deep inside your palms, I’ve been made of love letters for far too long, I’m still searching for the truth within the lie. So please baby, tell me once more– was there something wrong with me or was there something wrong with you? Was there something wrong with us? Or was it all rusted down to the iron, were we just trying to make beauty where ugliness made a home? When was the last time you felt pretty? Sometimes when I think about you, I still remember that time you said never say goodbye. I think I’m going crazy, this is what being sober makes us feel– so kiss me into a sleep I’ll never want to wake up from.

—  I run towards rain, just to feel your touch again. I jumped into hell, just to feel your lips again. This is the end of all things beautiful.
// The Ate & The Bunso

♫ soundtracks ♫ - some of my favorite songs from my favorite musicals/movies and their soundtracks [listen here]

01. i’ll make a man out of you - mulan // 02. seasons of love - cast of RENT // 03. young and beautiful - lana del rey // 04.come on eileen - dexy’s midnight runners // 05. cool rider - michelle pfeiffer // 06. summer nights - john travolta & olivia newton-john // 07. i see fire - ed sheeran // 08. score tonight - the pink ladies & the t-birds // 09. under the sea - samuel e. wright // 10. holding out for a hero - bonnie tyler // 11. you’re the one that i want - john travolta & olivia newton-john // 12. let it go - idina menzel // 13. part of your world - jodi benson // 14. poor unfortunate souls - ariel and ursula // 15. express - christina aguilera // 16. who’s that guy? - cast of grease 2 // 17. kiss the girl - samuel e. wright // 18. out tonight - rent // 19. popular - kristin chenoweth // 20. a little party never killed nobody (all we got) - fergie, q-tip, & goonrock // 21. everybody wants to rule the world - lorde // 22. greased ligntnin’ - grease // 23. obsession - sky ferreira // 24. reproduction - grease 2 cast // 25. eyes on fire - blue foundation // 26. show me how you burlesque - christina aguilera // 27. another day - rent cast // 28. hakuna matata - the lion king // 28. mirror - ellie goulding // 29. what dreams are made of - hilary duff // 30. flightless bird, american mouth - iron & wine // 31. rock-a-hula-luau (summer is coming) - grease 2 cast // 32. heroes - david bowie // 33. a thousand years pt 2. - christina perri feat. steve kazee // 34. hey mickey - toni basil // 35. young and beautiful (dh orchestral version) - lana del rey // 36. finale b - rent cast // 37. footloose - kenny loggins


I’ll Never Stop Loving You (A Song For My Son)

When I first saw you,
I nearly passed out,
I just couldn’t believe,
You were a part of me.

My heart stopped for the
seconds you didn’t breath,
And then I felt such relief,
That I dropped to my knees.

I don’t know who you’ll be,
But I want the best for you,
Not everyone gets parents
Who love you like we do.

You’re growing so fast,
Every blink another day,
Remember to respect your mother,
She gave her body away.

I’ll never stop loving you,
I’ll always stick up for you.
I’ll never abandon you,
I’ll always stand proud with you.

I’ll always be your dad,
And you’ll always be my son,
Not a soul can change our bond,
We are forever one.

I held you mom tight,
In her hospital bed,
Only seconds away,
From seeing your head.

The doctors rushed in,
And I had no clue,
She almost died,
When she tried to deliver you.

Her heart rate now 250,
Doctors crowded her space,
Because she silently fought on,
I now began to see your face.

From that moment it was over,
Life could never to be the same,
My pride in you there was no limit,
Know that fact will never change

I’ll never stop loving you,
I’ll always stick up for you.
I’ll never abandon you,
I’ll always stand proud with you.

I’ll always be your dad,
And you’ll always be my son,
Not a soul can change our bond,
We are forever one.

When I was growing up like you,
My mother always said,
You’re strong, you’re a Jackson,
Not just outside but in your head.

We’re counting on you,
To stand back up when you fall,
If you believe in what you’re doing,
You better give it your all.

Life can be cold, and often unfair,
But you have to keep fighting,
For those who need you here.

Remember on your darkest days,
When it seems that you’re alone,
You’re parents love you through & through,
And know you’ll always have a home.

I’ll never stop loving you,
I’ll always stick up for you.
I’ll never abandon you,
I’ll always stand proud with you.

I’ll always be your dad,
And you’ll always be my son,
Not a soul can change our bond,
We are forever one.

I’ll never stop loving you,
I’ll always stick up for you.
I’ll never abandon you,
I’ll always stand proud with you.

I’ll always be your dad,
And you’ll always be my son,
Not a soul can change our bond,
We are forever one.

What you do in life,
Is yours to the letter,
I won’t tell you what to think,
Or act like I’m any better.

You should be what you wish,
Religion, diet, who you date.
I’m not here to be a dictator,
I’m here to keep you safe.

I did not have it like you do,
A dad with me through thick & thin,
My dad he lied, and could not love,
But to this day I rise above.

You should know you’re not alone,
And when I’m cast into the sea,
Just look at your reflection,
And son I promise you’ll see me.

Never go home again

Our lives are not what we thought they were. 

That’s part of the trick the world plays on us. And I’m not talking about the universe, I’m talking about the very precise delineated cultural expectations we are inculcated with, the depth and breadth of our personal sphere of influence. 

Certain things that are impressed upon us from birth, which form the bedrock of our society and culture, are based upon misapprehensions.

And when we encounter something from the Otherworld - which is in fact, merely a distancing technique, since all that wyrd, primal stuff is right in here with us, and we were never ‘safe’ to begin with..well

That’s why magic is an attack on reality. Because ‘is’ splits, forks, shifts. Reveals itself as a fleeting ephemeral image that dances away with mocking glee, some pied-piper playing a tune that seizes the hind-brain. Some come-hither-maiden, some curly headed sly fellow, some old wanderer beckoning you to follow amidst a troupe of spirits with their own agenda.

Bilbo was never the same, was he? Neither Frodo, nor Sam; Merry and Pippin become something else too. The Ring might be melted in the fires of Mount Doom, but it’s the Hobbits that pass through fire and come back changed, more themselves than they ever were.  And what, do we think the Sackville-Bagginses of the world thought, long after those tales were mere poems and stories?

Structures are reconfigured - Tolkien knew this intuitively. He knew the heroic tales of the North like the back of his hand, felt their pulse under fingertips stained by pipe-tobacco. He looked about him, and saw, not the lack of an English mythology, but the cultural amnesia.

Because the first and greatest act of magic is remembering who you are.

Reaching back, extending backward, to make electric contact with the days of Future-Past.

Through the dark of futures past, the magician longs to see. One chants out between two worlds, fire walk with me! - Twin Peaks

Hold still then, close your eyes, and there in the darkness, remember.

Remember all poetry, all song, all magic, all might, may-hap and may-be comes from the place which loops over and under your very skin, in the spaces between your recognisable, coherent thoughts.

Mountains are made there. The sky darkens as wolves and jaguars eat the sun, or pull it into the sea. The streets you walk along contain seeds of shadow, waiting to blossom, to scent the lightning tang which containsthe serpent’s venom-sting, which lies behind and beneath all human artifice.

There are indeed things humankind was not meant to know, and this is not some hierarchical divine fiat, but a simple understanding - when you have the knowing of certain kinds, you are no longer what would ordinarily be considered human. Your days as a two-legs are done, and only then are you aware of the subtler powers of the mask. 

You will walk amongst them, but you will never be one of them again.

Because you never were.

The sheer ontological shift will render you, will rearrange your priorities and values. The unnecessary, formerly so beloved, will fall away -and you will no longer care.

All that matters is that flame, that Eros which draws you ever on, the flickering cunning torchlight held in the house of princes, the agony of fever and sickness which sets you to sleep and chafe and dream strange dreams .It sits at the heart of every atom, a  crystalline shine, sunlight endlessly refracting of a million facets.from its position in the centre of the very earth.

Ἀπόδοτε οὖν τὰ Καίσαρος Καίσαρι καὶ τὰ τοῦ Θεοῦ τῷ Θεῷ (Render unto Caesar the things that are Caesar’s, and unto God the things that are God’s)   

And to whom do you pay tribute? Whose head is on the coin of your Soul?

Whose blood-salt sea do you sail, dark as wine?

You will be asked to leave the premises behind. The landlord has called time on your intoxication. All that lies ahead is a dangerously seductive and joyful sobriety, available only to to those who purge themselves. Cast into the street, there’s only the strong hand of wild and feral creatures of thorn and ash  to hold back your hair and whisper in your ear with honeyed lullabies.

Oak-strong, with feline grace, they carry you away, supporting you with lithe bodies, until, like Samson, you rage and bring their temple down upon your head.

And there, amidst the masonry and bones - now indistinguishably stained as the inner becomes the outer, its secrets now revealed - there lies a sense, not of self, but of Being. 

Our lives are not what we thought they were. We die and are reborn, moment to moment, our hands and hearts open. All is flux. This to shall pass. We possess nothing, except our very Selves, the starry constellation of eternal, recurring possibility

Our lives are not what we thought they were. And neither are our many deaths.

like you …

your soul
went traveling
to live with gods;

was it
a confusing sleep
a surround sound dream?

was darkness pounding through your chest?
was it the humming beacons of self-revelation?
did the ancients speak to you of eternal Madness?

like you
my soul
is in transit -

elasticized flesh
and rattling bones
digging a thousand graves
for every fragment of myself
embracing kindred beasts of
every divine caste singing of
gifts echoing of holy diamonds
bequeathing the illusion of the
moon falling away into the sea -

like you
i’m driven
to the drama
of the blessed
shadowy earth …

it endures
our presence …
it plays a quaint
game of fluttering
cycles of passion … and

we are
swallowed by
the confederacy
of this Madness …

like you
i thrive in the
center of its force …
as it whisks my sanity away …
like you … i’m on my way … to somewhere … always ….

The Sandman

This is a poem I wrote as a gift for my friends, K and A. They love The Sandman comic by Neil Gaiman, as do I (though I’ve only read the first Absolute edition), so I made a poem about it for them. I have another one that I’m still working on, also about a topic I know we each love. I was originally gonna write it down all nice and stylized and mail it to them but I couldn’t find the right materials I wanted so I’m just gonna post it here. Enjoy!

For there is life

And there is time

Beyond the gates

To sweet sublime

Where Dream is yours

And Dream is mine

Where lusted fates

Drink honeyed wine

To swim through stars

In seas thought parched

To fight dragons fire

In castles arched

Through journeys start

Till journeys end

When rest at pyre

Be met by old friend

For there is she

Oh comfort soul

To guide and care

Whom life is made whole

So take her hand

My sister’s hold

And speak a prayer

To spirit old

Just close your eyes

And cast the day

Let go the seam

And fade away

Lay at peace

And clear your breath

May find my Dream

And kindly Death

Why does it even matter
if I still breathe in
the salty air rolling off
the sea of your discontent?
Should I slip gracefully
into the dark water knowing
I’m sure to be shred upon
the jagged shore?
Am I to dye the foam cap
red with the warmth of vein,
knowing the tide would
wash guilt away?
She eclipsed what warn
the lighthouse cast toward
my soul filled schooner.
I was lost in the last stretch
of homeward voyage,
and the wreckage was lost
to the tide.

~LDM (Her Fog)