can i do it

white fandom treating shadowhunters as if it isn’t worth anything as soon as malec isn’t being done well feels like an erasure of magnus, as if as soon as the pairing itself has missteps then magnus’ presence no longer has any worth when he’s actually still really important to the lgbt+ asian community or even just the asian community in general

i’m not saying it isn’t deserving of criticism bc it absolutely is but there’s a certain discomfort i feel reading the rhetoric and it’s just really different when it’s coming from a poc vs someone who’s white

i don’t even know how to comprehend that something I created has been seen by so many people – like holy damn. HOLY DAMN.

I’ve been working! I mean, screaming! I mean- WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE.

Anxiety from doing A Dumb Thing today kept me from sleeping despite not getting any sleep the previous night, so I’m doing this. May as well make the nerves be productive if they’re going to ruin things as usual. Doesn’t help that I’m about to begin day 5 out of a 7 day stretch at mind-numbing day job. People are burning up my brain with nonstop chatter: I just want to be left alone to work on this so I can finally get on with things.

Only on the second eagle illustration. And as usual, I have not yet started on the ever important bird portion of it. So. Slow.

lol yall so heated im seein people threatening to delete their blogs & shit as if it's gonna fix the situation and i'm gettin mad flashbacks to #cutforbieber LOLOLOL

but like really y'all it’s out of Shawn’s control, the deal is done, charlie will probably give an apology and what not.

also, i see people talking about how Shawn has been silent about like Trump and the social issues of our country and are gettin like upset that he hasn’t been vocal in politics but like

he isn’t american
he most likely isn’t enthralled in american politics in his free time

stop expecting him to be this super hero activist and shit

like he’s an almost 19 year old dude tryna juggle a career, i highly doubt he wants to spend the milliseconds he has to breathe immersed in American Politics.

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Drawing suggestions open for a short time!

I’m looking through my inbox for requests to do in-between my last few commissions…aaaand most of them are comic ones, sooo I’ll open suggestions as long as they’re not comic related ones!

Anyway...

Robert loves Aaron and has proven it over and over and over again and he is gonna make a drunken mistake because he is falling apart and not coping at all without him. Aaron is getting his ass beat and using drugs (🙄) and Liv is getting expelled and everything is crashing down on him proving he is incapable of surviving without Aaron around. He is going to feel bad about whatever happens (which we don’t know what does or doesn’t) and talks to Chas about it. This stuff is not the actions of a man who doesn’t care about breaking vows. It’s not the actions of a man who didn’t mean everything he has ever said to his husband. These actions do not invalidate what he said or how he feels about Aaron.

When confronted with extreme emotional pain both Robert and Aaron make terrible decisions that they definitely regret later. It’s human. Don’t vilify either of them for making mistakes while extremely upset. I’m not saying what’s been done is right or okay. But please don’t say that making a mistake (a drunken one btw) when the love of your life is suffering so much, is so far away from you, and you’re failing at keeping things together while they are away invalidates their love for them.