Hi friend. I don't feel well today. I just want to break down & cry. I thought I had my depression beat. I had struggled with it for about 8 years and then I was saved and for about a year it just all kinda went away??? I didn't even have to see my doctors but every 3 months but it's back now for about a mont and idk I feel myself slipping. God is my help, I know but I feel so useless. What if He hates me and has abandoned me? I kno the Bible tells me differently but I can't do this without Him
my love, i’m so sorry you’re dealing with this. i’d wrap you in a blanket and give you a beverage of your choice, if i could. i feel like i’m a terrible person to talk to about this, because i’ve never dealt with depression. (i wanna say @aubscares has? also a very solid Christian, would love her to weigh in!)
here’s what i do know: God will not ever hate you or abandon you. God did not suffer and die just to drop you now. Tim Keller put it this way: “The gospel is this: We are more sinful and flawed in ourselves than we ever dared believe, yet at the very same time we are more loved and accepted in Jesus Christ than we ever dared hope.”
have your doctors recommended any medicines to help you? God uses means; use them and thank Him for that gift.
remember that your suffering is not pointless. i’m sorry you have to go through this, but i know that it’s for your ultimate good and for God’s ultimate glory. how can He be glorified through your depression? i don’t know, but He does.
study God. study the Bible. meditate on what makes Him God. i learned this saying recently, and i’m quite fond of it: “right theology informs right thinking. right thinking informs right feeling.”
i hope that helps a bit? please feel free to talk to me any time, my friend. i’ll be praying for you <3