“It’s taken me nearly 28 years to realise that the most defiant thing we can do as individuals is not to resist others’ expectations of ourselves but to resist our own. It’s because of my unique struggles as a female in this industry that I’ve learned some of the most defining lessons of my life. I’m much stronger now. An empowered woman with more purpose than before. And I found out that that place where the Missy Elliots of the world rule is not a literal destination. It’s the gut feeling you follow. The voice you do not silence. It’s when you embrace your story and stop avoiding the most authentic parts of yourself.”

anonymous asked:

Wouldn't it be easier to drink bleach or some other poisonous substance? Or to swallow somthing very dangerous to eat? Or to simply refuse to eat at all and starve? Or you could just bury yourself in the snow and freeze to death. Teeth are also good at tearing at soft flesh, like wrists, and they can't be easily taken away from you. You have to think out side of the box in a way that will still work. Gorging yourself to death is extremely hard and impractical, not to mention would take to long

*S t o p.
*The number of plans is becoming too great.
*I cannot keep track of this many options.
*We are at, what, 10 total plans?
*Might as well add drowning myself in the bathtub to that list, too.
*That might not be bad.

Taken (Part 12)

Pairing: Dean x Reader, Sam x Reader
Summary: When Sam, the reader’s fiancee, is kidnapped with no explanation, the reader uses the help of Dean to find her lost love.  However, many unforeseen things happen on the journey to find Sam. How will Dean and the reader deal with developing feelings for one another?
Reader Gender: Female
Word Count: 2,263
Tags: canon-level gore/violence, situational angst, eventual Dean x Reader
A/N: Let me know what you think!!



“Can I join you?” you asked, breaking the silence.

Dean jumped slightly at your voice and glanced over at you, surprised.  When he realized who it was, he relaxed and nodded, remaining silent.  He returned his gaze back up to the heavens.

“Didn’t take you for a stargazer,” you murmured, settling next to him on the small bench.

“I’m not.”

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In a bind

It’s hard to ask for help. I was raised with the belief that needing to ask for help financially was shameless begging and should be avoided at all costs, which is ridiculous (I know). There’s nothing shameful about being down on your luck. Here’s my current situation.

I went to the dentist last week, and found out that a tooth I had a root canal on 5-6 years ago has gotten RE-INFECTED. It’s been causing me terrible pain, and at present, the dentist is sure my tooth can be saved, so long as it’s taken care of soon.

I have to see a specialist for what is, basically, a whole new root canal (ouch). It’s going to cost me $1,500. Even though I have insurance now (thanks Obama. No, really, thanks, it’s amazing!!), dental isn’t covered (especially not the specialist). 

Because of how much pain it’s causing me, and the fact that the infection is pretty big, my dentist wanted it taken care of ASAP. I have an appointment for Wednesday (the 29th). But what I don’t have is $1,500. My sister and her husband, my not-really-uncle-but-family-friend, and my Mum have all offered to chip in, but I’m still about $1,000 short. I’ve had to cancel a trip to see my best friend in May, as well as pull out of a proposed trip to see a bunch of friends later this year. It’s really sad, but you gotta do what you gotta do. 

So I guess what I’m saying is: if anyone can/would like to donate (even a couple bucks) I would really, really appreciate it. No pressure if you don’t, just an honest plea for those who maybe could help and would want to. I wish I had something to offer, like fics or art, but I’m a musician and I don’t really see how that would translate over to offering up something in return. If you can think of something, let me know and I’ll try to make it happen!

My paypal is

Thank you so much, even just for reading this. <333

anonymous asked:

NORA i downloaded that daddies photo cause i wanted to swnd it to my friend and my phone told me the exact place where it was taken isbjaahasjd i can stalk you now (i wont dw)

i mean go for it

Magic and the gods are really truly a blessing. 2 weeks ago I was in a deep depressive state. But I prayed, went to my alter, asked my spirits to comfort me, and now I’m experiencing unspeakable peace. In the middle of the shit storm I can feel at ease because I know I’m taken care of. My gods and spirits are here and I have nothing to worry about. They let me know that often. I’m truly grateful for the day I decided to answer my calling and practice the art of witchcraft.

anonymous asked:

Ghost is like the ex who posts cute pics on instagram of how happy and busy they are now post-relationship and Puppet Master is the bitter party that can't stand it and can't move on. They should've taken the high road and tried to become successful on their own steam if they really wanted T to sit up and take notice but now lololol T is probably in a hotel room somewhere laughing. At least I hope he is. Anyways, where did you read/hear about Omega's part in writing Zenith and Year Zero?

That is the most brilliant comparison 😂
And true…I was also the Ghost of my last breakup, won’t lie.

It’s just something I’ve heard through the grapevine, I don’t exactly know the validity of it…

damn tumblrs gettin crazy each day

sunday - you got some hicks saying gender and sexualities are a choice

monday - someone got called out for liking maid dragon, yuruyuri and using greentext by a bunch of 14 year old weenies and gets their idea taken over by them, the 14 year olds make an even drier version of the previous blog

tuesday - shitty funnyman follower played a doxx and attack threat as a Joke:tm: and gets surprised when things can be taken to the police. the funnyman still argues his ‘no straights can play a Switch’ is the cause of all this mess

what kinda mess we up for tmr guyss

canon facts #2: Elizabeth is Red’s daughter, regardless of biology, even if Red does not considers himself her father, the honor going to Sam Milhoan who raised her.

Shipping aside, this has been proven as well. Unless circular arguments and cagey tweets and interviews are used, this is inescapable. In the canon that has aired we have a body of evidence that is conclusive when taken together. Individually clues can be taken to mean other things, but collectively they cannot be considered in any other way.

Red considers Liz to be his daughter.   

Red considers Sam to be her father, because he is the man who raised her and because he promised Sam, a man he loved, before he killed him, that Sam will always be Elizabeth’s father.   He says as much to Rostov, that it does not matter what biology says, Liz lived for 4 years as Rostov’s daughter and after this Sam raised her. Who provided the sperm is irrelevant. Liz is the daughter of all 3 men: Red, Rostov and Sam (one because of biology, another because of belief, and other because he raised her as his own), but only Sam claims the title of father because he raised her from the time she was 4 years old. 

Red considers that Liz was not Rostov’s daughter to raise.  And wishes he had raised him himself, ergo, he had a right because she is his daughter. But because he decided to go on a vengeance instead of taking his child and raising her,  leaving Sam to raise her, the title of father belongs to Sam.

But once Red killed Sam Milhoan, the man who raised her, and made a solemn promise to a man he loved that Sam will always be her father, he had renounced to being her father once again. Sam is and always would be Liz’s father. But that does not change that Liz is his daughter.

Liz’s father dies in the fire because Sam raised her. Because at the time instead of raising her himself, he left her to be raised by Sam while he went in a difficult revenge mission:

Searching in the desert for a drop of vengeance to slake an unquenchable thirst is a lonely walk, my friend…..Donald, I understand how you feel. Beneath the iron-and-rust exterior beats the heart of a man swimming in immeasurable grief. I am truly sorry about Audrey. There are few that understand love and loss more than I….Let me tell you something that someone much wiser than I told me at a similar point in my life

So at a time when Red  was at a similar point in is life, which is Ressler had lost the woman he loved, Red had lost Katarina, because she had walked into the Ocean , never to be seen again, someone advised him:

Go home. Turn back from this and go home. It may seem like the hardest thing in the world, but it is profoundly easier than what you’re contemplating.

what is what he was contemplating? Searching in the desert for a drop of vengeance to slake an unquenchable thirst is a lonely walk, my friend.  Red contemplated revenge for Katarina’s death.

I’m not turning back.
That’s pretty much what I said.

And in that lonely walk for revenge, the father died. Because the father is the man who would have always chosen his daughter over anything else. The Naval Officer died because he needed to be in the darkness in order to bring his revenge about:

Agent Ressler. Once you cross over, there are things in the darkness that can keep your heart from ever feeling the light again.
All I feel is hate.
Good. You’re gonna need it.

this is the same he says to Liz in the hideous fish story:

It may be hard for you to imagine, but I once had a relatively normal life– bills to pay, playdates, family, some friends, people to care about. Lost all that.
Lost how?
In Mexico, there are these fish that have colonized the freshwater caves along Sierra del Abra. They were lost. They found themselves living in complete darkness. But they didn’t die. Instead, they thrived. They adapted. They lost their pigmentation, their sight, eventually even their eyes. With survival, they became hideous. I’ve rarely thought about what I once was. But I wonder if a ray of light were to make it into the cave, would I be able to see it?  Or feel it? Would I gravitate to its warmth?  And if I did, would I become less hideous?  

So he embarques on a vengeance quest. Left Liz with Sam, and he feels now he should have raised her himself. Not Rostov, because she was never Rostov’s daughter to be raised by him, but he had the choice. It was Red’s choice to make.
This is why her father died the night of the fire. Her father was the man who put Liz first above hatred and vengeance. The man who would have taken his child and go home with her and raised her, instead of choosing revenge over the death of her mother.
This man who chooses revenge over raising his own daughter is the criminal. And with that choice Red killed her father. Kill himself as her father. Took himself from her as her father:

You’ll draw some measure of virtue from being her invisible benefactor. But that won’t last. It’s all a fraud. That it’s really not about her at all. That it’s all about you. And you’re just going through the motions to salve your own guilt. Look, all the money, all the time and effort, all the favors in the world cannot possibly equal what you took away from her. Everything else is just a nice gesture.

when he left her with Sam, he took her father from her, because he chose revenge over raising his daughter.  That is why he regrets not raising her himself.  regrets taking her father, and when she remembered shooting her father, he cannot tells hr she did not, because he made a solemn promise to Sam that Sam would always be her father.  Even if he tells her that life without a child is not much.  Even as he sees that his reasoning was flawed, and ultimately Liz is suffering because her past, her father was taken. He fears rejection from her.

And then he thought about killing himself all those years ago, but spared himself because even if he could not be her father anymore, he was all she had left, and his duty was to make sure she was safe.  The criminal that was left when he chose revenge over raising Liz

 And then he spares his criminal self, because he is the only thing she has left. her father died, the criminal lived. The father spared the criminal because even as a criminal, even as a man who could not be her father no longer, she is still his child.

Even if at the end Red is not Liz biological father, it matters not at all because he considers her his daughter.

ancillary confirmation:

Red tells Liz her father took her from her mother and Katarina followed them.  Rostov confirms Reddington took her from Katarina.

Red says her father was in foreign intelligence. Red was in foreign intelligence

Red says he was a very different man then.  

Red looks at photographs of Liz’s birthdays as a child and teen in her birthday. Only a man in a parental relationship would do so without being a creep.

Dom accepts a comparison that him losing his daughter Katarina is the same as Red losing Liz, even if Red bears guilt and Dom has none, in Dom’s point of view.

A man who holds another man responsible for losing his daughter and granddaughter and who nevertheless opens the door, feeds and gives shelter to said man, can only have one of two relationships to this man: father or father in law. because the man has also suffered pain at the death of daughter and granddaughter. In a relationship similar to the one Red has with Tom. Even if he “disregards” Tom, When Red thinks Liz is dead, Tom is the man Liz loved and Tom is the father of his granddaughter. Whatever he might feel for Tom, they are linked inexorably. they are family now.

Red scolds Liz like a daughter. Saves the man she loves because she loves him and because is the father of his grandchild. No matter if Liz is grateful or not, if Liz hates him or not, Red will always love and protect Liz.  Liz has betrayed Red, arranged to have him taken into custody, faked her death, withheld something he told her was a matter of life and death, outed him as an FBI informant, and yet Red loves her the same. That relationship of unconditional love is one between parent and child, regardless of biology.

Liz is ungrateful to Red, accepts his money when is convenient  and rejects him when it pleases her. One day she accepts him seeing Agnes and the next rejects any contact between them.   Liz acts, in short, like a teenager, like a person suffering from attachment disorder, because deep inside, Liz knows Red is her father, but she is scared of being the child of a man she considers a monster because what it says about her, and about her daughter.

Only a father would accept such treatment and brush it aside. A romantic suitor, a guilty party to her misfortune would likely consider the debt paid, the romance killed and moved on. But a parent cares not about reciprocity. 

So why does Red answers no when Liz asked if he was her father?  Because without lying he has to say no. Red is a man of his word, and he promised Sam on Sam’s deathbed, before killing Sam, a man he loved, that Sam will always be her father, a role that Sam accepted with great sacrifice to his life when he took her in at 4 years old.  Red himself renounced the title of father when he embarked on a revenge instead of raising his child. 

Why can Red say that Liz’s father is dead?

Because when he took that fateful decision to go for revenge instead of being a father, the man he was, Liz’s father, the Naval Officer, has to die in order for the criminal to be born. He became the hideous fish. And she is his beacon to complete this mission and go back to being himself. To go home.

What would Red say if Liz, like Rostov, asked finally the right question, not is Red is her father, but if she is his daughter?

He would have to say yes.  

For most is the same, but Red is a wordsmith, for Red is not the same and words is how he avoids the truth without lying.

anonymous asked:

Did you manage to give the artist of that pretty YOI art a link to how they can get the post taken down? I was trying to report the post to tumblr but sadly it looks like only the owner of the art can file a DCMa claim. I'm so frustrated for them. All the effort they put into it and some kid on tumblr steals it and refuses to give them credit. It's so rude.

Hello! in the case of this fanart, my friend on terenui blog contacted the original poster and they have deleted it thanksfully (but I have sent a message to the artist on pixiv just in case previously).
Apparently the poster thought it was an official art, so it was an innocent mistake but sadly it got reblogged a lot :/

Yes, only the artists can report their works. In the past, someone could act on their behalf as long they had a written proof from the artist for it, but sadly, now the staff doesn’t allow that anymore :’( so it get more complicated.
Personally, I know how the DMCA can be confusing, so after asking the staff, now I tell to the artists they can report in japanese by writing to the staff to

The problem though is those days, the staff doesn’t reply to all reports and it’s so annoying ==“” so asking the poster for deletion became necessary to be sure that at least it will be deleted…..

anonymous asked:

if you want to be a real man then buck up and stop screaming while you type. Its annoying. you don't have to put them there for people to read jfc

Originally posted by movinganime

So I’m gonna use this as a teaching moment. Cause I’ve rested and I can function, - a year ago I most likely would have taken this right to heart and been genuinely hurt or stopped doing stuff for a few days.

But I’ve learned and gotten better; your words are just that. 

Though the teaching thing, I can’t really do that[type without ‘ahh’] without being disingenuine – sure currently I can type like it’s not a problem, but that’s because I’m not ‘talking to someone’ I’m responding to a question. 

I’m acting. That’s how I’ve functioned for most of my life - pretend to be a person who can talk easily, pretend to be a character who doesn’t care, pretend to be normal.

So for those who don’t know i’ve actually been on tumblr for five years. At least. And in that time, I never tried interacting with people, I was just an invisable noodle just sitting. I’m trying to get better though, so i’ve been more outwardly social.

This is how I met @pepperemzie like two and half years ago, I saw her work on my dash and just drew one of her characters and put a small ‘hi I hope it’s okay’ on the bottom.

And then she messaged me and then wouldn’t let me panic and run away and now we’re best friends

She’s taught me lots and has been really really superbly supportive [as well as my roommates HLK and Bard] and when I worry about things I’ve said she’ll happily check them for me and ease my anxiety.

the three of them also are teaching me more about common internet talking with the emojis - like the ones that @biohazerd uses and they really confused me at first, as they seemed to counterpoint words??? but in context they make sense and it was super neat!

Ah, but the thing about how I type to people, it’s the same as my thought process - when speaking verbally I am clear to my roommates as they’re comfortable to speak around - but mostly for typing I don’t have that ‘words are picked these make sense use these’ so I type as I think. Of course it ends up with communicated anxiety as that’s all my heart is talking with people.

So yes, in a long story for you rude one, I type as I think, I type as I feel - as I am being genuine to who I am, and not pretending to be something i’m not. I’ve done that for my entire life. and I don’t want to be anything but me. 

It’s probably annoying to people, but it’s me. It’s how I talk and type, because it’s true. If you do not like me, then no need to interact with me, nor follow me.

I hope you have a good day. [and that this made sense.]

canon facts #4: the Red we know has been Raymond Reddington at least since he was in the Naval Academy

the impostor theories had no real facts behind it. Again one clue or another can be interpreted in different ways, but taken together they cannot.

  1. Admiral Richards knows Red since his academy days in 1981-83
  2. Katarina knew Red since at least 1984 when she got pregnant with Liz
  3. Dom knows Red since Liz was born in 1985
  4. Carla knows Red since they were married, at least since 1985, probably when he got out of the Academy in 1981-84 depending on whether one accepts the literal sense of “by the time he was 24” or the vernacular misuse as a synonym of when.
  5. Kate knows Red since at least 1985 because in 1985 he placed Liz as a baby in her arms
  6. Sam knew Red since at least 1985, since Liz was born
  7. Stratos Sarantos knew Red since 1987, when Red was in the NIA and Stratos was running weapons for the Cypriot resistance.
  8. Fitch knows Red since at least 1989 when the fulcrum disappeared
  9. Cooper knows Red since their mission together in Kuwait in 1989
  10. Rostov knew Red since at least 1989, when Red took Liz. At some point he had a gun in Red’s mouth. Red is the man he believed had an affair with his wife, and for a while believed him to be the father of his child, until a fake DNA test convinced him otherwise.
  11. Peter Kotsiopolous knows Red from the fulcrum. he certainly knew Katarina enough to identify Liz as her daughter.
  12. Dembe knows Red since 1993, when Red rescued him at 14 years old.
  13. Ressler talks about prints matching and tattoos. Even if the prints were altered in the Navy files, they were also in a FBI background check on file in 1989 in Reddington’s file in 1.01
  14. he also had to have fooled MI-6

So what are the things that make people believe he is not Red?

2 stories: one about the pool and another about The Gambler in 1975, when The Gambler was released in 1978. 

Red is a raconteur. If the pool story sounded better with him never going voluntarily in a pool he probably said it as much.  And if he listened to another song while installing carpets for Mr. Kagadolian in 1975 but he considers The Gambler the worst song he ever heard, he would change the story. Is what a raconteur does.

And noteworthy that both stories were to the same man: Niko Demarkian, a man whose loyalty he was questioning, so hardly one he was going to slip while talking to in such stupid details.

Unless he did so ex-professo to gain something from it.  

the famous line: I’m a criminal. Criminals are notorious liars.  Everything about me is a lie. 

People interpret this as if Red has said:   I’m a criminal. Criminals are notorious liars.  Everything I say is a lie. Or as if Red has said that he is not who they think I am.    About me is not who I am .

Everything about me is a lie is a reference to things said and believed about him: Red is a Navy Officer who betrayed his country and abandoned his wife and daughter to begin a career as a concierge of crime. He has no country. He has no loyalties except to the highest bidder.  He has an impeccable reputation a s a ruthless criminal.  

I think that he is still doing an undercover mission to bring this mythic battle to an end. His revenge mission became a undercover mission in 1994, when he came to an arrangement with Fitch to bring the cabal down.  Fitch was the man inside.  Now, with Fitch gone, he has become the man inside. and the man doing the mythic battle 

Fanon Lotor be like

i am not even sorry just take this


EP 12: Yuuri’s Exhibition Gala + the pair skating we all wished for