Two years ago yesterday I started this trip. I thought about that all day yesterday, and about how far I’ve come in two years. Not just literally (3,229 miles) but figuratively as well.
For those who don’t know, I found out I had colon cancer while on this tour in 2015. I started with stage II, which was aggressively treated with chemo and radiation. Six months later a follow up scan revealed more cancer. I was suddenly Stage III and required immediate surgery, which I had on June 9, 2016. I was in the hospital for a week and exactly one year to the day that I got out of the hospital (June 16th) I was back on the bike and cycling out of Fort Nelson, BC.
I don’t know what the immediate future holds for me, none of us do really. But what I do know is that time is compressing for us all and I absolutely will not sit around waiting….
Yesterday marks the day I had a full thyroidectomy. That day will forever be etched in my brain. That day was the scariest day of my life but at the same time was the most enlightening day of my life. That day I realized how little control I had over my life and what happens in it, that day I had to let go of control, throw my hands up in the air, and surrender. I surrendered myself to fate, whatever happened was going to happen. I have taken this analogy into my daily life, at times it is hard and I need constant reminders. I remind myself that everything happens for a reason and to see the good in EVERYTHING, even if its so small. My mind and my body have come so far in this year, I am fully recovered, happy, healthy and cancer free!
I know I haven’t been on this blog in a while, but here’s an update that I am asking everyone to please read. As some of you may know, I was diagnosed with pediatric cancer at 16 in 2014. I went through 7 months of chemo radiation. I lost all of my hair, lost my ability to walk, had a feeding tube, and just overall felt terrible. In April of 2015, i finished chemo and was all set and ready to start my Senior year of high school in August. In September, I got to see one of my favorite artists of all time, Taylor, in Columbus, Ohio. I had been waiting YEARS to see her, and it was truly one of the best nights of my life. I continued to run this blog, up until January of 2016, when my 9 month post chemo scans showed relapse of my cancer. I was devastated. I had to put everything on hold and restart chemo. I had 40 days of inpatient chemo, spaced out as 5 day every 3 weeks. The chemo killed my immune system, so I was stuck in quarantine and had to miss events like graduation practice, senior picnic, senior pranks, and senior skip day. I lost all of my hair again, and overall wanted to die. I finished chemo and radiation in August of 2016, but my post chemo scans weren’t clear. My liver tumors were gone, but new nodules showed up in my lungs. My doctors didnt know what it was, so I had to have part of my right lung taken out and was inpatient in the hospital for another 8 days, with a chest tube. On October 17, 2016, I found out that the nodules that were taken out were all pneumonia, and that I am cancer free. Throughout all of this, Taylor has helped me. I still love her to pieces. I was recently at a CancerFREE Kids gala where I was honored as being a pediatric cancer survivor. There was a silent auction, where I saw an autographed picture of Taylor. Immediately, I bid on it, and kept it up all night, but at the last minute of the silent auction, was outbid and lost the picture. I was devastated to say the least, really hoping that I would my idol’s autograph meant so much to me. I’m writing this in hopes that if it gets enough reblogs, Taylor will see this and maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to tell her how much she means to me. I love her with all of my heart, and Taylor, if you see this, I love you so much and you mean the world to me.
Prayers for my mom.
Hi, I ask prayers 🙏🏽for a miracle in my mom’s body, Pray that doctors cannot find cancer, Please I beg you to pray for her healing to be cancerfree, she’s very important for me. Godbless you my dear brothers and sisters Love you all
1. Thank you everyone for their comments, messages, kiks, texts, prayers, etc. Truly filled me with love and support through this rough and difficult ordeal.
2. The doctors got everything meaning cancerous tumors upon cancerous tumors are all gone! Surgery was a total success! They had to replace my shoulder join because there was more damage than expected. And for the reconstruction part my humerus bone is now made of metal.
3. There are always complications to everyone surgery. Fortunately for me I didn’t need any blood transfusion but I am borderline anemic. There was risk of me losing mobility on right hand because they basically had to move and work around some important nerves, tendons, muscles, and tissues. Doctor assured me she’d do everything in her power to repair the damage. My wrist is basically fused, no up or down movement but I can make a fist and wiggle my fingers. Can’t extend my elbow much. My heart rate is unstable meaning elevated too fast, mostly due to pain.
4. Now, pain, it’s like whoa! I’ve even felt like I’m gonna pass out from it. I was actually supposed to go home yesterday but they couldn’t discharge me until the pain management plan they came up with for when at home worked properly here at hospital without any need for a shot of anything. And let me tell you I was on some hard stuff and it still wasn’t controlling it. Last night was the first night I was able to sleep well without any “break through” pain (as they call it), which is the worst. The oxy’s and roxy’s are doing their job. Unfortunately in very high doses. That means bad news to my bowel movements and appetite.
5. My arm is in a sling 24/7. For being a righty I could do a far amount of things on my left hand. Typing with literally 1 finger takes forever and not as easy as I thought. Not allowed to hold anything with my right. Taking it day by day ‘cause the difficult part hasn’t started yet, ugh therapy.
5. (Ps) All and all I’m content with the outcome. Christmas in the hospital was better than nice. My 2 best friends came to visit, my bestie cousin came over with my tia and other cousin, mom and the sister too. What more could I ask for? I got everything I wanted! Never did I ever spend any Christmas with all the people I love all at once.
Tuesday October 18th “Beautiful” will drop on itunes. All proceeds will be for the American Cancer Society! Talib Kweli, Mela Mochinko, Big K.R.I.T., and Outasight got together with Coalmine Records! Just knowing these artists colabed you know they killed it. This means so much to me as a Cancer (Leukemia) survivor but also because I start off the song by speaking on the intro <3 please spread the word and buy it on tuesday :D
I’m cancer free - This is the best thing, I can’t even.. I can’t speak. I’m at my moms now, and I’ve been in contact with my roomies too and my family today and I’m just so happy! Happy but tired <3 oh dear! Almost 1 year with pain, suffering, ups and downs… everything. Wow.. now it’s over!