can i be you

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something vaguely moboween

dunno if this is gonna grow into something else but pls just have this for now

I’m not sure how to respond to multiple replies simultaneously and I feel horribly awkward bringing attention to myself and my feelings even when acknowledging that my blog should be my own space. But I just wanted to thank you all (instead of disappearing as per my usual) for caring enough to comfort me over a vaguely worded text post. I’ve been incredibly depressed for the past few weeks- accounting for lack of posts lately- that I was overwhelmed that you’d be concerned with a random stranger (especially me, who interacts so rarely on this site that I don’t come off very friendly). I knew it was something incredibly trivial to be upset over, especially being so ambiguous, but with so many simultaneous doubts, I kind of just broke down crying. Embarassingly, I’m still kind of upset haha, but much better for your words.

gosh you guys are so nice ; - ;

I’m working on reaching out to people more, although I feel more hesitant than ever to initiate conversations, so I hope to actually get to know you all this time around :’)!

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so I was tagged by @teereckt and @vclgin and @adam-levineyard to post six selfies so here we go

they’re from oldest to newest and on top of it all the oldest was taken in september and the newest was taken just before new year’s I think because honestly I didn’t take many selfies during the summer (although I do have one bathroom selfie where I’m covered in fake blood because of work oops)

but hey friends thanks for tagging me and now I’m gonna tag @junkheart and @sassassino and @shuurima and @elontheloose but if someone else wants to do this you can just blame it on me (8

anonymous asked:

How would you grade last night's Blacklist episode?

If we’re doing school grades, then a solid B, I’d say. 

And even that is only carried by Spader’s acting; because from a dramaturgical viewpoint I think the episode fell flat in many aspects; the biggest one being the lack of emotional payoff at the end. While it was nice to see Red suffer for 30+ minutes I really would have wanted him to interact more with Liz, or even other members of the task force. 

Because while I liked LouLou in her doctor who-esque one episode companion role, I think that Liz could have filled that role quiet nicely. That way we would have gotten some actual emotion from Liz, have her put in Red’s shoes to see how he must have felt when she ‘died’. It would have been a perfect opportunity to address that betrayal (because what better way to have Liz address it than when Red is looking for someone else who has betrayed him? Cue guilty looks from Liz until she eventually breaks during one of his more violent coughing fits). Plus, bringing up Liz’s death would have offered a perfect opening to cast Kaplan as the mole / attacker. 

As it is, I feel like the writers had a lot of great ideas. The blacklister had creepy potential but would have needed some more hashing out, I think. The whole reversal of time story arc, where Red attempts to re-trace his steps was super interesting, but also very cautious. Why not go all out and have a sweep episode style story arc where you ONLY have to puzzle past events together? I feel like they could have been bolder with this.

(Plus I’m bitter because I got exactly NONE of the things I was looking forward to: Liz interacting with dying!Red, Red revealing some secrets to Liz on his deathbed, Liz being there with Red on his deathbed / maybe even touching him, Red having a death bed scene at all; The speculations: Red going to see Agnes, Liz throwing that window in with a chair to get Red some medication. Mostly Red and Liz interaction, tbh.)

This would have been an amazing chance to actually fix their relationship and get them on speaking terms again / show the viewers that Liz DOES care (Raymond, I do love- this could have been brought up again, be it in a romantic sense or not). Just add in an actual climax to your episode, instead of solving the apparent problem in 2 seconds off-screen. That was just incredibly lazy writing IMO. So sadly, narrative arc-wise, we’re still not moving anywhere.

I feel like the entire The 100 fandom just needs a quicky reminder.

A lot of the characters on this show are supposed to be children!

This is easily forgotten because these characters are played by adults (which is a problem in media in and of itself but it’s the CW so what are you gonna do?). But it’s still important to remember:

Clarke is 18. Technically an adult but still very young to but running an entire group of people (that aren’t just other children). 

Octavia is 17 at most. 

Same goes for Jasper and Monty but I’d waver on the side of them being closer to 16. Same as Harper.

They are older teenagers capable of making their own decisions which means that they have to take responsibility for those decisions. It doesn’t excuse the shitty and problematic things that they do. 

What it does mean is that they are still learning. They are still growing into a whole person. They are going to make mistakes. Some of those mistakes, especially in these high stake situations, are going to have more intense consequences for them and others around them. But they are still in the process of learning who they are and the difference between right and wrong.

They are still learning.