So I was feeling really down because motivating myself to write has been super hard recently (even though I still love writing- IDK my brain is weird) but my bae @edendaphne suggested I do this amazing thing where I literally write the first thing that pops into my head- no punctuation- just a stream of consciousness.
It actually cheered me up and I feel a lot better so I encourage it! FYI this was my “Stream of Conscious”
“The Guardians of the Galaxy soundtrack is fuckin LIT and I really cant wait for the next movie but like seriously there are too many superhero movies nowadays and marvel can’t write a villain to save their lives unless its Loki and I get Loki is totally bae and stuff but like there’s more to life than Tom Hiddleston and I can’t believe I just wrote that sentence I feel like the Hiddleston fangirls are going to descend like the mist in Silent Hill and murder me where I sit I am terrified.”
okay guys but why nobody is talking about that scene in 1x10??? it’s one of my fav bellarke scene!
at first we have clarke saying “here” very gently and SHE RESTS HER HAND ON HIS BACK IM DYING
and then there some hands touching
AND THEY’RE SO CLOSE OH GOD
and then we have bellamy all flustered looking up and down, not making long eye contacts
and then that’s when i died for real because bellamy this actual little puppy that said “im scared” not long before is asking her “you feeling better?”
clarke answers “yeah” with a smile, a nice smile and comforting smile and she tilts her head to him
AND THEN asdfgjhkl bellamy waits a few seconds before saying “that’s good” his voice all hoarse and everything (he cares for her so much of course that’s good “that’s good you didn’t die because im totally in love with you please dont die”) and he has that little smile
INTIMACY GUYS RIGHT THERE:
they’re smiling at each other and looking into each other’s eyes if it’s not love what is???? AND THE’RE SO CLOSE
buuut bellamy is like “oops i’m showing too much emotion gotta cover it and talk about my sister”
“blablabla about octavia and murphy”
AND “dont tell me you trust [murphy] now?” and clarke is like this:
“ugh no bellamy you’re the only one i trust, i dont even trust finn and im supposed to be in love with him”
AND THE FINAL ACT WITH ALL THE FEELS
“i do believe in second chances though” and subtext “bellamy it means i gave you a second chance, and god im grateful you’re the best thing that happened to me”
and bellamy cant meet the intensity of her gaze and words and turn his head
and then they’re back into leaders mode (note: clarke doesnt have much faith in finn neither what does it mean what does it mean hahahahahaha)
im sorry i got carried away and it was supposed to be a serious post but feelings you know?
but that scene: we have touching, little smiles at each other, looking into each other’s eyes, real intimacy, really close to each other, CARING ABOUT THE OTHER that’s when i started to really ship bellarke that beautiful ship, what did we do to deserve such a blessing?
Some favourite artistic representations of fifteenth century dresses. Bit of a mixed bag, though mostly Burgundian/French influenced, but with a bit of Italian in the second last. Yes I know portraits aren’t always faithful resources but this is just so I can fangirl.
(Ladies- Isabel of Portugal, Duchess of Burgundy; Anne of Burgundy, Duchess of Bedford; Margaret of Burgundy, Dauphine of France; Arolfini’s wife from the Arnolfini portrait by Jan van Eyck; Margaret of Denmark, Queen of Scots; Margaret of York, Duchess of Burgundy; lady from the Visitation by Ghirlandaio, often identified as Giovanna degli Albizzi; and from the end of the century Anne de Beaujeu, or Anne of France, daughter of Louis XI)