can't get hard

So my final critique was one of the most soul crushing critiques I have ever gotten that boiled down to the most idgaf ‘i dont get it’ ever uttered… and the two teachers walking away early. Partly because I had no defense for it so I had nothing to say after hearing that, because what can you even say?

I just.. nope. Checked out partly through and let them leave so that I could hide in the bathroom and cry for 30 minutes.

I’ve had like a day to sit with it, and even with countless reassurances from friends and other faculty, even friends’ family members to not pay attention to it, it’s cut deeper than I thought. 

Why am I mentioning this? Because frankly I don’t want to make things anymore. 

At least for a while.

It’s just kind of become a headspace of… ‘if im no good i shouldnt make anything.’ ‘if no one cares why should i do anything.’ Why do I write, or draw, or make work at all.

“I don’t get it.” lol

So ye..

My activity is probably gonna plummet on here for a while… so I probably won’t read or see anything or reblog anything…

so yeah, if you read this far, cool. thank you. i love you.

TLDR: I’m going on a hiatus.


I tried drawing Juvia’s major appearances from memories. It’s not completely accurate but if I tried to look it up I would be there for hours, and I had only an hour before class. 


everybody lives AU | AKATSUKI
• setting — the Last

Akatsuki becomes a mercenary group for hire, as they did in Road to Ninja. 
This is more appropriately named the “everybody comes back to life and somehow things work out AU”… but as promised, 10 Akatsuki members in the timeline of The Last! Designing is fun (esp the village flak jackets) (・∀・)

See more extensive character/AU details below the cut!:

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I hope I don’t regret choosing these hair and uniform colors in a few weeks.

[See in Full Resolution to appreciate the watercolor effect.]

Guardians of Notra pt. 1
  • Random New Blood, sets their hand on Cal's: If I touch someone, I can feel their feelings.
  • Cal: that's nice.
  • Random New Blood: You feel love.
  • Cal: yeah, I guess yeah, I feel a general unselfish love for just about everybody-
  • Random New Blood: No... sexual love...
  • Cal: No, no I dont-
  • Random New Blood, points to Mare: FOR HER!
  • Cal: NO!
  • Cal: Dude come on, I think you're overreacting a little bit.
  • Mare: blushing a lot
  • Kilorn, bouncing up and down and grabbing the New Blood's hand: DO ME! DO ME! DO ME!

Sns last day !! Have some self indulgent dance au~

i wish i could do things right and i wish i had motivation to get up

anonymous asked:

Hey there! Do you have any tips for drawing humans? I don't seem to get the faces quite right. Or any "special" poses. I just draw them over and over in the same poses with the same face and urgh.. it's so difficult. What did you do to get so good? Did you do any character studys or drew persons in random poses? What did you do?

creative use and study of references! the human body is like an insanely complicated machine. you’re not going to know how to build it unless you consider each part individually.

it takes practice to make dynamic poses actually give the feel you want

you can tell in 2013 the pose looks stiff and somewhat unnatural, even though the proportions are technically correct. it just doesn’t really hit the mark. in the piece i did last night, the proportions aren’t actually that superb, but it has a way stronger execution.

if you study how others do their work, it definitely helps, too. trying out their techniques to practice will help meld together what you’re already doing, and finding comfortable ways to do new techniques. 

do lots of figure drawing, but don’t pretend you know what you’re looking at! look at the human body as shapes, and translate the rough edges into the imperfect lines that they are

as far as Same Face Issue, this can be changed really easily! this can be fixed by focusing on: chin shape, hairline, and nose

i made a little example to show that with the same base, i can build chuck and the swaingels and still give them unique features

now just do that a million times over! i think last year i did around 500 pieces. you’ll feel crappy, because even after 20, you might not see huge leaps and bounds. you’ll start to grasp it better after time!

Can we talk about the fact that a lot of Pride events are super inaccessible to disabled members of the community?

Parades either don’t offer accessible routes or don’t offer an easy way for disabled people to join.

Pride festivals tend to be held in inaccessible outdoor venues that people in wheelchairs generally can’t navigate, and those with some mobility don’t have it much easier.

Gay bars are small, crowded, and often don’t have room to maneuver mobility devices more complicated than a cane. Same with cafés.

A lot of disabled LGBTQ people are left out of Pride events because they’re inaccessible to us, and that’s bullshit. We belong to this community, and we deserve to have access to the events.



The way Matsuo looks at Ebumi is too much.