cannot express how much i love this movie

Dear Self,

I know how you’ve been feeling today. Your life feels empty, and the sad truth is that you have nobody to blame for anything that’s happened . Unlike most people, you haven’t blamed yourself, because you know that you have done everything in your capacity to make things work, to make things happen. I know how ambitious you are, and you do everything you need to do to make your parents proud, to make them happy again. You have no one to share your pain with. Mainly since your pain isn’t because of some tragic accident or loss of life, neither is it because of a sappy breakup or a nasty flu.

But you can feel your true self breaking down a little bit more with every passing day. There’s so much you want to do and so much you want to achieve and you know that you have it in you, yet it’s always a dead end.

You look back in time and see a different version of yourself, someone you can’t recognize now. You have no idea how to define yourself any more. You were a social maniac and have always found yourself the most comfortable among people, lots and lots of people, friends, foes, family, strangers and you managed to plant a seed of memory into everyone you’ve ever met.

Now you’re uncomfortable to be around people, you repel even making a healthy eye contact with someone passing by. I know you aren’t scared or tense to interact with them - to ask how they’re doing, but you’ve lost the urge to make bonds anymore.

You’ve met all kinds of people, seen through each one of them but you’ve realized that no matter how well you know and understand them, you walk right into a boulder beyond which you cannot see, beyond which you know there’s a spot where all their weaknesses lie, and you peek between the brick walls and recoil back - you have seen the ugly side.

This side of them is nasty and no matter what is said or done following it, you’ve lost your trust, you just can’t go back to square one all over again. You know you can never be the same with them again. And as you walk away from them, you know they’ve taken off a small chunk out of you. These chunks total up to the whole of you and you lose yourself running away from them. You cannot risk losing anymore. So you walk alone, and everyday you die a little more.

You now focus on the few people you trust and you’d do anything for them. I know very well how greatly you suck at expressing your love towards these people, somehow you feel that if you reveal it to them you’ll lose the love you have for them, they’re eager and hope to hear it from you. Your family wants to hear you say that you love them. But you just cannot, because you’ve never learned how to. You’ve never told anyone confidently the way they show it movies, to confess love. You love them too much, it’s scary to say it out loud. But you show it in ways nobody ever does.

You have your own weird ways, only if they could listen. Only if they could listen when you scream at them and cry out of guilt the very next moment, when you swear at them now and internally curse yourself next, when you ignore them because you do not want to say you’re sorry, when you plan big to see them happy, when you struggle to smile even as you’re dying inside only so that they don’t sense your sadness.

You are scared to express that you are vulnerable and you are scared to admit that you are scared. You prefer to be an emotionless robot to them, because you’ll never be able to prove how much you really care. They distance themselves from you naturally, and again, you die a little bit inside.

But you know you’re amazing at being a lioness when you want to, your wounds make you stronger and that’s how you like seeing yourself - a lioness on the hunt. And you walk with all your pride as you walk by the people that you’d rather have by your side, again you die a little inside, yet you walk alone with all your pride.


Loads of Love,
Self.

- J.E.M

anonymous asked:

I think i have an ask down your ally idk yet tho. Okay so *cough cough* mc fangirling over a tv show (supernatural,marvel,sherlock,doctor who,harry potter, etc) for the fist time in front of them

(I’m actually a massive nerd and had loads of fun writing these)

Yoosung:

  • “YOOSUNG THEY’RE DOING A WEEKS WORTH OF SCREENINGS OF EVERY PHASE ONE MARVEL FILM!!!!!!”
  • holy shit
  • he didn’t know you liked marvel
  • how did he not know
  • how did he not know
  • how did he not know
  • he just jumps up and grabs hold of you, pulling you into his arms so tightly
  • “holy shit you are perfect”
  • “we have to go and see them”
  • you totally dress up for every film
  • endless roleplaying opportunities I mean what
  • it’s so expensive but neither of you care
  • this is the best thing ever
  • he cannot believe you’re actually real he didn’t realise girls were so into this sort of stuff
  • as much as he loves the movies he spends most of them just watching you and your reactions
  • he loves how you lean forwards in your chair as though to get closer, and he loves how your facial expressions change so dramatically as you’re watching
  • he gets a bit nervous when it gets to Captain America and he possessively puts his arm around you when Chris Evans comes on screen
  • oh Yoosung you cutie

Zen:

  • he comes home from work one day to see you sitting on the sofa cross legged with a blanket over your head and staring intently at the screen of the tv
  • he chuckles softly at how cute you look
  • he comes over and flops down next to you, snaking his arm around you
  • he’s surprised when you don’t respond to his touch as you usually do
  • then he sees your face
  • you’re crying??
  • holy shit he hadn’t even noticed
  • he looks at the screen and sees… it’s Doctor Who??
  • why are you crying at Doctor Who??
  • because it’s the freaking Doomsday episode are you serious
  • he just wraps his arms around you and watches to the end with you
  • when it finishes you collapse into his arms, wiping the tears away
  • “have you never seen that episode before?” he asks softly, stroking your hair
  • “hm? oh, no, I’ve watched it loads of times”
  • “what?? then why were you crying?”
  • “HE NEVER GOT TO TELL ROSE HE LOVES HER”
  • Yikes™
  • but then he steers the conversation to other episodes
  • you have so much passion for this show?? like you seem to know absolutely every episode in detail
  • you end up spending an entire night watching it
  • he’d never been massively into Doctor Who before, but seeing how much you love it just gets him so excited and causes him to love it too

Jaehee:

  • she comes home from work one day to find you starting intensely at the screen
  • she looks at the tv to see what you’re watching
  • PORN??!!?
  • WHY ARE YOU WATCHING PORN ON THE TV
  • "oh my god what are you doing?!” she exclaims
  • poor girl is blushing so hard
  • "oh god Jaehee, you chose a bad time, it’s Game of Thrones”
  • when she tells you she’s never watched it you scream
  • WHAT??!
  • you drag her to sit on the sofa with you and put in season one
  • she’s so confused at first
  • “wait, who’s that?” “is that the queen?” “WAIT THAT’S HER TWIN??!” “WHY ARE THEY DOING THAT?!?” “WHY DO YOU WATCH THIS?!”
  • she is absolutely outraged at first
  • you actually find it hilarious, but as you get further into it she falls in love with it
  • she still constantly asks questions
  • SHE IS SO SHOCKED WHEN THE FIRST MAJOR CHARACTER DIES
  • ARE TV SHOWS ALLOWED TO DO THAT??????
  • HOLY SHIT
  • you’ve already watched it all so many times, so you spend most of the time watching her reactions
  • it’s so funny because every character she claims as her favourite is going to end up dying and you just have to sit there stifling your laughter
  • the gore and sex scenes start affecting her less and less
  • until the red wedding
  • she refuses to watch it for days after that

Jumin:

  • he wonders why you watch so much stuff on your laptop rather than his huge tv
  • one day he asks you
  • “I… oh… I watch sort of embarrassing stuff”
  • he convinces you to get your favourite tv show and put it on so he can watch it with you
  • he wants to bond with you
  • he smiles when he sees how you’re so excited at just the opening sequence
  • you’re actually shaking are you okay
  • he doesn’t expect to be impressed to be honest
  • but then Sherlock does his deductions and he is hooked
  • does he have a crush on Benedict Cumberbatch?? probably
  • when he finds out there are only three episodes per season and only three season he flips out
  • he rewatches it with you all the time while waiting for the next season
  • honey that’s gonna take a while
  • his favourite is season one
  • at one point you actually walk in on him watching it without you and you just grin
  • Mission Success
  • who knew commoner tv was so good?

707:

  • one day he walks in on you and you slam your laptop shut quickly
  • he raises an eyebrow at you
  • “what are you doing?”
  • “nothing”
  • he jumps on the bed next to you, attempting to wrestle the laptop from you
  • “you’re not watching porn, are you? because I’m happy to join you”
  • oh my god
  • “no! you’ll think it’s dumb”
  • he managed to get the laptop from you and opens it to a paused shot of the Quidditch match in Philosopher’s Stone
  • you bury your head in your hands
  • “you’re watching Harry Potter?” he asks
  • you murmur into your hands
  • that’s… that’s not exactly what you’re doing…
  • he plays the video and realises it’s a fan video you’re making
  • “oh my god this is so cool!!!” he says enthusiastically
  • “…really?”
  • “yes! I love Harry Potter”
  • turns out he’s just as much of a nerd as you are
  • you end up marathoning all eight movies back to back (it takes like 18 hours but you don’t care)
  • he giggles when you start squealing at particular bits and actually starts whispering the lines into your ear as you lie on his chest
  • relationship goals
  • you both end up quoting it the entire way through and constantly comparing them to the books and how you would change it if you remade them
  • and you cry over the marauders
  • why did they have to die?!?!
  • seven just laughs
  • “I’m glad they’re dead”
  • “WHAT?! are you serious??”
  • “yes “ *dramatic pause* “dead sirius”
  • you hit him in the face with a pillow
J. Edgar

SO. FUCKING. GAY.

I cannot express to you how gay this movie was. Like, it was a good movie, really REALLY good, and a “spy” movie at that. I love spy movies. All of ‘em.

BUT THIS WAS FUCKIN GAY

I knew J. Edgar Hoover was a Homosexual, but Damn, I did not think that this movie was going to give him that much representation.

Check it out:

I mean, this is the first thing that Clyde said to J. Edgar when Edgar asked him to be his “Number 2 man”:

Gay. As. Shit. 

Loved it, Most outstanding feature: Editing. 10/10

“When I say love, the sound comes out of my mouth and it hits the other person’s ear, travels through this byzantine conduit in their brain through their memories of love or lack of love, and they register what I’m saying and they say yes, they understand. But how do I know they understand? Because words are inert. They’re just symbols. They’re dead, you know? And so much of our experience is intangible. So much of what we perceive cannot be expressed. It’s unspeakable. And yet you know, when we communicate with one another and we feel that we have connected and we think that we’re understood I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion. And that feeling might be transient, but I think it’s what we live for.”

“WAKING LIFE” - DIRECTOR:RICHARD LINKLATER

Happy 25th ‘Beauty and the Beast’!

Originally posted by samuelclaflins

Originally posted by spiceyoursillylife

I cannot express enough how much this movie means to me.

I remember first watching it when I was 4, and just… completely falling in love with it, watching it so many times till I actually got sick of it for a while, and simply shelved it away. 

That is, until depression and a whole flood of other mental disorders I never wanted or asked for hit me while I was in middle school like a frickin’ bullet train. Those were probably some of the darkest years of my life.

And, I remember one day, when I was too unmotivated too work, and when a lot of unhealthy thoughts and memories had just resurfaced in my mind, I had been randomly going through youtube videos, when I stumbled upon a clip of the ‘Be Our Guest’ scene from the 1991 movie as it popped up in my ‘Recommended’ list. I remember clicking it, watching it, and falling in love with the movie all over again. The gorgeous score, the spell-bindingly beautiful animation, and story all combined into one just made me cry.

‘Beauty and the Beast’ has gotten me through the hardest of times; it’s given me hope and happiness when I needed it most. It was a story that made me believe in love and compassion, and taught me valuable lessons that still resonate with me to this day. Particularly: To never judge one’s character by their outward appearance. It just completely changed me. For the better.

And… I just adore this movie to pieces. 

Happy 25th ‘Beauty and the Beast’

May you continue to enchant audiences of all ages, for generations to come!

Originally posted by tybalt-tisk

Wonder Woman was so so wonderful.  I honestly cannot express how much I loved this movie.  It reminded me of how amazed I was that Rey ended up being the Jedi.  Seeing Diana and all of the Amazons just be complete bad asses was the most wonderful thing.  I was tearing up through the whole damn movie.  Please go see this lovely film! 

anonymous asked:

Talk about you best friend ! -

OKKK So my best friend @ofcoursenora is my literal savior bc we became amazing friends when we were both depressed and going thru shit but we helped each other get out of so many toxic relationships and we’ve grown together and we love all of the same movies, music, and stuff like that and she’s just the sunshine in my life and love her sm and I would die for her but she makes me want to live and we can read each other’s minds and she’s the only person I don’t have to explain myself around she just fucking gets it and I love her sm I want to live with her and eat vegan food and walk out dogs and watch movies and I love her to the ends of the universe and back and she is my number one priority at all times and she’s gonna read this and cry good job anon!! But I love her so much words cannot express it I MEE to make a sculpture or a painting or a song abt how much I love her

forceprotected  asked:

❤️ :)))

@forceprotected

Mutuals send me a ❤️ & I’ll compliment you.

first off; i love chirrut so, so, so much & like everyone else in that movie, i wanted to wrap him in a blanket & protect him from the world. i just cannot even properly express just how much i love him bc this answer might become a novel :P. from what i’ve seen, your portrayal of him is so spot on. chirrut is one of those characters that are complex & you really bring him to life in the best way ever. keep doing what you’re doing cause it’s definitely working xo

Re: Rapunzel's Blonde Hair in the Tangled Series
  • Me: Hello, Stephen! I saw your post regarding the Tangled series. I am a HUGE fan of the movie and Tangled Ever After. Rapunzel and Eugene are my favorite Disney characters of all time. I'm really looking forward to the series as well!
  • Me: I have a question, though. By posting that image of Rapunzel and Maximus, are you confirming that she's going to have long blonde hair in the series? If so, is it at least explained how it got that way after being cut? (Obviously, you're under no obligation to answer me, and I'm not looking for details, just a yes-or-no answer.) I'm one of the forefront Tangled fandom leaders on Tumblr, and I like having all the information I can possibly have, especially because people will ask me what I know.
  • Me: Thank you so much for your time reading this, even if you don't respond. I cannot express how excited I am to be getting a series, and so close after getting the musical on the Disney Dream! It just goes to show that my endless love for this movie and these characters is shared and acknowledged by Disney staff, which is very gratifying. Thank you for all the hard work you do, and all the amazing things you help create.
  • Stephen Sandoval, Director of the Tangled Series: Hello, there. Without getting into specifics (for obvious reasons 😉!), most will be explained very early on in the series, although there will be a few surprises that will unfold over time. Like you, I'm a huge fan of the film and I and everyone involved with the TV show is doing their very best to honor what you love about our princess and her continuing story. This isn't going to be your typical princess show because Raps isn't your typical princess. She's smart and wise yet a little innocent and somewhat naive about the world. She's going to learn and grow within our series by doing what we all do when growing up: She's going to make mistakes along her journey and also have some well-earned victories, too. We really hope you enjoy it and can't wait for you and the world to see it. Thank you for your support and stay in touch!