idk I just sorta can't. w/ this community. and I'm already stepping on some toes by saying this considering there's such an Enormous dislike here for ppl that create blogs and leave but honestly. I've been here - ironically - four times. I've seen all the sides to it. idk how to explain it it's very hard?? signing in here and actually finding the energy to do something. and breaks don't seem to help anymore. I don't know what it is that makes me feel so anxious and exhausted on this dash. it might just be time to shelf it tbd. ooc.