Fallout 4 Headcannon #11 Nick Valentine wounds & Lab fears
Nick Valentine psychology
*Many spoilers ahead for vanilla game & Far Harbor*
Cut for length as this is a long one but I like to keep note of theories and headcanons like this one for reference in future fics I write. It helps me to understand the character(s) better and to decide on what choices they would make in given circumstances and situations.
Nick’s wounds & fear of laboratories.
One thing that has always tugged my heart strings with Nick is his determination to keep moving forwards despite what life throws at him. He talks very little about himself and his own problems (usually) but despite having a very strong personality and appears practically un-breakable in spirit there are many deep and sensitive wounds in this guy’s past.
Talking to Nick he uses lines such as;
‘I wouldn’t normally bother you with this but I feel like I
can trust you at this point.’
‘Some of our prior conversations to the contrary I’m not usually one for long sob stories.’
This guy is anything but an open book and for those who want to know him better they need to rely heavily on time and experience, picking up on small details and choosing their moments to ask questions carefully.
‘Are you okay?’
‘Do I look okay to you!?’
We receive an apology very quickly after this outburst but it doesn’t change the fact that he snapped at (depending how you are playing) possibly his closest friend and confidante.
Why? Because he is frightened. He is scared and is likely nursing a wound that is still tender even after 100 years.
We learn early on that he was some sort of prototype experiment and kept isolated. We now know from DiMA what exactly they were prototypes for and the kinds of experiments they were subjected to;
‘I watched you wake up not knowing who or what you were so many times.’
This sounds horrible on a normal level but with Nick it goes an extra step. The last memory that synth Nick could possibly have of the original Nick Valentine is of the man going to the C.I.T building to have his brain scanned.
Still in the C.I.T area for Nick to wake up he likely will have defaulted on that last memory – a human man going in for something he’d been hoping might help him overcome some of the horrors in his recent life only to wake up strapped down to a bed with these scientists pulling bits of wire and metal out of his head and body.