Repost from @unlimitedinktattoojag #calipoppies call to make a appointment 408 217 9917 or come into the shop 4213 Barrymore drive san jose 95117 #califlowers #stateflower #brightcolors #liners #cleanlines #cleanwork #goodblends #satlikeachamp #sj #bayarea #408 #650 #510 #sf #shaders #beautifull #calilove


The days aren’t getting any easier, but I am going through the motions as I must and there are glimmers of hope - a laugh that isn’t forced, a hug from someone who understands.
Recovery isn’t about fear food challenges or heated protein bars anymore. It’s sitting down in front of a plate of califlower cheese and feeling paralysed but picking up your knife and fork and working through it piece by piece. It is seeing a pile of peanuts on your plate and shaking and sobbing but eating them all and then going onto the next meal, sobbing as you hold back from smearing butter onto a plate. Here it’s all scraped clean, as it must be. As you must to break the control and get better. It’s accepting the second glass of lucosade in as many hours, it is forgiving yourself for moments where you stumble, but not allowing the monster to win and always accepting the replacement when offered. Nothing here will compromise your overall nutrition. As must be the case. It is then sitting with the thoughts that torment you, because thoughts cannot hurt you as actions do. It is also talking when you simply cannot sit still, talking and opening up and admitting defeats.
Recovery is not pretty, it is painful. Recovery is not a game, it is reality.
Recovery IS, however, possibility. There are victories too, sometimes as little as smiling over peanut butter on toast and then joking with a friend about turning into a monkey (nut). It is moments of coming to life again. I think. This is why I will wake up tomorrow and core that apple and pour out that cereal and start the day defying the voice that wants me dead.
I will keep trusting in the possibility of life. I have to, for my own sake I have to.

Favorite things tag 

tagged by @jungmofeels dammit Jess I was doing hw

color – burgundy, black, turquoise? 

food -  all of em

smell - I like fruity things i guess

movie – Mean Grills 

genre of music - I listen to anything rlly 

texture – fluffy shtuff

time of day –  super early in the morning or like late @ night

celebrity – dunnoo

drink – Anything boba :^)

precious stone -  emerald? cause pokemon

animal – does momo count as an animal

flower – gross

font – lol times new roman 

sound –  I liek rain

fruit – alll of theeeem 

vegetables – carrots califlower :^) potato

shop – I don’t shop a lot but I always go to the mall so…

fashion style – T-shirt and skinny jeeeeans with jacket

workout – LOL

boy names –  no idea

girl names – dunnoo

potato chip flavor – the sour cream

meal of the day - I’m always eating

ice cream flavor – cookies and cream? and vanilla

fro yo – is this frozen yogurt cause i like all

sorbet - the heck is this

season - winter and spring

month - November

word - same

Disney princess - Minnie Mouse

insult – same

eye color - the nice looking ones

candy – idk man i luv candy too

restaurant – does quickly count as a restaurant

language – dunno 

thing about myself -  ??? I’m blind asf without my glasses. 

@kittibe @topdaddyjungyeon your probably already tagged by someone but yeah :^)

I’m so in love with Califlower Pizza that I’m coming up with new toppings to try each week. This week is Green peppers, Onions, Tomato, Monterey Jack Cheese, and Artichoke (Thank you for the idea Lucy Nellis)
Eating clean makes pretty food. 😊
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#cleaneating #exercise #instahealth. #fitmom #beachbody #21dayfix


Happy groundhogs day #wakeNbake #CaliFlower #oh #mMmBitch

the #cauliflower “crisis” exists only for people who continue to support the outrageous pricing presented by #loblaws and #metro. the rest of us are eating healthy fresh fruit and vegetables for less than half their prices by shopping at #nofrills, #freshco, and #foodbasics. it’s not the same high class pretentiousness, but I don’t need decorations and music, I need groceries. #shopsmart