People think that fangirls are bubbly, silly, and overly happy and hysterical teenagers when in reality were the complete opposites. It’s not all rainbows and unicorns, we deal with depression and suicide and eating disorders. We deal with rejection and loss and pain. We deal with hours of hell in school with people we didn’t wish to be with. Fangirls aren’t fangirls just because they’re naturally happy people, they’re fangirls because it’s actually one of the only sources of happiness they have left.
Summary: Joe and Reader are making a yoga video for his channel and Joe makes Reader’s knees go weak. Literally.
Joe had practically begged me to make a video with him. He told me it was yoga video, like the ones he had made with Oli.
We went shopping in the morning for matching yoga clothes.
“Ooh Joe, look at those, they’re cute!” I exclaimed while pointing at a multi-colored tank top and black leggings with the same pattern around the waist band.
“OH MY GOD! THAT’S SO FETCH!” shouted my boyfriend, referencing the film we watched the night before.
I laughed loudly at Joe and grabbed 2 sets of the leggings and shirt. Joe snatched 2 pairs of trainers that were similar to the outfit. Joe found a bandanna with the same pattern printed on it and I found a similar patterned scrunchie.
Joe payed for it all, much to my dismay and we walked back to his apartment where we will film the video.
We got changed into out new outfits.
“Oh wow, Joe, you look glamorous!” I exclaimed to the boy in front of me clad in a females yoga outfit and headband.
“Why thank you m’lady,” Joe pronounced in a posh accent, “You look absolutely marvelous!” He finished with a bow.
I giggled and pushed his shoulder, “C’mon you silly idiot.” I joked.
“Right you stay out of shot for a minute, honey.” Joe grabbed my shoulders and dragged me out of shot of the camera. Caspar was behind the camera and gave us a thumbs up to say I wasn’t in shot.
Joe did his intro, “and with me today, is…. Y/N!!” Joe grabbed my arm and hauled me over to his side. I stumbled over my feet and fell into his chest and we both tumbled to the wooden floor.
We both hysterically snickered as we rolled on the floor.
We got into the video and Caspar showed the final and most difficult pose. The stronger person is on their back with their feet up and the lighter person is sat the stronger persons feet with their legs up and they’re holding onto their own ankles.
We first tried to Joe as the one on the floor but I couldn’t keep balance on his feet so we ended up trying Joe sat on my feet.
Joe and I shared about the same weight but I was slightly shorter than him, so I didn’t know if I could carry his weight.
“Right, you ready Y/N?” Joe asked cautiously and looked over his shoulder to glance down at me, to which i gave him a thumbs up and a grin.
Joe shuffled onto my feet but with his feet still plastered onto the floor.
His feet slowly raised off the floor and he quickly attempted to grasp his ankles, but miserably failed as he lost balance and plummeted to the ground where I was. Joe landed right on top of me and we both grunted in pain.
“Sorry princess,” Joe apologized.
“It’s okay Joseph,” I softly replied while I ran my hands in his hair. My fingertips grazed his bandanna which was covering part of his hair and part of his forehead. I smiled and reached up to place to fully into his hair. “You literally make my knees go weak.”
The goofy boy smiled down at me and laid his forearms on the floor, beside my head.
“We are so goals right now Y/N,” Joe trailed off as his fingers played with the Y/H/C strands of my hair.
“Agreed,” I muttered quickly as my head raised of the floor and met his lips in a sweet, quick kiss. I pulled away from the kiss and scanned Joe’s face to see him with his eyes closed and eyebrows raised as if in pure surprise and pleasure. His eyes shot open once he realized he lost contact of my lips.
“Oh no, I don’t think so darling,” and in an instant, Joe’s head dipped down to mine and forcefully kissed my lips. The kiss was getting more heated, when suddenly a cough interrupted the moment. Joe reluctantly removed his lips from mine and looked up, his ocean blue eyes meeting Caspar’s baby blue orbs, who left the room before we kissed.
“Am I intruding?” Caspar dumbly asked, to which I laughed and rolled my eyes.
“No, of course not, Cas.” Joe sarcastically muttered.
“Oh ok, let’s carry on with the video, ladies.” Caspar mussed playfully.
Joe stared at his friend with shock and playful disgust. I turned his head towards me and gave him a quick kiss on the lips, “We’ll carry on later, I promise,” I whispered in his ear.
Joe gulped and smirked and shot up off me to finish the video faster. He hauled me up with him, whining,
I have been best friends with the Maynard brothers since I was born so I obviously was friends with the buttercream squad. I lived in a big flat with Conor, Jack, Josh and Casper sometimes stays the night.
My room is next to Jacks down the same hallway and we share a bathroom that connects to our rooms. Conor is in the other hallway across the living room and kitchen with Josh but their bedrooms are across from each with the bathroom on the other side of Conor’s bedroom.
I usually wake up way before the boys at around 6:30 but lately I’ve noticed Jack is up a lot more before me. I’m getting really worried about him so I go talk to Conor.
“Hey Conor” I say as I knock on the door. “It’s open” I walk in and he’s laying on his bed playing on his phone. “Hey Con I was wondering if you know what’s going on with Jack I’m worried about him. He is almost always up before I am now and his eyes are always red and getting dark circles under them. He looks like he hasn’t slept in days and he is being weirdly clingy always coming with me whenever I go out and walking very close to me not that I mind I’m just beginning to worry." "I’m sure he’s gonna be fine y/n you just need to talk to him he really likes you and will respond better if you talk to him.” “Ok thanks.”
I left Conor’s room and since it was almost midnight I changed into one of Jacks old t-shirts and went to bed around the middle of the night I heard my door open and close a few seconds later. I looked to see it was nearly four am. I crept into the hall to see Jacks door open. “Jack” I whispered. “Oh shit I’m sorry I knew that would wake you up I’m sorry I just came to check on you” he said.
I sat next to him on the bed and grabbed his hands and looked at him. “Jack I want you to tell me what’s wrong I know you aren’t getting any sleep and that you are not letting me out of your sight I need you to tell me what’s wrong so I can help you.” I looked at him expectantly and he sighed and told me what was going on. “I’ve been having really bad nightmares about you disappearing and it’s all my fault and I can’t find you while you’re screaming my name for help, when I wake up I just can’t breath.” Jack said between sobs and his voice cracked at the end.
“Oh Jack Love you should have just come in. Nightmares don’t make you weak it just goes to show your caring side darling no one is going to judge you. I’m right here for you when you have nightmares you just crawl right into my bed and we’ll cuddle. And if you feel like you’re going to have a nightmare or don’t feel like sleeping alone just come into my room and so you can hold me and keep me safe, ok?” I told him.
“How did I get so lucky to have someone like you in my life you just know how to make anyone feel better about everything.” He hesitated and shifted where he was sitting before he spoke again. “Will you stay? Please for me?” He practically begged in a quiet voice while nervously looking at me.
“Of course Jack anytime don’t worry about asking just tell me I’m sleeping I here or your sleeping with me anytime.” I turned on my side and crawled under the blankets with him as I pulled him over and held home close to me with our legs tangled together.
I never went to sleep after that I just layed there and looked at him. When he started to fidget or whimper I ran my fingers through his hair and rubbed circles on his bare back to calm him down.
Requested - “Could you do a Joe sugg/Zoe sugg imagine where joe notices how skinny his girlfriend is and how she doesn’t eat/always finds excuses not to eat so asks Zoe to speak to her. Zoe speaks to her and she admits that she might have a problem?? ❤️❤️❤️Thankyou so much”
Warnings: may be a bit sad.
You, joe and zoe grew up together and somewhere along the way you and your family left for 7 year’s and you never saw zoe or joe again.
After leaving for 7 year’s everything went horribly wrong. Your parents had got a divorce 2 year’s after you left your home town.
You decided to live with your mother and had never seen your father again after that day.
You mother then got engaged to another man 2 year’s later and he hated you.
He made you feel so useless and ashamed of your body.
when you were 20 year’s old and joe was 22 year’s old, you found each other again and you fell in love with joe as he fell in love with you.
3 years later and you although were happy to be with joe your mind never left what that horrible man had said to you
“Your so fat.” “Loose some weight” “no wonder you font have a boyfriend, your so fat”
What he said left a mark on you and you often found ways to not eat ever again after that
You and joe hadn’t been intimate for quite a while now as you felt you were still fat and didn’t want him to see that side of you.
As you got out of the shower one morning you walked into your shared room with joe and caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirrior you had in the room
Dropping the towel you stood there and looked at your pale and fragile body
Although you were way too skinny, you just couldn’t see that and in your mind you were still fat.
You were too busy picking at your skin to notice that joe was leaned against the doorframe of you room with sadness and tears in his eye’s
“Y/n….” joe said softly and quietly
Quickly turning around to see him you bent down to pick the towel up and wrap around yourself
“get out. Get out” you said frantically running to push him out and close the door
Joe banged on the door asking to come in with pain in his voice as you slid down the door and cried
Joe continued to bang a few more times before he realised that you weren’t coming out
Quickly running downstairs he ran into the kitchen and quickly grabbed his phone and dialed his sister’s number
Zoe picked up on the firat ring and could hear the deep breathes of her brother and immediately asked what was wrong onky for joe to craoak and start to cry heavily
“Please come over zoe now” joe said with heavy tears falling frantically down his face as he raced back up stairs and sat at the top of them and watched the door you were behind
“What’s wrong joe?!” Zoe frantically asked and joe could hear that she was moving around and getting her shoes on
“How could i have been so stupid not to know zoe” joe whispered in the phone
“What are you on about? Whats going on joe?” Zoe asked as joe heard a car start
“You know what, just breath and ill be there i 5 minutes” zoe said as she hung up
‘How could i have been so blind to see that she had a problem and had been starving herself?’ I thought to myself as i got ip and went to our door
Gripping the door handle i turned it onky to realise she had locked me out
I sighed and knocked
“Y/n?…baby please let me in” i said as my breath got caught
I got the response of silence and that worried me
“Y/n?…..” i asked louder this time
“Go away…” i hear a faint reply and i could tell she was sitting down leaning against the door
Sliding down the door i leaned my head back and breathed as tears began to fall again
“Please baby……i want- i want to help…..” i didn’t know what to say
Silance filled the air once again untill a knock was heard on the front door
I was lucky that my sister and her husband were in town as i walked down to open the door
“What’s going on Joseph sugg.” Zoe said as she barged in with alfie following closely behind
She was about to start having ago at me When she saw my tear stained face she stopped
With a soft frown on her face she ran and wrapped me in her arm’s
“Where’s y/n? And whats going on?” She asked softly
“She’s in our room….” i could barley speak as i just cried in my sister’s arm’s
She patted my back and held me in her arm’s as she shhh’d me calming me down like she used to when we were little
Walking us over into the living room she sat me down on the couch next to her as alfie pulled a chair up and sat in front of us
“What happened joe?” Alfie asked softly as his hand held out a tissue
“She’s been starving herself…..” i started
“How could i have been so stupid zoe….ive been with her nearly 4 years and not once did i notice anything was wrong untill a few weeks ago….”
“I just saw her…..she was so- so skinny and pale…..she looked like she was about to break if she took one more step….” i just cried as i went to get up i was pulled back down
“I don’t think you should speak to her right now joe…your not in the right headspace.” Alfie said
“Please talk to her zo….” i asled as i turned to my sister with hope
“Of course” i said to joe as i got up and whipped the few stray tears that ahd fallen from my face
“She’s locked the door…” i heard my brother craoak as alfie hugged him
“I’ve got it…” i said as i pushed myself up the stairs
Standing in front of my brother’s room i knocked on the door softly
“Y/n….its zo….please open the door….” i said softly
I heard movement against the door
“Go away…” i heard a weak reply
Sliding down so i was eye level with the handle i pulled a Bobby pin out of my hair and placed it against it and did my work
After 2 minutes i felt the door unlock and high fived myself mentally
Pushing the door open slightly i slid in through the gap i ahd created and then closed it again
My brother was right…she looked like she would break immediately if she got up from her spot on the floor
“Oh y/n….” i gasped as i bent down near her and cried
“Why?…..” i asked her as she looked at me with dull eye’s and a tear stained pale face
“I was too fat….he said i was….” i stopped and got angry
“Who? Joe?” I asled as i got up and was ready to go after my brother
“No…” i ket go of the door handle and bent back down
“Who then?…” i asked softly as i pushed some hair behind her ear
“My stepdad….” she whispered so quietly that i alsmost missed it as she started crying again
“He said i was too big….that i would never get a boyfriend and no one would like me if i didn’t loose weight…..” she cried
“That’s not true y/n and you know that…..”
I moved so i was against the door and next to her as i pulled her into a hug
“What he said is not true….i mean look you’ve been with joe for what? Nearly 4 years now…and you have alfie and i…along with jim and tanya, jack, Connor, casper and maddie, josh and oli…youve got a lot more people than you think….we dont think your fat and we never have…” i began felling her slightly shake
Getting up i pulled her up softly with me and pulled her over to her wardrobe and pulled out a top and trackpants
Turning to her i got her to drip her towel and helped her into her clothes seeing as she already had underwhere on
“Look..” i said pulling her gently so we were standing infront of the mirrior
“I have a problem…i know zo….but i can’t stop…” she whispered as she looked down
“Your all going to leave me now arnt you…” she asked and that broke my heart
“Absolutely not. Listen just because that barstad of a stepfather of yours said all those horrible thing’s….that don’t make it true…yes it is not healthy to be this skinny and it is a slight problem but that does not mean we cant fix it…and we will love you no matter what…joe…he will love you no matter what, he’s loved your for quite some time now y/n and i doubt he will leave you…even if you were black, short, asian, skinny or fat we would still love you no matter what but this state your in. Its not healthy and i will do everything in power to help you And to show you that we are here no matyer what. Your apart of the family y/n….your a sugg and your apart of the gang and we all love you…we always have….and we always will. So dont you dare say any of that again. He’s no longer your family or apart of it. We are.” By the end of that she was on the floor with me in my arm’s as we cried
I soon felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see alfie and joe with sad and teary eye’s as they looked at y/n and i
Feeling y/n move slightly i looked down at her as she got up and ran into joe’s open arm’s and cried with joe as joe wrapped her up in a warm embrace
Alfie helped me up and hugged me as i hugged him back and soon we felt fragile and small ars wrap around us
“Thank you zo…..” i turned out of alfies grip and hugged y/n tight but not too tight
“Please just remember that we are here now and we are not going anywhere at all. Tomorrow were going out and were going to help you get back on your feet again.” I said as i held her
Soon i felt two more pairs wrap around mine and y/n’s body
“All of us. We are family and we help each other no matter what.” Joe said as we all smiled at her
“Don’t forget about us!” We hear a voice say as we felt more arms wrap around us
Soon the whole gang was here and we were all wrapped up in a big hug.
“The love of a family is lifes greatest blessing”
Joe had forgot that the bbq he planned was today and forgot that he had given the boys a spare key incase you were wondering how the rest gor there 😂😊
Being best friends with the guys in the buttercream squad can really wear a person out especially all the parties.
Right now I’m at a night club with the them. Everyone is getting a little drunk. After years with these guys I have a high tolerance for alcohol so I order a another shot of tequila. Some random guys comes and sits beside me.
He is really attractive and I’m a little tipsy so I thought I could have some fun with him. “Hey you here alone?” I ask in a flirty voice. “Ya my girlfriend just broke up with me so I’m kinda on the rebound what about a pretty lady such as yourself?” He replies.
I’m starting to feel bad about flirting with him because I actually have a really big crush on Josh that only Casper knows about. He tries to tell me I have a chance but right now I’m just going to forget about him and have some fun. So I reply back with “I’m here with some friends. What kinda girl is dumb enough to dump a handsome man such as yourself?”
“A bitch that’s who. You wanna dance?” He queried “Sure” I giggled back. He grabs my hand and leads me to the dance floor. I we started dancing really close to each other and getting very touchy. I swear I can feel eyes burning into my soul but I can’t find who it is.
I was watching y/n with that stupid jackass with his hands all over her. I HATED it. I know she’s not mine but I want her to be and all the boys tease me about it. All I can think about right now is him touching and and I’m shaking with rage.
Casper suddenly pops up out of nowhere. “Man you got to calm down just go over there and get her she’s drank a lot more tonight then usual she’s just looking for someone cause you won’t make a move. I promise she really likes you man she’s just trying to forget cause she thinks she can’t have you. Now go get her.”
Still pissed and a little buzzed I thank Casper for the pep talk and walk over to her and Jackass.
The alcohol was really starting to get in my system when someone came up behind me a said in an angry voice “Hey dude get lost she’s drunk and you shouldn’t take advantage of her like that.” I immediately recognized that voice as Josh. The guy looked ready to tell him off until he looked up to see how tall and mad Josh was so he said bye and ran off.
I turn around to see Josh with a very angry look on his face as he scolds me and pulls me really close until the guy was on the other side of the bar. I may have been kinda drunk but I swear he looked jealous. When he finally let me go I spoke up “was Joshua jealous?” “I was not I just didn’t like him with his hands touching you and trying to pull you closer” “josh that’s jealous” i deadpanned.
“Come on I’m taking you back to my place I don’t want you driving home this drunk.” He said. I didn’t say anything back I just followed him, he told Conor we were going back to the flat and picked me up. I didn’t say anything about it Josh does this a lot especially when he’s buzzed or drunk because he gets REALLY touchy.
When we got back to the flat I had a headache forming josh gave me a t shirt and a pair of drawstring sweatpants for me to wear and went to make some tea for us to help with my headache. I got changed and took off my bra cause I didn’t want to sleep in it and figured Josh wouldn’t care. I threw my clothes in the wash and sat down on a stool at the island in their flat.
Josh handed me some tea to sober us up, and sat next to me. I leaned into his side and he put his arm around me. I got an idea and decided to go with it before I lost all my drunkenness and got to scared I leaned up and whispered in his ear “I’m so glad you got jealous and possessive and scared that guy away.” I leaned back so I could see his face and bit my lip suggestingly and added “it was really hot”
Josh turned away and blushed before he answered with “God you really must be drunk.” “ Josh I want you to look at me I’m not drunk I really have liked you for a long time and seeing you get possessive really turned me on.”
His eyes widened and I thought he didn’t feel the same way. I was about to turn around and walk away when he pushed me up against the wall.
“Y/n I have loved you for so long and have waited for this day but I couldn’t stand his hands all over you because your mine.” Josh said in a really deep voice with his eyes almost black. He kissed me very suddenly and roughly but it was also passionate like I always dreamed it would be.
He whispered “jump” so I obeyed and wrapped my legs around his waist with him hands on my bum. He took me away from the wall and started to walk towards his bedroom while I kissed his neck and nibbled on the sweet spot behind his ear lobe as he moaned. I tried my best to move my hips to create some friction as he tried to open his door he moaned again and I felt him getting harder by the minute.
He finally opened the door and ran to the bed and dropped me while he crawled on very quickly after and attached my neck sucking and nibbling on my sweet spots as he growled in my ear “mine.”
I have never seen him so possessive I don’t know what’s gotten into him but I like it he is usually sweet and kind but he is acting very possessive and rough. I buck my hips and moan some more. Moaning his name he starts kissing down my body until he reaches the hem of my (his) shirt and rips it off of me.
He realizes I don’t have a bra on pretty quick and I blush but soon he just attacks them with kisses and swirls his tongue around one nipple and nibbles it as he massages the other one then switches. The whole time I moan his name in pain and pleasure from his roughness.
I tug his shirt over his head and he undoes his belt and takes off his pants. Leaving me in his sweatpants and him in his boxers. Without skipping a beat he pulls my (again his) pants down and slides them off my legs. He kissed in between my thighs and spreads my legs apart. He very slowly pulls off my underwear with his teeth and then his tongue finds my clit. I moan and he says “who makes you feel like this y/n who”
Barely able to think straight be cause of the pleasure he was giving me I managed to say “only you josh” “That’s right baby your mine and only mine” he growls as he eats me out.
He comes up and leans down and takes off his boxers. His large member flies up and I lowly gasp as he smirks and within seconds he plunges into me and I feel so much pain I bite shoulder and scratch his back. But it quickly turns to pleasure as he thrusts hard and deep into me each time. I starts to scream his name and he starts giving me hickeys all over my body and I scratch his back, sure to leave marks in the morning.
I can feel my orgasm coming and I say “J-josh I-I-I’m gonna” and he says “Cum with me baby and that’s sends me over the edge and he spills with me. He lays there in me and resting on me with his forearms on either side of my head to not put all his weight on me for a few moments until he pulls out and rolls over wiping the sweat off of both our faces.
I whimper at the loss of contact and he pulls me on top of him and I quit. “Y/n I love you and have loved you for a very long time so when that guy started talking to you it made me mad and I got jealous I know you probably feel like this is just a one night stand but I was wondering if you’d be my girlfriend.”
I was astonished he’d asked me “Yes of course Josh I would never just want a one night stand with you I love you and would love to be together.” That night i fell asleep on top of Josh. When i woke up I was super SUPER sore. I rolled off of Josh and groaned really loudly.
This woke up Josh and within a matter of seconds he hovered over me “are you okay” he asked worriedly. “Ya I’m just kinda sore from last night.” “I’m so sorry you should have told me to stop or go easier” he said as he looked at all the bruises and hickeys he left all over you.
He got up and grabbed a pair of boxers and slipped them on. I told him “It’s alrighty baby I had so much fun last night and I don’t regret a thing you shouldn’t either.” He smiled and replied “I don’t deserve you.” And handed me his shirt as I reassured him he does deserve me and I’m the lucky one.
I tried to get up but very quickly fell back down in pain. Josh caught me and apologized again I wish he wouldn’t do that if I was having a bad time I would have told him it was my decision too.
Josh picked me up and carried me to the kitchen and made me breakfast, when Conor and Jack came in.
“Really getting at it last night weren’t you guys.” Conor said and I blushed and hid my face with my hands. Then Jack added “OH JOSH OH JOSH OM MY GAAAAAAAAA JOSH” I’m a really high voice. Josh walked over to me and handed me toast and I thanked him and kissed him.
All the sudden Jack looked at Josh’s back and called Conor over and they gasped and touched his back and he flinched and hissed. I immediately turned him around to see what was wrong and there were deep scratches and dark red marks. “Wow y/n has hickeys and bruises all over her and can’t walk and Josh has got scratches and bite marks on him I didn’t know you guys were so rough.” Conor said
I hid my face in Josh’s neck and apologized profusely. “Baby it’s alright it’s not that bad you can’t even walk!” Josh told me. “Wait really she can’t walk!!?” Jack said surprised and Josh nodded them they highfived to which I just hid my face in Josh’s chest. He carried me to the couch and we lazier around and watched movies all day.