cant do my homework

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and when the lights start flashing like a photobooth
and the stars exploding
we’ll be fireproof

—troye sivan “youth” / © hoshi majoo

au where everything is the same except im a responsible human being

THEORY TIME 3 (more spoilers)

ok its been about 2 hours and ive been thinking about nothing but gotham. lovely. SO:

WHAT WE KNOW

-ed knows oswald killed isabella, ed knows oswald loves him. dandy

-ed imagined himself stabbing oswald. also just….. dandy. :)

-ed did not actually stab oswald! its a step in the right direction at least!! (silver lining, people)

-oswald doesnt know ed knows he killed isabella

-ed is now teamed up with babs and tabs and butchie (i need a name for them)

-oswald does not know that ed is teamed up with his enemies. oh goodie.

WHAT WE WANT TO KNOW

-is ed actually betraying oswald

or

-is ed tricking BT&B

THINGS TO REMEMBER

-the entire “love is a weakness” spiel might come up again later (in what context idk? 

ed: “love was my weakness and i let myself be betrayed by you because of it.”

ed: “love was your weakness and you let yourself be betrayed by me because of it”

oswald: “love really is my greatest weakness, the only thing it’s brought is pain, im never going to love anyone again and im going to kill everyone forever, bye”

-”i would betray him in a heartbeat” - 2 options here

        1. it comes back in that it really was just a trick, eddie really meant it when         he said this and he would never ever betray oswald

        2. eddie was telling the truth here, he really would betray oswald at his               first chance

-”i would do anything for you oswald” (idk but this seemed PRETTY HEARTFELT to me). but just how far does “anything” really go??

-”good luck” in 3x05 in parallel with “remember that” from this episode. i mentioned this in a different post, but possibly the same kind of warning? a “everything is going to go wrong and itll seem like im betraying you but itll be fine in the end, love u bby, xoxo”

-eddie always has a plan, and he can always read people. babs is very obviously manipulating him; what does he really have to gain from helping them? they wont give him power after oswald is taken care of, and he knows that.

-very specific wording of “i dont want to kill oswald” (also “i want to take away everything he loves” but oswald doesnt love anything. except him. he should know that)

-ed looked super conflicted in that book award scene. after oswald talked to him, he came to some sort of decision. we dont know exactly what that decision was, whether it was to start forgiving oswald or fully commit to hating him forever. (im praying for the former)

MY PREDICTIONS/PERSONAL PET THEORY

-ed is actually just tricking BT&B. the way he acted in the sirens scene was odd to me; he didnt look genuine when he was telling them he wants to help them. plus that smile at the end looked completely faked/manipulative

-ed really does want to see oswald suffer, but he doesnt want him to really get hurt. he honestly cares about oswald (“youre my best friend as well”) but he also cared about isabelle (excuse me, isabellaaaa). he wants revenge and closure

-he’ll use BT&B to get his revenge (enter Elijah) then he’ll go back to oswald (”you needed to feel how i did, you needed to get your heart broken too, yadda yadda yadda, some big speech”)

-ed sees babs as a threat to his own/ozzies power/the general balance that needs to be taken care of ASAP (”what’s your motive”) and wants to do so by acting as a double agent. he can’t tell oswald because “your reactions needed to be genuine” (tbt)

HOW IT MIGHT TURN OUT

-absurd optimism:

ed really was just playing double agent like in 3x05, he comes back to oswald, they miraculously end up together and smooch and everything is heavenly

-logical pessimism:

ed really does hate oswald, he starts a war and does everything in his power to hurt him, they eventually end up in a neutral antagonism situation where theyll never be friends again but theyre not actively trying to kill each other so hey, thats a plus. ed goes full riddler, oz goes full penguin, they both turn into completely heartless supervillains and never care about anyone else ever again.

-other:

ed betrays both oswald and BT&B, takes power for himself. congrats, everyone hates you and you have no friends, good job loser. 

(-other other:

i really wish they would resolve that whole isabella nonsense and actually tell us whether or not she was a plant to cause drama b/w ed and ozzie. otherwise i guess itll just be left forever and she really is just an abnormally normal person. great.)


im tentatively non-pessimistic (bordering on cautiously optimistic). i still expect it to turn out in the worst most painful possible way, but there is a minuscule remote chance that it could end ok, or even almost happily! im going to hang onto this hope so i dont implode over the next 2 months. bye

which side of the coin are you on?

it has occurred to me that I can only ‘function’ when my time is being appropriated by someone else

by this, i mean that I can wash hundreds of dishes at work (the appropriation of time and labor) without a problem, but getting myself to wash my own dishes at home in my own time is like pulling teeth.

I can focus in lecture alright and I can learn from the lecture, but I cant get myself to do any homework in my own time

I wonder if this may have something to do with the fact that our childhoods are built around the appropriation of time, in the form of 6+ hour school days

as a result of having most of my waking time appropriated throughout my childhood I have no idea how to function outside of that condition

does any of this make sense

anonymous asked:

I CANT GET TO DO MY HOMEWORK BECAUSE IM TOO COMERNCED ABOUT MY GENDER IDENTITY FFS WHAT DO I DO I DONT WAN TTO DO CALCULUS IM DEPRESSED HELP (I'm being serious yet overdramatic)

Sounds like its time to take a small break.

• Take a shower 

• Get something to eat

• Take a walk

I’m not sure the concerns you have about your gender identity but I can tell you this. By finishing your homework you ensure that you are staying in school, which ensures you will get a good job, which means you can afford to do whatever you want, transition however you like etc. 

Kyle

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