cant you just feel the love

Crying;

“As i lay in my bed i cant seem to stop the tears rolling down my face,
Im crying like the mess i am for a number of reasons but they’re all to do with you,
I miss you so much it pains me,
I miss your smell,
I miss the sound of your voice,
I miss the way your hand perfectly fits into mine,
I miss the way you made me feel safe,
I miss the way you just stared at me in the morning and hugged me so tight as if i was going to run away,
I miss the way you held me when i needed it the most,
I miss the way you would stare at me as if i was the most beautiful being alive,
I miss the way you’d play with my hair,
I miss the way i use to give you infinite little kisses,
I miss the way i use to make you laugh and smile,
I miss the way i use to pass out next to you,
I miss the fact you’d go to sleep just because i was tired,
I miss waking up to you,
I miss having you,
I miss being yours,
I miss being your baby,
I miss being your everything.
But mostly i miss my self,
I miss the person i am when i’m with you,
Because when i have you i am my self more then ever.
You have no idea what you mean to me.” - FV

anonymous asked:

i cant believe i got queerbaited for the first time i just??

Here, these two things will make it better.

http://queergirlwriting.tumblr.com/post/157512162494/okay-j-now-that-the-writers-queerbaited-the-fuck

http://queergirlwriting.tumblr.com/post/157509962489/i-feel-so-bad-right-now-because-of-the-episode-and

I mean, not really. It’s awful. It’s awful and it’s a betrayal and it’s just terrible. But. We have each other and we have a beautiful, healthy couple that loves each other and supports each other.

I am sending you so much love, darling. You are not alone, I promise <3 <3 <3

anonymous asked:

Kaylortrash-I listened to Holy ground, this love, you are in love, clean, state of grace, the last time,come back be here,sad beautiful tragic,and the likes because apparently my ipad hates me so rn i'm having some serious Taylor feels and swiftgron feels and kaylor feels and i am sitting in the corner and crying because what an amazing soul taylor swift is and how lucky it would be to meet her and its just not okay that i cant thank her for what she does and im a mess rn & i love her so much

Taylor does have an uncanny knack for giving us all the feels…

anonymous asked:

Someone you started feeling strongly for (and who thought felt strongly for you) suddenly disappearing out of your life for no reason and without a goodbye

cant go home - good old war
gonna get over you - sara bareilles
love has gone - sjowgren
dont just sit there - lucius
heartbreak on the 101 - band of horses
i cant make you love me - bonnie raitt

inbox me a word, feeling, or scenario and ill make you a playlist

Ok so I need yalls help bc I feel like I remember this line from the outsiders abt darry drinking coffee and it goes something like “soda and I could drink it if we wanted but soda can’t stand the taste and it makes me go crazy” bUT I CANT FIND IT ANYWHERE IN THE BOOK DID I JUST IMAGINE THIS LINE
pls help me I don’t know what’s real

Aries: Let yourself heal. Drink enough vodka to clean out the wounds they left on your insides. It’s okay to shatter sometimes and it’s okay to stand for what’s right. Even if everything hurts, just keep breathing.

Taurus: sometimes making excuses isn’t good enough, how dare you deny someone else their pain. Sometimes a situation is just fucked up and that’s all there is too it. Sometimes it can’t be fixed, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.

Gemini: Think about yourself for once. Stop putting people before you, even if it’s me. Let yourself rest you can’t keep running ragged all the god damn time. I know you want to protect everyone but you cant. We love you for it, but you cant.

Cancer: Pain is going to end I swear it will. I know it feels eternal right now. If it’s all you can do to hang on then fucking hang on because you’re strong enough to beat this.

Leo:ย  Learn to keep your lips shut because some things aren’t meant to be shared. I know they aren’t told as secrets or at two am but they are still not to be talked about so damn casually.

Virgo: This time of year is always hard. Always scary. But you can pull through. I believe you. Believe that you’re past the hospital visits and all the scary parts of this. You are past it.

Libra: Sometimes cutting up yourself to give others isn’t the best solution. You are not always the missing puzzle piece. You don’t always belong and you won’t always be enough. That’s okay.

Scorpio: Wrap yourself up in bubble wrap if you have to. Keep yourself from getting hurt. Keep yourself from opening wounds again as hard as it is. I know you’re scared. I am too. But you’ll be okay.

Sagittarius: Sometimes recovery Isn’t linear. I know you’ve been fighting for progress but sometimes all you need is a backslide to get a little strength back. I know it’s not easy. But you’ll be okay.

Capricorn: What are you doing? Seriously. What the hell are you trying to do here? You need to say what the plan is so we can get on board. Because all we can tell right now is you’re exploding. We need to know how to pick up the pieces.

Aquarius: Stop being ashamed. Your scars, your wounds, your damage is nothing to fucking hide. If it makes them uncomfortable tell them to fuck off. This is your life and you should be proud.

Pisces: Learn to stop taking so many risks. Running right to the edge one day you won’t be able to stop. Learn how to pull back sometimes. I know it’s hard but it’s all you can do.

—  This week’s horoscope
appreciation post for mentally ill boys who “dont take care of themselves”

boys who dont or just forget to brush their teeth for days or even weeks.

boys who sleep in the same clothes they wore that day bc they either like the way it feels or dont have the energy to change

boys who dont change their clothes for weeks

boys who have messed up sleeping schedules

boys who dont/cant exercise

boys who only eat junk food bc it makes them feel better

boys who have messy rooms and overflowing trash cans

boys who reek bc they havent showered in a week

boys with uneven, chewed nails

you are all worthy of love. you’re not lazy. you are not ugly. you are not undatable. you’re all AMAZING, and i love you so, SO much <3

I just want to say something because even though i personally haven’t seen it on my dash, I’ve seen post that mention that some people agree with Sonja? Or hate Even?? And that just makes no sense to me so, have this story. 

I don’t have any sort of mental illness but I grew up around someone who does. My aunt. She has schizophrenia. 

Growing up I saw her have a couple of episodes. I heard my mom discuss her medications, her behavior, her doctors appointments. Running off to take care of her during the episodes I didn’t witness. Felt and witnessed the anxiety and fear for my aunts safety and well being. Through all this the one thing I never grew up with? The idea that she was wrong. That she was bad. That she was “crazy”. I never really saw her differently from any other member of my extend family. 

 Her kids though, they had a problem. 

You see, my aunt’s ex husband was not a good guy. He treated her disorder as something to blame on her. As if she somehow brought it on herself. My cousins grew up with the same mentality. There is a lot of other stuff here but I won’t talk about that. The story i want to talk about is this one.

A couple of years after her divorce my aunt met someone. My cousins weren’t thrilled about this. They accused him of taking advantage of my aunt. Then after 2 years of dating and one big episode, my cousins decided to commit her. My aunts boyfriend was having none of that. He fought for her. And he won.  

I remember my mother asking him if he was sure, if he wanted to take on the responsibility of taking care of her. Do you know what he said? He said she’s always been his responsibility because he loves her. 

They’ve been together nearly 20 years. My aunt hasn’t stopped having episodes. She hasn’t stopped taking medication. It’s been ups and downs. But I never ONCE doubted his love for her. HE NEVER ONCE DOUBTED HER LOVE FOR HIM. They have and continue to live a full happy life together.

Having a mental illness does NOT invalidate someones personhood. It does NOT invalidate their emotions. It does NOT invalidate their trauma. It absolutely does NOT make them unlovable or incapable of love. 

In conclusion: Even deserves everything good and pure in the world and Sonja needs to grow up and get that Even doesn’t need a babysitter, he needs a partner. And she clearly isn’t it. 

This is not a love poem
this is an I love you do you love me like
I love you poem
do you know me like
you think you do poem
this is a would you be disappointed
if you did poem
an I have been feeling the chilling of the air
and I cant tell if it is just the fault of the season
or if you, too, are cooling
whatever heat you had for me
browning and falling and
crumbling between my fingers
like the leaves of these oak trees
in november poem
a what would I need to do to keep us warm poem
and this is also
an I may be completely mistaken poem
an it was seventy degrees today poem
this is a show me I am completely mistaken poem
—  A.O.A.M. || This Is Not Love Poem Poem

do you ever just,,,

fall completely and utterly in love with a “fictional” character so hard that it hurts and you wonder if you will ever be able to feel this way about a tangible human being because surely that emotion can’t actually be possible when you feel it towards someone in real life… it’s too STrONg… And like you read so many fanfics but that little empty feeling inside of you just needs more and more and more until you have so many unfinished universes in your head. and you have these few people you just love so dearly and you cant communicate to, but you just want to tell them you’re proud of them in every single universe and you want to hug them but you cant, so you read some more fanfiction and fall asleep with it every night secretly wishing that “fictional character” was the one you fell asleep with?

cuz yeah me too

Do you ever feel like no matter how much you talk no ones actually listening and get to the point where you honestly think it’s better not to say anything if it just won’t be heard?
—  Someone invisible

This is possibly one of the most heartbreaking things Ive ever read.

To see my favourite AH member write something like this…I just cant imagine how he feels. Just want him to be happy after all he’s achieved. And I want people to be happy for him.

Dont be an asshole and if you dont like him, keep your nasty comments to yourself. He honestly doesnt deserve it.

Go show him some love because damn that man deserves a lot after all the shit he has to read !!

Teen Wolf 6x09 spoilers

So instead of doing small posts throughout, i’m gonna do one giant post concerning this episode, so lets get to it.

• #MaliaTheOptimist

• Omg we’re doing the cold remembery thingy we did with Isaac bb

• Sheriff, you don’t have a station full of armed deputies to back u up. srys.

• poor bbs so sed Sheriff nooo

• dont. shoot. theo. (pls)

• “I’m an Atheist, fire at will.” I just got chills idk why someone help me now i’m turned on.

• what is going on theo what OMG YES STILES WAS SMART WOW SHE GREAT SO RIGHT I CANT BELIEVE I LOVE THEO RAEKEN

•in this moment, i remember what theo trash i am :)

• WTF SHERIFF BBY PLS NO HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME

•"theres a lot of keys here!“ "I’m beginning to feel like you’re not even trying here!” Omg

•theo just ran over a ghost rider what a cutiepie

• yay shirtless scott

• #momLydia

• SCYDIA FRIENDSHIP FEELS

•werewolf freezee pop

• Scott Mccall is such a beautiful being

• ALPHA EYES

• Lydia, i can hear you.

• HE IS REMEMBERING SEASON ONE OMG BABYCAKES

• BUZZCUT STILES

•i love this song

• awe Baby Beta Scott

• i love Theo omg yall i am trash

• STILES YOU ARE NOT ROBIN I PROMISE ILY

• “cause you trust everyone” this moment broke my heart

• Scott sweetie pls

• Liam you darling baby too sweet

• Theo you ass why do i love you

• OH SHIT SISSY GONNA KICK YR ASS THEO oh es a memory OK NOW I REMEMBER WHY I LOVE YOU YOU POOR SWEET HURT SOUL

• Ha shittttttttt yall in trouble

• Lost Lydia hurts my heart she is my queen

• ok now shes not lost she is a smart gg babygirl

• YAS LYDIA YOU SWEET SMART PRINCESS I LOVE YOU

• Scott you got this pupper

• open the locker do it do it do it

• this is only half the episode yall must hate me omfg

• “lets play dead like good pups” basically what Liam just said

• QUIT ARGUING OMGEE THEO JUST QUIT BEING PROBLEMATIC YOU TOTAL ASS

•oh shit Liam steppin up..unexpected

•Omg he is remembering the phone call

• YES STILES I DO MISS YOU

• Lydia support yo Alpha

• i wonder which memory is gonna trigger it

• LIKE AN EMOTIONAL CONNECTION LIKE AN EMOTIONAL TETHER

• BROTHERS

• IS IT THAT ONE IS THAT IT IS IT THAT MEMORY YES IT IS

•IM CRYING SO HARD

•SCOTT YOURE MY BEST FRIEND SCOTT YOURE MY BROTHER

• I cant see thru my tears

• this episode is an emotional rollercoaster

• lydia is so pretty

• BABY HIS HANDS ARE SHAKING

• Malia my queen yes IM A HARDCORE STYDIA SHIPPER BUT I AM READY FOR THIS

• Omg so long ago so eichen so far back

• my heart my heart malia pls THE HALE VAULT my sweet sweet children babycakes

• MALIA PLS OPEN YOUR EYES NO PLS

•MALIA YOU DID IT

•MALIA DONT FREEZE YALL BETTER GET HER OUT

• yas #teamwork from my fave and my least fave (no offense i just don’t like Liam)

•Scalia sweet moment yes

•they have so much hope

• omg im sorry malia shes so sad BUT STYDIA YES YES YES

•woah YAS THEO KICK ASS YAS THEO GIVE SASS

•ok liam is an honorable werepuppy and i’m liking him more every second

• THEO U BETTER HOP ON THAT WAGON AND START KICKIN SOME ASS B4 U GO

•THEOS EYES ARE AMAZING

•"you smoked when you were ten?“ "No just bit my fingernails”

• Malia reading is so cute

• Scott reading is so relaxing THIS IS HYPNOSIS WHY AM I TURNED ON

• Omg is she gonna watch their memories YES SHE IS girl now u see how we felt

• THE DANCE AWE

• if Stiles doesnt come back in the end of all this imma sue Jeff Davis for emotional trauma

•YAS THEO

•NO THEO

• as you can tell… i, a theo girl, am very conflicted in this episode.

• *goes to fist bump like cuties* *yeah no*

•THEO I LOVE U BABYCAKES OMFG HE SAVED LIAM I CANT RN I CANT IM SCREAMING CHARACTER REDEMPTION OMFG

•REMEMBER I LOVE YOU SHE REMEMBERS SHE REMEMBERS THE KISS YALL

•real tears yall I had to pause it i’m crying so hard

•they played the song

•WHEN SHE REALIZED SHE LOVED HIM THATS WHEN IT HAPPENED

• shes crying babygirl please dont cry just remember him and be happy and love him and take care of him

•BUT YOU CAN SAY IT BACK

•if this aint stiles imma fight Jeff

•Plsplsplsplsplsplsplspls Please be stiles

• ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

•OK PROMO MADE IT BETTER

ok and with that, my emotionally unstable ass is gonna go cry. Thank you and goodnight folks!

4

“Please Phichit, be serious. Break his heart? Really?”


So I’ve recently been in love with Until my Feet Bleed and Heart Aches by @kazliin and might I just say
h OL Y HOT DAMN ITS SO GOOD 100/10 I CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW IT ENDS

seriously this fic is one of the best and the most well written YOI fics out there.

Me of course, being the drama queen that I am, I have a few ideas on how I think the last two chapters will play through a oh boy howdy I love me some good suffering™. Hey there’s gonna be a happy ending though right?

Right?

(yuuri god dammit just tell this p o or bOY HOW YOU FEEL HIS HEART CAN ONLY TAKE SO M U CH)

I want your Monday morning
sleep soaked eyes
dream drenched voice,
lazy bones
โ€˜five more minutes please babe.โ€™

I want your Tuesday afternoon
coffee break,
glasses off, laughter on
โ€˜just hold me for a while
itโ€™s been a hard day.โ€™

I want your Wednesday evening
fingers through hair
teeth nibbling nails
neck craning, eye glazing
โ€˜this paperwork never endsโ€™

I want your Thursday night
drinks for two
bones unbind
muscles let loose
flats, slacks,
โ€˜just me and youโ€™

I want your finally Friday
stretch soul smile,
sun sipping light
from the glaciers in your eyes
fingers unfurl, hand extends
โ€˜cโ€™mon babe, lets go wildโ€™

I want your weekend.
your movie marathon Saturday
reading by the fireplace
kissing in the blankets
want your Sunday morning
orange juice and pancakes
white sheets, tender skin
hair like the Fourth of July
โ€˜letโ€™s not get out of bed today.โ€™

I want your ordinary
and your stress, rest, release
I want your bad day and that terrible night
I want you drunk in my arms
forgetting the place but never my name
I want your lazy and your lonely
and your fist full of fight
I want you everyday
in every way
for the rest of my life.

— 

yet unknown writer

This is the kind of love I want to find one day.

(found it on Berlin-artparasites –someone pls find me the author of this quote)

** My favourites

Lazy Saturdays and Eskimo Kissesย (1/1 | 3,970 | Rated E) **

Even spends the weekend with Isak being cute and getting up to some shenanigans.

The aftermath (8/8 | 8,297 | Rated T) **

Since Skam is on hiatus till the 14th hereโ€™s my every day fanfiction of what I think Isak is going through after the events of Episode 5. Itโ€™ll cover all the 8 days until Skam comes back.

And if they taste the same, would you love again? (4/4 | 5,700 | Rated M) **

Itโ€™s like we are running our own private marathon yet we are lying there absolutely still apart from the breathing and my sobs that I just cant control. Because how can he not want this? How can he not feel whatever cosmic shit is happening when were together? I am so angry at him, I am so scared, and I havenโ€™t got a fucking clue where we go from here, apart from that at this moment in time I donโ€™t care. I just need him. I need him to tell me its alright, that he is mine, and that it was all a fucking mistake. But he doesnโ€™t. Instead he just kisses me. And itโ€™s fucking breathtaking.

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