can I graduate college first

risetoshinee asked:

# 29 55 and 98.

29. Name something you cannot wait for: I can’t wait until August when I finally graduate college.

55. First hookup: In tenth grade, in the back of a truck in a field. I ended up dating him for four years after that.

98. Out of everything in the world what do you wish for? I wish that everyone in my family could get over their problems, and be happy and healthy.

Thanks for asking!  

First generation American college graduate of migrant parents from the Philippines

Since graduating from college, I’ve taken to social media to post pictures, videos and status updates like a parent who had just given birth to their first child. My friends are probably sick of all my postings and I don’t blame them!! After this day, posts about my college graduation will stop, but not before I sneak a paragraph or two about it—I can’t help it! Graduating after leaving college the first time because I just could not take the pressure and anxiety is a major feat. Also, being a first generation college graduate American of migrant parents from the Philippines has definitely opened my eyes to a world of possibilities.

I always knew that education was important and in the past I convinced myself that college was just not for me and that I wasn’t smart enough or had the drive to pursue higher education. I was more interested in making money and working my way up the ladder; I did well for myself, getting promoted to higher positions and making more money than I could handle, but I just wasn’t satisfied. It wasn’t the job that I was in; it was this nagging feeling that I didn’t allow myself to reach my full educational potential. I wanted more and I wanted a specific career that required knowledge and training that I would’ve only gotten from college. Again, I convinced myself that this was just a pipe dream and I was prepared to live a comfortable life in a career that I didn’t want, but my mom convinced me to go back to school because she saw that I was unhappy.

No matter how positive and happy I was, my mom saw right through that and gave me that push to go back to college. I happily sacrificed my career and the comfortable life I lived to being unemployed and living a very strict budget. It was hard at first, but knowing that I was getting an education and hopefully a career in the field of psychotherapy kept me going. I am thankful for the support system that I have and the mentors, peers and professors that made this journey worth it. In the fall, I start taking courses towards getting an MA in Clinical Mental Health Counseling and, hopefully, getting an MA in Marriage and Family Therapy afterwards. I am also looking for jobs that are related to my career.

I might still be poor and living below my means, but I am happy with my accomplishment and privileged that I’ve had the opportunity to work and learn from great leaders in my community. I am grateful that I have family, friends and a partner who have gone through my ups and downs in my collegiate journey and I know that as I continue to pursue my dreams they will be there for all my happy, sad, frustrated and angry moments.