Can we just take a moment
and appreciate 6x12 for a second here?
(Warning: a lotta Darvey fangirling at the end)
Ok, first order of business: Gabriel Macht broke my fucking heart. It’s not because we were dating and he broke up with me (lol what a dream) but because his acting was phenomenal. His facial expressions, his pouts, his eyes watering up, I swear he somehow delivered all these nuances with the perfect timing and that fucked me up so hard. I never though acting was difficult, per say (i was told in my earlier years that it was truly just reacting but I am constantly being proved wrong) but I KNOW I could never express such remorse and regret and forgiveness the way he did so fantastically in this episode.
ONTO THE ACTUAL SHOW STUFF:
“I don’t want to be angry anymore, but I don’t know how to stop.”
Harvey’s character development was ah-may-zing in 6x12, which I’m sure is a point that’s been brought up multiple times since the episode aired. But really, if you take into consideration all the resentment and hate he’s held on for who knows how long- think of how long he has deflected trust and intimacy because of it!! Finally seeing him let it go and learning how to forgive was more revolutionizing than any of the session with Dr. Agard that we were shown (sorry, I still love you, doc). He has finally become capable of fighting his own demons by himself, and that is so emotionally healthy for him and I’m so happy because he deserves all of it.
My last point: I truly think Harvey is ready to be with Donna. I personally thought it would be hard for them to be together when he would just hold her at arm’s length out of fear from his past experiences. I always interpreted Harvey as being scared to love Donna in case of the repercussions if he fucked up. The way he looks at her, now, however, is truly what wholly fucks me up. When she pops into his office after he gets back. When Marcus mentions having babies (WE ALL KNOW HE WAS THINKING ABOUT HER). When he mentions her to his MOM of all people. When they’re hanging up the painting and he ASKS HER FOR HER HELP. His eyes scream adoration and affection every single time she is on his screen.
For the first time, Harvey is admitting to himself that he wholeheartedly loves Donna Paulsen and he really doesn’t give a fuck who know it. He is finally (finally finally finally finally finally) capable of loving her the way she deserves and they are both aware of it. SO I SAY, IT’S ONLY A MATTER OF TIME.
in the meantime, someone hold me. 6x12 was so precious.