cant say what i want to say

Just did my second open night (performing an original song I wrote!!!) and the venue wants us to do a whole show!!! I’m SO excited :D :D :D Here’s our performance (I’m on guitar, the girl with the amazing voice is my friend Sara) and the lyrics are below!

You’ve got this look in your eye/that’s telling em something/you’ve got this twist in your smile/thats making me weak/youve got a million little details that i want to carve out/youve got this recklessness and wonder that i cant figure out/but with our lips intertwined/i feel it course through me/you say/enough of playing pretend/you want things just to want things/and i say/we lose love to find it again/do you want me, say you want me/i could spend my whole life/watching you watch me/i hope you know what i mean/i dont want to sound creepy/its just im pretty sure i get addicted to people/i get high off their humor i get drunk from their evil/and im pretty sure/im addicted to you/your eyes may shine/your lips might/ lie/but i dont know if i dont try/enough stop playing pretend/i want you so damn badly/if we lose love we’ll find it again/do you want me, say you want me

I don’t want to offend anyone but I cringe really hard whenever someone talks about songs like take what you want, bedroom warfare and even paper planes as if they’re the BEST one ok rock songs ever
Like wtf no…..

if u want me to just say i experience cis privilege in my about instead to make it more suitable(sorry idk the word) and to avoid further confusion i will i do not want to seem rude and i do not want to seem dismissive to what ur saying

when i was like 14, i once wore contact lenses instead of glasses to school bc i had just learned how to put them on and i wanted to show them to my friends right, and this one guy goes and tells me “i thought girls were supposed to become beautiful when they stopped wearing glasses. something obviously went wrong with you” and that was??? so incredibly rude i wanted to cry but i just stood there not knowing what to say bc i honestly thought we were friends

but the girl sitting in front of him (who was also his crush, mind u) hears him and turns around with the most disgusted expression on her face, and calls him out on it like “omg i cant believe you said that have you even seen yourself in a mirror you have no right to tell her shit” and then she turns to me and says “dont listen to him, you look gorgeous with or without glasses” and she probably already forgot about that but i always remember it whenever i feel self-conscious about myself

so the moral of the story is: if u see someone being a jerk to someone else, dont laugh along and call them out on it. stick together and bring all the fuckboys down

I just want to say something because even though i personally haven’t seen it on my dash, I’ve seen post that mention that some people agree with Sonja? Or hate Even?? And that just makes no sense to me so, have this story. 

I don’t have any sort of mental illness but I grew up around someone who does. My aunt. She has schizophrenia. 

Growing up I saw her have a couple of episodes. I heard my mom discuss her medications, her behavior, her doctors appointments. Running off to take care of her during the episodes I didn’t witness. Felt and witnessed the anxiety and fear for my aunts safety and well being. Through all this the one thing I never grew up with? The idea that she was wrong. That she was bad. That she was “crazy”. I never really saw her differently from any other member of my extend family. 

 Her kids though, they had a problem. 

You see, my aunt’s ex husband was not a good guy. He treated her disorder as something to blame on her. As if she somehow brought it on herself. My cousins grew up with the same mentality. There is a lot of other stuff here but I won’t talk about that. The story i want to talk about is this one.

A couple of years after her divorce my aunt met someone. My cousins weren’t thrilled about this. They accused him of taking advantage of my aunt. Then after 2 years of dating and one big episode, my cousins decided to commit her. My aunts boyfriend was having none of that. He fought for her. And he won.  

I remember my mother asking him if he was sure, if he wanted to take on the responsibility of taking care of her. Do you know what he said? He said she’s always been his responsibility because he loves her. 

They’ve been together nearly 20 years. My aunt hasn’t stopped having episodes. She hasn’t stopped taking medication. It’s been ups and downs. But I never ONCE doubted his love for her. HE NEVER ONCE DOUBTED HER LOVE FOR HIM. They have and continue to live a full happy life together.

Having a mental illness does NOT invalidate someones personhood. It does NOT invalidate their emotions. It does NOT invalidate their trauma. It absolutely does NOT make them unlovable or incapable of love. 

In conclusion: Even deserves everything good and pure in the world and Sonja needs to grow up and get that Even doesn’t need a babysitter, he needs a partner. And she clearly isn’t it. 

i would do anything to just see her again let alone be with her….

~ i never thought that i would reach almost 40k on here when all i posted on here for was just to let out what it is i cant let out in person and im glad you all message me and actually ask me whats going on in my life and giving me the chance to say what i really want to say so thank you all <3

also ill be showing you all what i look like very soon sooo be ready :’p

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Tamasama cuteness:

1. Describing baby TMS chapi first impression

2. “I’M GONNA READ CHAPI’S HEART” 

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31 days of Muse
Day 31 - Appreciation post: Muse

“For me, Muse is about getting the hopes, dreams, desires, frustrations out of your system that you wouldn’t normally be able to do. It’s about showing people that there are things inside buried that should be exposed, and having no shame about them. We can communicate no matter the environment.” - Matt Bellamy

boffinholmes  asked:

alsjfja ok so I just watched the English leak and. in the scene where sherlock meets eurus for the first time, you can't really hear what they're saying when it keeps cutting to the scene with mycroft and john but if you listen closely, she keeps saying "I want to meet your wife" and she keeps talking about sherlocks wife AND THEN after seeing john she mysteriously shuts up about it wtf???

WHATKT KLDKLJSDFLG I CANT GET THE LINK SO WORK BUT THIS IS GREAT 

so a big part of gilmore girls is obviously the battling of social classes. lorelai in working class and her parents in the upper class— which leaves rory somewhere in between. there has always been an issue between lorelai and her parents about where rory really belongs. in season 5/6, this comes to a climax that, according to the fans, is pretty much the worst thing to happen in this show. rory steals a boats and then quits school and lives with her grandparents.

but here’s the thing: it’s not out of character.

even though everyone likes to paint rory as being level headed and frequently use the pro/cons list as an example of this, that is not always the case. rory has a history of making impulse decisions based on her feelings. past examples of this are:

  • running away & shoplifting after dean kisses her
  • yelling at the class once she is late for her AP test
  • making a speech in the s1 finale based on her feelings for dean
  • goes to new york in 2.21 to see jess
  • kissing jess at sookie’s wedding bc she likes him even though she’s with dean
  • sleeping with dean

yes, she makes pro/con lists. but you know why she probably does that? because she recognizes that a lot of her past mistakes are done on impulse decisions. of course she’s afraid of making the wrong decision she does it all of the time. 

right before she steals the boat, she is told by one of her journalistic heroes that she doesn’t have what it takes to be a journalist. her dream job. she is, understandably, upset. of course she doubts herself and her abilities. i am not surprised that she stole the boat and im not surprised that she quit school.

bad decision? yes. out of character? no.

Exo-L's and Armies are starting to make me mad... and I'm a fan of both

I want to start off by saying I’m pretty sure we can all agree that both groups have worked their asses off this year.

This whole fan war needs to stop… Exo-L’s stop saying EXO deserved the award and BTS didn’t and Armies stop bashing Exo-L’s for being disappointed that EXO didn’t get the award and saying EXO hasn’t done anything all year.

Every fan is supporting their group that’s what a fan does but bashing other groups is wrong… EXO and BTS both deserved that award! Yes BTS won and I am so proud but that doesn’t mean EXO didn’t work just as hard this year…

THESE 2 GROUPS ARE FRIENDS AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER SO WHY CANT THEIR FANS!!!

AS FANS WE HELP MAKE THE GROUP IMAGE! I CAN TELL YOU I DON’T WANT SOMEONE TO LOOK AT EXO AND SAY OMG THEIR FANS ARE SO PETTY BECAUSE THEY DIDN’T WIN AN AWARD. IM PRETTY SURE DON’T SEE EXO ACTING LIKE 7 YEAR OLDS GOING TO BTS AND SAYING “YOU DON’T DESERVE THAT, WE WORKED MUCH HARDER THAN YOU” NO THEY WENT AND CONGRATULATED THEM! Sure they were probably disappointed like their fans but they are choosing to act mature about it.

AND I CAN ALSO TELL YOU AS AN ARMY I DON’T WANT PEOPLE LOOKING AT BTS LIKE WOW THOSE ARE SORE WINNERS RUBBING IT IN EXO-L’s AND OTHER FANS FACES SAYING THEIR GROUP DID NOTHING ALL YEAR WHEN YOU KNOW DARN WELL THAT ISNT TRUE!!

Think about how the boys would want you to act about it…

I am so proud of BTS and EXO for working so hard to make their fans happy… award or no award I will always support them 

 You should too

anonymous asked:

If you didn't want ppl asking you about it you shouldn't have brought it up at all even talking about it is an invasive of privacy I had faith in you Avery

its…. really not that deep fam

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the accent tag
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@95shua tagged me in this accent tag, and I did it immediately bc running my mouth for 6min30sec is infinitely easier for me than any other thing i could possibly do, ever. so here’s my voice, although my truest accent doesn’t come out unless i’m talking to other trinidadians. enjoy!(?)

i’ll tag @hocidi (mar i miss your voice) @woozifi (in case you needed a lil extra incentive) @boyfriend-hoshi @mermaid-kin @mattelodchikova @bekahsinghaling @autumn-sapphic, but you don’t have to do it…

Questions:

  • what’s your name and username?
  • where are you from?
  • what’s the time where you are?
  • pronounce the following words: meme, pepe, doge, sudoku, espresso, celtic, açaí, dr. suess
  • what’s your favorite pizza place? favorite pizza topping?
  • what’s your favorite dessert?
  • what’s your favorite food? what food do you hate?
  • what’s your favorite tv show? which tv show were you into, but then got out of?
  • what brand is your phone?
  • do you speak a second language?
  • how do you define a group of people when you’re talking to them? do you say ‘guys’ or ‘dudes’ or?
  • which harry potter house do you most identify with? if sorted by Pottermore, do you agree with the one you got?
  • is there something you should be doing right now but are procrastinating?

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