Why Can't You See… (A little Carlesme fanfic I wrote)
‘Why can’t you see I love you? I love you more than I’ve ever loved anyone ever. I love you more than my own life. I love you more than anything. I love you. Why can’t you see it?’
She started sobbing them, wishing her tears could come. He cupped her face with his hands.
'Don’t cry. Please, don’t cry, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you cry, I’m so sorry. I’m terribly sorry. Please, please, don’t cry.’
She looked at him with her eyes filled with pain and sadness.
'You didn’t make me cry. I cry because I love you too, Carlisle… I’ve always loved you, since we met… But I’m so worthless… I cry because I’m so unworthy of you… I don’t deserve you… Although I wished it for years, I can’t understand why you love me… I’m not good enough… I’m not beautiful or smart… Not like you… I’m broken. I’m just a poor and weak woman who lost everything… I couldn’t save my baby, I couldn’t save myself… I didn’t want to save myself after that… Charles was right, I’m useless. I should be dead. I have nothing. I’m nothing.’
'Don’t say that. Please, don’t say that. You don’t know what you are to me. You are everything to me. You gave me a new reason to exist, a new reason to continue, a new reason to live. You gave my life sense. I can’t even explain how happy I am I found you again. How happy I am I could save you. How happy I am to know you love me, to know that you have always loved me. I’ve never been happier. Because you are a beautiful, brave, strong, kind, wonderful woman. You are so beautiful that your husband was jealous and he mistreated you because he feared you find someone else and leave him. You were so brave and strong that you leave him to save your baby, getting over your fears. You saved your baby from him. You are so kind you don’t hate me for changing you into a vampire and damning you with an eternal existence. You are a wonderful woman, Esme Anne Platt. You have always been and you will always be. And I love you just as you are; I love every bit of you. Because you are the best person I’ve ever met and I will ever meet. You are perfect to me, and you always will be.
I remember the first time I saw Dr. Carlisle Cullen, played by Peter Facinelli and the first time I saw Esme Cullen, played by Elizabeth Reaser. When Carlisle appeared for the first time in Twilight I remember my cousin (who is who made me watch the movie and I hadn’t read the books yet) clapped and the truth it’s that’s a really movie-star like appearance. You are like “wow, who is he”? And then they tell you “he’s Edward’s adoptive father” and you’re like “really? You’re joking! He’s so young!” And then it’s when I thought I didn’t understand why so many people say Edward is so handsome when Carlisle is handsomer… But, well, that’s only my opinion. I’ve always thought he’s much handsomer than Ed. And apart from that, I thought he was really kind and nice, although with something mysterious, because, of course, he’s a vampire.
Later I saw Esme. The first thing I thought was that she was like a porcelain doll or a fairytale princess or queen. She was (and she is) so sweet and beautiful… I thought she was really nice and kind and that Carlisle and she were a really beautiful and cute couple (and indeed they are). They fitted perfectly together (and indeed they do). There are two characters I’ve always liked. I admire Carlisle’s goodwill and strength and Esme’s kindness and loveliness, but I certainly didn’t fell in love with them so much until I knew more about Esme’s human life and her love story with Dr. Cullen. When I read Twilight Official Illustrated Guide and I found out she had met and fell in love with Dr. Carlisle Cullen when she was 16, I felt delighted. Such a romantic story!! And I felt terribly sorry for her when he had to leave and she had to marry Charles Evenson, an abusive man, against her will. Poor dear, I felt terrible for her. I really admire that she left her horrible husband to save her baby after her parents didn’t help her (what a kind of parents they were… terrible). I think she was really brave. Being alone with a child at that time… Terribly difficult. And when that little baby died… God, I can understand she jumped the cliff. The poor thing felt she’d lost everything, her true love, her child… She was so alone… Poor darling. It was wonderful Carlisle found and changed her. It was wonderful they saw each other again, and even more wonderful Carlisle also fell in love with her and they married. I felt great after knowing their story and I fell in love with it, of course. After all, I’m also a hopeless romantic. Oh, yes, that deleted scene also made me fell in love with this couple. It’s my favourite of the whole movie. I wish I’d seen it before. Shame on who deleted it. It’s such a wonderful scene…
Well, that’s how I fell in love with this couple and started to ship them so hard. I love them and I love their story. It’s one of the best love stories I’ve ever heard about.