This wonderful human has been following me for two months today, and supporting me for over three.
I can’t express how much I appreciate it, not just from Henrik but from everyone in this cast and this fandom. Your support means the world to me 💛
Its okay Hypaa we'll love you and cherish you regardless of your pursuits. And if you DO publish an actual book. *starry eyes* PLEASE PLEASE INFORM US!!!! I WANT TO READ WHAT YOU WRITR CAUSE YOU HAVE A BRILLIANT MIND AND ATTENTION TO DETAIL *hugs*
WHY ARE Y'ALL SO GREAT, OMG
I will most definitely let folks know on here when I’ve done such a massive thing like that. I’m great at building on already established universes, which is why fanfiction is so enthralling to me. Someone else started the idea, and all I have to do is finish it, lol! So the idea of starting from scratch and building my own characters and settings and all that got me like
My bf has really tried pushing me on writing a novel and I’ve been completely reticent on it because I don’t feel like I’m ready. But hell, when was I ever ready to do any of the things that have turned out great in my life?
Welp, until then… lemme just focus on smut. Yes. LOL
I’ve kind of noticed a similar reaction in a lot of the straight people I’ve come out to (which isn’t many, but they are all nice people who consider themselves to be allies) where they’re immediately like “it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter” insisting it makes no difference to how they view me. Which is okay, but then sometimes they go on to imply that it’s so irrelevant that I shouldn’t have bothered telling them in the first place.
This does bother me a little bit? It’s the exact same reaction I get when discussing the general idea of coming out of the closet, where these same people start insisting that there’s no need to go to pains to disclose something like that in this day and age because it makes no difference, and that I shouldn’t “have to” tell anyone.
Sometimes they even use the term “you don’t owe anyone an explanation” which always gives me pause, because it’s true, but it’s also… just not really relevant?
It’s not about explaining myself to people, or about feeling like I have to tell them. I know I don’t have to.
But being closeted is painful in a way that I can’t describe, and it’s not a place I want to stay in for the rest of my life. There is a whole myriad of reasons for why I want to come out that straight people might not understand. And many of these are completely unrelated to how accepting or supportive they may be.
So just because the act of coming out is uncomfortable and I’m reluctant to do it, doesn’t mean I don’t want to. And just because it “doesn’t change how you see me” doesn’t mean it’s not significant either?
I’m not hurting myself doing something I don’t want to do for no reason. I’m doing something difficult but important for good reason.
And I dunno it’s like, I can see that they’re coming from a place of caring by reacting this way, but it feels like I’m trying to walk forward and someone is gently pushing me back while repeating “there’s no need to hurt yourself like this” while not understanding that even though walking hurts a little, staying where I was would hurt a lot more.
Got an issue. My mother’s friend is extremely rude. She only cares about herself and doesn’t ever seem to realize how she’s acting. Usually, I say nothing, because they’re 30 years older than me. My mother says nothing because she doesn’t want the situation to be uncomfortable, even when her friend completely takes advantage of her. And I hate it. It’s gotten to the point where I hate it when the friend comes over and I just feel so irritated and can’t wait for her to leave.
Today, the three of us were watching a tv show together (I was basically only there because my mother always wants me with her), and the friend was talking on her cell phone. So once she hung up, I said, very civilly, “Stacie, I’m only saying this because you’re pretty un-self-aware, but talking on the phone while other people are trying to watch tv is kind of rude.”
She got huffy and left right away. Now, I don’t know about you, but when someone tells ME that something I was doing was rude, I apologize. Not act like I was perfectly entitled to act like a jerk and how dare you correct me.
My mom was horrified. She said I was disrespecting my elders. I said that Stacie disrespects everyone all the time. She said I made her uncomfortable and I said sorry, but I’m not letting her get away with this shit anymore. I don’t care if it makes Stacie hate me, I’m not going to allow someone to be shitty around me, I put up with it for way too long, I’m not doing it anymore. If she doesn’t want me correcting Stacie, don’t have her around me.
What do you think about the whole ‘respect your elders’ thing? I’m 34. I’m not a kid. They are still older than me, but I feel like my opinion still carries weight. And I’m really about respect being earned. If she’s disrespectful, why should I ‘respect’ her and let her continue being an asshole?
I’m just laying here, crying. Not because I’m sad, or overly happy, I’m honestly content with how things are going right now and I don’t remember the last time I felt this way.
I’m a full time artist who isn’t starving. I get to create brands and illustrate everyday AND GET PAID! My skill set is constantly improving and my talents are valued .
What makes me really happy is that my old boss sent me a message about an illustrator from Minneapolis and said “this is going to be you”. He is the best boss I’m ever going to have for the simple fact that he remembers details like this. I’m truly blessed for having him in my life and it’s so cool to see his work in person now that he’s ventured off to better places.
I’ll definitely make it to wherever I set my mind to and this is the greatest relief.