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  • tw: suicide mention (passive), abuse mention, religion, DID
  • This is a positive post despite the dark topics mentioned.

If you don’t want to know about my serious mental health stuff, skip this post. I’m not putting it under a read more because I want to teach myself to be proud that I survived and that I am not faking and that a professional validated me.


Today I had occupational and cognitive therapy in the morning and a psychologist appointment in the afternoon. This morning was pretty dull, but I got a lot out of seeing the psychologist.

She sat down with me and we talked about where every system member came from, when we first split, why we split, and what the purpose of that alter has now. We talked about individual alter’s issues and how to work through them. We talked about who we hope we can integrate and who we hope stays around. We talked about the religious brainwashing and early abuse. We talked about the cult parallels and the psychological manipulation. We talked about how it wasn’t meant to do harm, but it did, and now I’m here. We’re here.

She told me we were real. We are valid. I am NOT alone because I can’t fake the things that are happening to us. 

She told me it’s a miracle I’m alive today. Between suicidal alters, brainwashing, religious programming, and a broken support system, she said it was amazing that we had survived so long. We. Because we survived together. 

She also wants me to pursue paganism and help the system heal using my beliefs, especially the alters most harmed by the religious abuse in the past.

So for once…I really feel validated.

I really feel like I belong in the communities I strive to fit in. I feel like I can use the word “survivor” to describe us. Us. We.

And WE are going to heal. Together.

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Thank you for reading and thank you for your support.

Quincy as taxi drivers


As requested by anon. :)


As we’ve previously done with the espada, we’re going to imagine that the Stern Ritter work as taxi drivers. How would they be rated by their human passengers?


1. As Nodt: 1/5 stars

Pretty sure this guy was *trying* to scare me, what with all of the “ooh I can make this yellow light!” and “hold on I’m gonna take this turn fast” and “oops I think the brakes just failed we’re probably going to die.” Kinda the worst ride ever.


2. Meninas: 5/5 stars

She was a great driver and all - very professional and friendly - but that’s not why I am leaving this review. No I just have to talk about how she lifted all THREE of our suitcases AT ONCE and lifted them ALL INTO THE TRUNK. It was AMAZING. She is SO STRONG

I think I love her


3. Bazz-B: 4/5 stars

I have to admit, when this punk guy pulled up I was a little nervous, but I shouldn’t have been! He was so wonderful! He told me he liked my hair and my eyebrows and my shirt and basically just made me feel so validated. I mean, it was kinda weird the way he only used one finger to drive and bragged about it constantly, but on the other hand he was such a sweet little punk dude


4. Giselle: 1/5 stars

There was blood in the back seat of her cab. I did not get in, but I did tell her. As I left, I am pretty sure I saw her in back seat licking it up. I think she’s a serial killer


5. Ishida: 5/5 stars

His cab was so clean! You know how I know? Well partly because it smelled really good, but mostly because the driver knitted seat covers for the backseat. Yeah, he knitted them himself (he told me). And they were white! White seat covers in a cab, and they were clean. I have no idea how he manages it. He must clean them so well.


6. Gerard: 3/5 stars

“Miraculously, I’ve never hit a red light,” he told me when I got into his cab. I started to ask how that was possible, but then he started driving, and I didn’t stop screaming for the next twenty minutes. It was a miracle we survived. As he said. While laughing.

But three stars because it was pretty fast I guess 


7. Bambietta: 1/5 stars

This driver is a totally f*cking rip-off!!!!!! I got in and she asked me in this sultry voice if I wanted to “help make her day really good” and I was like f*ck yeah I do and then she started driving around forever and racked up this giant tab and I had to pay like fifty dollars to go three miles and I was so f*cking mad and she was all, “thanks I feel great” f*ck that


8. Askin: 2/5 stars

Do not use this driver unless you’re okay with coffee fumes so thick that it’s almost poisonous. Only not poisonous because the driver “knows what sort of fumes it takes to kill a person” as he told me. Like wtf dude. Wtf


9. PePe: 1/5 stars

Look, I hate chatty cab drivers. I just do. I know some people like it or whatever, but I don’t. And frankly I think that if the passenger doesn’t seem to want to talk then the driver should respect that. But this guy kept going on and on about how love is the most important force in the universe and it was just so irritating. Certainly wasn’t feeling love by time I got to my destination let me tell you!


10. Mask de Masculine: 4/5 stars

There was a small man in the front seat who clapped whenever the driver did anything. Just sat there and clapped. A tiny man. Can’t make that shit up.


11. Lille: 2/5 stars

Look, buddy, don’t proselytize. I sure you are the messenger of god or whatever but also you’re driving a cab. So just give it a rest already. 


12. Haschwalth: 5/5 stars

I always worry when I have to take a cab in the middle of the night - will I be safe? Will the driver be awake enough to drive? Well, you don’t have to worry about any of that if you have Haschwalth as your driver! He was an excellent driver. Very alert. Very professional. He shares his cab with his partner, Yhwach, who drives during the day. Haschwalth then drives at night. From the way Haschwalth went on and on about him, I can tell they’re very much in love. So sad they work opposite hours. I gave him a big tip. I hope he finds happiness. He just, he had such good hair.

That time when

In that one episode, where Beast Boy turns into a dog and runs away because no one wants him around, and then gets confused with an alien dog instead. I just want to talk about how, when said alien dog is always slobbering/loving/being affectionate to Raven, not one of the Titans thinks it unusual behavior for Beast Boy. Can we just talk about that? Because that’s pretty big. 

anonymous asked:

You love rapmon admit it 😉

Me?

how can you say such a thing?

how could I?

really… i don’t know what you are talking about

Originally posted by bwiyomi

I don’t know who is this person… or why is he calling me babe out of nowhere

Originally posted by asdfghobi

yeah, bye.

PS: Of course I love him. I love his dorky ass to pieces. Like… his smile is brighter than my future. I wish i could talk about serious issues with him, in a white aesthetic coffee shop, with a cappuccino, maybe even discuss about books. I DON’T KNOW. I LOVE ALL SEVEN MEMBERS AND THEY ALL MAKE ME WAVER.

anonymous asked:

Please stop using the casualty hashtag, we really don't appreciate your shite on our feeds. And yes I am talking on behalf of pretty much everyone, because we are all sick of it. Many thanks:)

I don’t think you know how the tagging system works because the point of having the tag is so all posts related to one thing can be grouped together. Considering my liveblog posts are about the show they will go in the show’s tag. Shocker! Also, my negative posts are only going to clog up your feed if you follow me so.. y’know, do me a favour and stop following me because knowing an asshole like you probably does lowkey makes my skin crawl. 

Also, define everyone because more people seem to be disgusted that you’re sending anon hate to someone just because they didn’t like the episode. x

anonymous asked:

Ty for the post about 'disability =/= unable to perform life activity, in any manner, ever'. personally my disability is leaving house is too much, i dont stay out long. my therapist is great but she did say , 'you need to make sure you dont become disabled' despite me telling her this + how i will sometimes leave stores bc anxiety, even if i need groceries. i really want a service dog and she hasnt discouraged/ encouraged that, but it made me feel bad.. I AM disabled, right? how do i tell her?

We cannot tell you whether or not you are disabled. Only you can. The ADA definition of disabled is a person who has a physical or mental impairment that substantially limits one or more major life activities. 

As far as telling your therapist, they are usually pretty open to you determining how sessions go. So if you want to talk about your disability and how it affects your life and what you need to do in order to function, honestly just tell her at the beginning of the session. Likely, she will be open to it. 

Good luck!

Chelsea

tbh can we have a moment to talk about the fact that I got told that “my facial features and body were very obviously not white- but if I wanted i could look more European bc I had a more olive skin tone” WHAT ??? I am NOT complimented by being told that I could b pretty for a mixed girl? how HOW is that a compliment? it isn’t. it’s a sick double standard that’s basically saying if I looked any more like my mom or sister and any less white I wouldn’t be pretty and I’m done with that, it’s toxic and I’m tired of it.

wesninskie replied to your post: “wesninskie replied to your post: “wesninskie replied to your…”:

PRICE OF PRETTY IM FUCKIGGN YELLING?????????? listen…andrew would totally be frank i’m……..oh my god

HERES THE THING ABT ANDRIEL ID FUCKING LOVE A PRICE OF PRETTY VER but also like andrew would Never but like tbh so many people fuck up so many stuff abt him i can ignore this in favor of smut thats how desperate i am

milkovicho replied to your post:“andrewwjosten replied to your post: “guys please that last post is…”:

but did bandom ever shove a bird up someones ass

i feel like tentacles can’t compare but that was a thing

milkovicho replied to your post: since we’re talking about smut let me tell you that there is a glee…”:

milk fic was TAME compared to glee shit

NAH yea totally lmao

anonymous asked:

I'm not a Kate fan really but I met her once and we talked for like 30 minutes at a subway station. I couldn't figure it out (I'm from a really small town in Texas) and she literally told me exactly what I needed to do and she was so nice and funny irl too. We talked about politics a bit (I can't remember how we got there). From what I gathered she's actually very similar to you in personality.

Was a sweet little baby. And damn I wish I was funny. I’m better in real life (not to brag😉). But honestly I find it hard to be funny online?
I’m sure Kate is funnier, and I think she’s weirder than me ;) she a freak! But like I am pretty weird… We’ll never know.
Thank you for sharing! I love finding out about people who have actually met celebs in real life because you never know who they really are. Especially Kate not having much in the way of connecting online with fans. It’s nice to know she is a respectable lady to strangers 😁

3

I am loved on multiple levels

  • actual festival is a thing
  • they didn’t want to do the thing without Rei, so they waited with doing the thing until Rei told them she has enough free time to do it
  • Makoto holds grudges forever
  • Usagi is a little shit
  • everyone is wearing a kimono

I don’t know enough to talk about the patterns on their clothes, I can only say it’s all very pretty.

I AM SO HAPPY I CAN GET DEUS EX GO ON MY DERPY 20 DOLLAR PHONE BECAUSE I AM SO IN LOVE LOVE LOVE WITH THE ART~!!! I CANNOT EVEN TEL LYOU HOW MUCH I LOVE THE ART; LIKE, YEAH, I LOVE HOW PRETTY THE MAIN GAMES ARE, BUT I LOVE CHUNKY CUTE CARTOON ART MORE THAN LIFE~!!!!!!!!! I CAN BUY IT DURING FALL BREAK AND PLAY THE HECKITY DECKITY OUT OF IT SINCE I HAVE TO WAIT ‘TILL DEC/JAN TO PLAY DXMD~!!!

Honestly, though, Adam’s movements in Deus Ex GO look more Murish than canon! Adamish~. Not so much what he is doing, we already know he does a lot of this in main games.  No ,what I am talking about is (and maybe it’s just the way it is animated) is the way his movements are wolfish, darting, and there is a lot of jumping around involved. In my head, that is Mur whereas canon! Adam in my head is more grounded, not graceful in the normal sense, but you know, far less mess and reckless than Mur~. Mur is scary because he will rush and jump fings that a normal person, even an augmented one, would be like “NopE ON THE NOpe TRaIN TO nOT EVeN VILLE!!!111”. And granted, Adam is still more stayed than Mur’s (to give you an idea of Mur, here is Cornell from Castlevania: Judgement …Whose VA I fink I am gonna also make Mur’s Voice Claim because it is perfect fer how Mur is these days~. Confused wolf baby~. But anyway, aside from the howling attacks, that is how Mur would fight~. Dirty, angry and malicious without meaning to be~…With lots of blades). And yeah~. Now no one will ever be able to unsee Murder! Jensen GO~! At least not Ori~!;D

….

How did this go from a screaming post to a headcanon post~?

anonymous asked:

i know your inbox has probably seen enough of my thirst for thighs already but cAN WE TALK ABOUT MINGHAOS HANDS. PLEASE. HAVE U SEEN THOSE LONG AND SLENDER FINGERS AND HAVE U CONSIDERED HOW GOOD THAT BOY WOULD BE AT FINGERING???? BECAUSE I HAVE AND I AM DYING GOOD NIGHT

There’s never too much thirst here tbh, esp if it’s about thighs 😏 BUT OMG Y E S HIS HANDS ARE SO PRETTY AND HIS FINGERS ARE SO NICE and I love how your mind goes down that route because occasionally SAME 😫 do we need a Minghao fingering scenario but also Mingyu’s fingers? JeonghaN’S FINGERS??

…I’m naming you thirst anon because I can aND IT’S WITH ALL THE LOVE 😘 (but if you want another name just say ❤︎)

Admin Scooter

The inventor of coffee should get a Nobel Prize. This day will be so long. Can we just fast forward to Sunday already? One happy moment to share, though. I don’t talk about my boys very often because that is one of the few things I’m pretty private about. My youngest called me at like 7 am to wake me up and tell me about one of his new lego sets he had just built. He showed the whole thing to me and described how he built it and everything. It’s the small victories we cherish. 

I’m going to do a few replies why I sit here drinking some coffee and waking up but I’m working a long 12-hour shift today. So I’ll more replies tonight and a ton more tomorrow.