this month always brings the start of a new season for me. my year starts in April, always. it is here God loudly reminds me of that beautiful April night six years ago He captivated my heart with the greatest Love the world has ever known: Jesus. He’s promised the next thirty one days are going to change my life, again. keen.
Right now I’m just thinking back to the first time I listened to the Black Parade album (it was like 2 and a half months ago) and just wow. I was a totally different person then. And now I know about this frickin amazing band that has created the greatest music I have ever frickin heard and im so grateful holy shit im gonna go cry now.
Just thinking about the first time i even heard welcome to the black parade while i listen to it and it just makes me so fucking happy that i found this band. I wouldnt be me without this band oh my god. Why is it so amazing. Like how. How did i not know about it before? Honestly whats wrong with me. They are just so amazing oh my fuckin god my chest hurts. It feels like someone has stabbed me and twisted the knife.
MCR… you kill me, yet revive me. You scare me, yet intrigue me. How. Like what genetic chance made these beautiful humans that came together to make this music that literally transports my soul to another dimension.
These last 2 months have been a rollercoaster of emotions oh my god im so grateful.
Like is it possible to just give everything i have to the boys for making these masterpieces of beautiful musical creation. Oh wait… it wouldn’t be enough. NOTHING WOULD BE ENOUGH BECAUSE WHAT THEY HAVE CREATED IS SO AMAZING AND NOW I WANNA DIE OK BYE
Track list: 1. Dead! - MCR 2. On Top - The Killers 3. Play That Funky Music - Wild Cherry 4. Ding Dong! The Witch is Dead - Wizard of Oz 5. Helena - MCR 6. Ironic - Alanis Morrissette 7. Who’s Laughing Now - Jessie J 8. Bye Bye Bye - NSYNC 9. Funeral March - Frederic Chopin 10. Cry Me A River - Justin Timberlake 11. Leck Mich Im Arsch - Mozart 12. Photograph - Nickelback 13. Sweet Victory from Spongebob 14. Hit the Road Jack - Ray Charles 15. The SDCC video
Today I got my first Journal well as you may guess duh, so where should i start well my Name is -the paper is to damaged for you to fully make out the name- and I am 10 I live with my mom my dad my brother and my puppy kiwi. We all live in a big houes house im not really sure what eles else to put here about me soooo im just going to leave it here bye diary
March 5, 2003
Hey it’s been awhile hasn’t it? hmmm well today mom made some cookies witch is always good and dad’s been doing work things
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ahhh hey guess what im bored yay! yawn theres nothing to do i may go outside and explore but thats boring to. I could get snails and make them fight TO THE DEATH!!!!! or just feed them some lettuces who knowsss~
whelp it ended in a snail race no one won but they still got their lettuces i can hear them munching away it’s kinda gross you know? eh at least i found something worth my boredom see it’s a little bit of cloth! i’ll be sure to tape it in so you can see it! i just hope it doesn’t fall out
March 6, 2003
so i was walking around outside in the rain mom hate when i do that because i bring mud in the house but i almost never do. OH and I found more cloth it’s stained though, but i still like it I showed my dad it and he just smiled and said “it’s nice sweetie” but i dont think he really cares he said the same thing when i showed him a leaf!
March 7, 2003
ok i found a shirt but it smells really bad i didn’t tell my mom or dad about it yet i think they’ll be mad that i touched something that wasn’t mine hmm you wouldn’t tell them would you? yeah your on my side im going to tell my brother soon about the shirt he’ll probably just laugh at me for being a cry baby but hes a bigger cry baby then me!!
so i showed him the shirt and he just stared at it and luaghed that i was so worked up over a smelly shirt, i mean sure he’s right but you know i
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March 8, 2003
hey i really need to talk about what happened today
at the brewery, it’s craft beer, so, heavy on the dudes, though there are more & more women coming in too. ours is pretty family friendly though, so we see a good number of parents with kids. we give them a lollipop. it’s usually pretty cute, you know, they feel like they are definitely in a grown up’s place.
this little girl–maybe eight or ten?– comes up to the counter, a grown-up family member nearby. she is like eight going on 35. her confidence is incredible. here’s how it went down:
girl: hey. guess where i’m going?
me: where? [thinking, maybe a birthday party? the grocery store? dunno]
girl: i’m going to the WOMEN’S MARCH
me: that is AWESOME! that is such an important thing!
girl: are YOU going?
me: i was going to, but i’m a little sick, so i’m going to the march in new haven instead.
girl: yeah, mine is in DC! i’m going with girl scouts.
girl: but NOT to the inauguration!
me: [laughing] oh, phew, good thing! are you going to make a sign?
girl: I ALREADY MADE TWO! one says ‘i’m more than a perfect ten’ and the other says ‘THIS PUSSY FIGHTS BACK’ with a picture of a CAT punching DONALD TRUMP IN THE FACE [motions a fierce punch]
me: [practically crying with pride] I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! it is so important to stand together & demand respect!
girl: I KNOW, RIGHT?
me: well, i can’t wait to hear how it goes!
girl: i will come back & tell you! & i’m also going to the smithsonian. OK BYE!